Episode 166 Jeong
In-ho could not help but be surprised.
‘…Can those eyes see previous times?’
Of course, I was right to be surprised by that. Jeong In-ho was convinced that he was the only one who remembered the previous times, so he got goosebumps when Ha Seong-yoon told the clear story of the previous episode. The thought that it made no sense was the first thing that spread to his brain.
But right after that, I was surprised again.
“…Ha Seong-yoon?”
This was because President Garam Yoon’s name came out of that person’s mouth.
“No way, why…”
“….”
“…Did you kill Mr. Yoon Garam?”
Of course, Ha Seong-yoon in the past often acted like he was half out of his mind, but he still tried to be good to Yoon Gar-ram. I could tell that he was someone he cared about that much.
At least until Jeong In-ho dies.
“….”
…even though he had committed suicide, he had nothing to say.
‘Should I ask what happened?’
But do I deserve it?
Both Jung In-ho, who was the first, and Jung In-ho, who was given a new opportunity, ended up committing suicide because they did not have the courage to remain alone. Perhaps, if things went wrong the third time, I would have died without hesitation. There was no sense of responsibility or restraint in that action.
Is it really okay for Jeong In-ho to ask about the time since his death? Since I had already run away, I asked what happened to kill CEO Yoon Garam, whom I cared so much for….
“…Are you okay?”
I couldn’t do that.
“Let’s go back first. “I’d better go and rest.”
“….”
“It looks like your eyes are having trouble adjusting.”
“…I guess so.”
“I understand.”
Jeong In-ho, who returned to the past for the first time, was also mentally confused despite his quick-moving actions at the time. If this happened because Ha Seong-yoon recalled previous times, there was nothing he could not understand.
I just had that thought.
“Let me help you.”
I guess I haven’t completely let go yet.
‘I’m glad.’
I barely swallowed a sigh of relief.
Although he doesn’t know what Ha Seong-yoon is seeing through his eyes, the source of Jeong In-ho’s greatest feelings upon seeing him began with the information that ‘Ha Seong-yoon killed Yoon Gar-ram.’ It is not that ‘Ha Seong-yoon has become the same as me’, but more attention is paid to the fact that he killed the person he cared about.
That gave Jeong In-ho some comfort. Rather than being happy because he stepped into the same mud as me, it meant that he didn’t abandon the preciousness of life. It’s hard to say that this was a good direction, but I was very fortunate that I didn’t go as crazy as I had imagined.
So I really didn’t know if it would be okay this time.
“…Okay, let’s go back quickly.”
“Yes it is.”
Unlike last time, a lot has changed and Manager Lee Jae-heon said he would help me. I didn’t know if I could really succeed this time. That was a fact that gave quite a bit of courage to Jeong In-ho, who had a hard time remembering his first self.
As Jeong In-ho organized his thoughts, he heard a voice speaking gibberish.
“…my eyes hurt so much. It feels like my brain isn’t working properly… I can’t tell what I’m looking at. “I think I understand why I did what I did.”
“You shouldn’t understand.”
“I know. So, let’s go back quickly.”
Doctor Ha Seong-yoon muttered.
“…I need to see Garam.”
For some reason, Jeong In-ho blinked at the obsessional tone.
“Are you anxious?”
“yes.”
“Why?”
“We can’t leave it like this.”
“why?”
“Garam, that kid….”
“Why don’t you calm down?”
“Of course.”
Contrary to what he said, he didn’t look like he was calming down.
It’s not that Jung In-ho wasn’t embarrassed, but he tended to calm down when he saw someone showing a bigger reaction than me. I may have developed a sense of responsibility as a senior who had been in a similar situation once. He was able to maintain a fairly calm demeanor.
“I think there is confusion because there is so much information being received. Since nothing will happen right away, it would be better to take a break first and then take action. Do you understand?”
“….”
Ha Seong-yoon, who was looking at Jeong In-ho with a strange gaze, opened his mouth.
“…Do you know that?”
“What?”
“You look quite a bit like Manager Lee Jae-heon now.”
“….”
“I understand very well that you didn’t mean to.”
I literally didn’t mean to.
“…That’s it. “Seeing things like that makes me feel a little colder.”
“Who has anything to say?”
“I think I can roughly organize it…”
“Do I look like the manager?”
“It’s not exactly the same, but isn’t there something called an atmosphere? It wasn’t perfect if you were to pay attention to the details, but the overall look seemed familiar. “I would appreciate it if you thought I made a mistake.”
This time, Jeong In-ho felt more complicated emotions at Ha Seong-yoon’s words.
Maybe Jaeheon Lee felt this way too. Did he also feel this feeling of endless repetition and suffering? Jeong In-ho couldn’t clearly tell which part of the situation I was in made me resemble him.
He looked at Ha Seong-yoon, who was still spitting out no information.
“So many people died. You look sick. Am I one of them? Ah, where on earth did these monster friends come out like this?”
“…calm down.”
“Maybe it was just luck that I chose the park as my first destination. Did Jaeheon Lee know this and make that decision? At least we don’t have to play games like that. No, I might end up leaving anyway… It would be better to get out of this world first before I do something useless. Are you listening, Jeong In-ho?”
“I’m listening, but I don’t understand, so calm down.”
“I can’t calm down.”
He muttered softly.
“…Are there any ghosts here?”
“…yes?”
“No, this is not something I should ask Mr. Jeong In-ho.