Episode 94:
When the person I cursed and hated was actually a pretty good person.
When that person’s past was more painful and painful than we imagined, we didn’t know it. Also, when we realized that the other person really had no intention of telling us all this.
I can’t even describe how I felt at that time.
“…Boss.”
At that moment, I was out of breath due to the complex emotions.
Why did that person never think of letting us know about it? Haven’t we been tormenting people who are already having enough trouble? Still, if you had told me, I had the confidence to listen. If I had asked you to respect me, I would have done so with all my might.
I’ll tell you. Unless we were so horrible or disgusting, how could we not have told you about that one time? I am speechless due to the senseless injustice and misery.
The most miserable thing among them all is….
“Why….”
“….”
“…No, no.”
That I have no right to blame him.
“thank you.”
It was true that, like the characters in the movie, he did not deserve to be scolded, advised, comforted, or appeased because he did not care about his own body.
Because that was the minimum courtesy.
* * *
When you ask a doctor what you need, they usually say something similar.
Eagle eyes that can immediately find where the problem is. The heart of a lion that can act calmly even after seeing organs and blood that an ordinary human would never see. A woman’s hands are delicate enough to tear through a complex human body and bring it back to life.
‘But these are all basics.’
To put it bluntly, if a doctor is not skilled, what kind of patient would entrust his or her body to a doctor?
The human body is so sophisticated that if anything goes wrong, it dies quickly. Unlike objects, if your body temperature deviates from the normal range by just 5 degrees Celsius, you will die. Even if just one of the countless blood vessels is accidentally touched, you will die. Because humans can die from even the slightest thing, doctors must always be competent.
‘A doctor without ability is actually harmful.’
Those guys should all die.
Ha Seong-yoon thought so and smiled softly.
The sound of dry dirt or sand hitting my heels tickled my eardrums and made me feel like a bug was crawling into my ear. His sanity felt similarly.
It is only natural that a doctor must have skills. If the doctor makes a mistake and treats the wrong area instead of the right affected area, the patient will die. If even the slightest injury occurs to one of those delicate organs, the patient will die. The panicked doctor says well. It’s useless in the first place.
There was nothing they could do because the patient was testing the limits of modern medicine? Would I be able to say that in front of my guardian or a fellow doctor? In the end, didn’t the patient die in front of you?
Therefore, all incompetent doctors were sinners.
“…is this way?”
Ha Seong-yoon also did the same.
He looked at the notebook in his hand and touched his earlobe. From what I wrote and what I heard from her, this must have been true, but it was difficult to find the spirit.
“Did I stop by on the wrong road?”
In the end, in Ha Seong-yoon’s opinion, the most important virtue a doctor should have was skillful lying.
If a patient can ask for just one thing, it should be hope. The hope that you can live, that you can get better, that you can return to your original daily life or gain a new life. So the patient who clung tenaciously to my life was the best patient for the doctor.
And the doctor had to be able to instill that hope in the patient. Even if this person is going to die tomorrow, there is hope that we can do something for you and make you feel better about it.
What was needed there was a ‘lie’.
‘Even if something gets discovered, we can both get over it without any damage, or even if there is a hit, we can give a glimmer of hope.’
That kind of hope.
‘…Of course, lying based on numerical calculations is a terrible thing…’
That’s just it. You need to know how to lie at a socially acceptable level.
Just like Ha Seong-yoon did to Yoon Gar-ram.
“…ah.”
He soon stopped walking.
In front of me stood a statue sparkling like ice.
The sculpture of a snake climbing a tree was transparent and cold at the same time. However, in this world, it was filled with all kinds of glare, as if sunlight that did not exist was gathered together, so I couldn’t believe the chill I felt at my toes.
It was incredibly beautiful.
“….”
…how long I have waited for this.
“…oh my god.”
So what efforts did you make to become crazy and what kind of life did you live?
A feeling of extreme joy pressed hard against the back of my eyeballs. The space between my eyeballs and my brain felt tight, like the tingling sensation on the tip of my tongue when I’m about to burst into tears or when I eat something delicious.
“…Whew.”
I took a deep breath.
Ha Seong-yoon’s face, with its calming expression, was no different from usual, but the hands that were turning the pages of the notebook and the gaze that was glued to them were trembling. He licked the words written in the notebook and closed his eyes tightly.
Only after putting the notebook back into my coat was I able to lift my eyelids.
He raised his head and looked at the tree.
“….”
There were fruits on the long tree that looked like decorated light bulbs, and Ha Seong-yoon already knew that. He had already heard about that perfect sphere, so transparent that the other side was clearly visible.
‘So I was surprised.’
This is when Director Lee Jae-heon and the others brought a handful of it.
After learning the exact location, Ha Seong-yoon wanted to come here at any time and face the statue, but he could not. There were many other reasons, but above all, it was because it seemed like Director Lee Jae-heon would die the moment he left his seat.
‘But not now.’
The park is burning little by little and the monsters have begun to spread throughout the park.
If it had been as she said, the flames would have been extinguished in no time, but there was no time. Only the current chaos was an opportunity for Ha Seong-yoon. If not now, how would the suspicious Jeong In-ho or Lee Jae-heon view him?
In fact, the gaze itself was not a big problem, but it would persistently ask why it had to be done that way.
‘It would be easier for me to commit the crime and go back.’
Ha Seong-yoon liked his current group. I will never go back, but I don’t want to forget my purpose. I don’t want to tell you again. In the end, it was best for him to pretend not to know and take advantage of the confusion to achieve what he wanted.
Ha Seong-yoon reached for the tree’s fruit and quickly plucked it.
“….”
It felt artificially beautiful, as if it had been created in a workshop, but surprisingly, there was life in it. A life that is completely opposite to what is felt in animals and plants.
Ha Seong-yoon hit it against a wooden pillar and broke it.
‘…and then.’
What should I do next?
After thinking briefly, Ha Seong-yoon picked it up and put it in his mouth. The starch that I had become accustomed to no matter how many times I ate it flowed across my tongue, and a light sweetness moistened my lips.
Then he held the remaining fruit on top of the statue and gave it a strong squeeze.
“…Ugh.”
Snap, tap.
The sharp side of the shell gets stuck in the palm of my hand.
Nevertheless, I continued to press without letting go of my strength, and soon one or two drops of blood began to fall. At the same time, the juice from the crushed fruit mixes with the blood and reaches the snake statue located directly below.
A particularly bright red pattern is added to the smooth, transparent and brilliantly lit sculpture. It looked like the only moon in a starless space, and the fruits shining on the trees looked exactly like stars. The only color there was his own blood.
But surprisingly, it no longer looked like blood.
“ha ha ha.”
It is alive in itself, not just an appendage of humans. It was something so noble that it was difficult to think that it had flowed from me.
At that, the snake’s eyes
roll
“….”
“
….”
The snake that was a sculpture came alive and saw him.
“…Are you alive?”
“….”
“So you’re angry at me.”
Ha Seong-yoon happily accepted all of this.
“You hate humans.”
To be precise, this snake’s skin hated humans.
But I couldn’t help it. In order to talk to a snake that avoids humans, the most realistic way was to find its faults, and to get what you want from those faults, you had to make it angry. Only then will you react at least a little.
And around that time, Ha Seong-yoon felt embarrassed.
“….”
I was never told what to do after this.
‘…What should I say?’
Ha Seong-yoon had something he wanted.
What he wants is in the world behind this world, so he has always been prepared to come here. I put the bandage in my arms and held the lighter my friend gave me.
Ha Seong-yoon thought it was okay to be a little more crazy than that in order to achieve what he wanted. Isn’t it true that people who are driven to the edge of a cliff are inherently sane? No matter what was going crazier here, Ha Seong-yoon wasn’t very impressed.
In the end, I went crazy as I wanted, came to this world, and took just that one step.
‘Now I have to do it entirely myself.’
On my own, without the help of friends.
“…I’m sorry to wake you, but there’s something I really… really want to find.”
“….”
“I really need to see that. It doesn’t matter if it’s a trace or a fragment or whatever it is. “Everything is fine.”
“….”
“Can you show me that?”
Hemul didn’t reply, but
– hissed.
An unexpected tongue sound rang out.
Ha Seong-yoon could not hide his laughter at the sound that only a living snake could make. It was because I had no idea how twisted this world was.
Ha Seong-yoon instinctively reached out for it.
“Help me, please.”
Hemoul, who was looking at the hand stopped in front of his nose as if asking for permission, immediately raised his head above it.
Going down the palm and down the wrist. Ha Seong-yoon was smiling even as it passed the joints of his arms, climbed onto his shoulders, and wrapped around his neck once. From the chill I felt on my skin, I knew this wasn’t a hallucination, and I knew that soon this monster would take something from me.
Soon the monster stops in front of my right eye and opens its mouth.
“…not a bad choice.”
And
Kwasik.
“….”
“….”
The skin swallowed the doctor’s eyes.
Ha Seong-yoon bit his lip because the unfamiliar sensation of his eyeballs being crushed was unfamiliar.
‘…the doctor threw away his eyes.’
The corners of the mouth gradually twist with meaningless cheerfulness.
I couldn’t even describe the feeling of my nerves being severed and something round completely falling out of the inside of my skull. The blood vessels that the angry skin had broken were broken, and I couldn’t tell if they were tears or something, and they were dripping down my cheeks.
And soon, after finishing the meal, the skin climbed back up to the crystal tree and settled down.
“…Heh ha.”
Eventually,
the light comes out through the mouth.
My eye sockets, reflected in the mirror-like shiny wooden pillar, were not empty.
“Ha ha ha ha… ha ha ha.”
Nonsense.
“Ahahahahahaha…!”
Wow really.
It’s truly an amazing world.
‘Even the eyes that were pulled out come back.’
If this were the case, wouldn’t there really be a need for doctors?
In the underworld, where on earth can a breed of doctor survive? What can you do? Is it true that I can save people? Ha Seong-yoon couldn’t stop laughing despite all the questions and righteous indignation.
Yes, righteous indignation. It is anger caused by seeing injustice. If you don’t look at this and say it’s injustice, what’s the harm? Instead of keeping all loyalty, morals, and justice, they ruin everything. What happened to me as a doctor because of this world?
That’s why it was a laugh.
“ha.”
It is elastic.
My right eye, which I can see in the tree made of mirrors, is clearly a brilliant color like the skin of this snake. I wonder if I may no longer be human, regardless of whether I am a doctor or not.
“…The color is pretty.”
“….”
“Thank you.”
Thank you.
I hope you are not lying.
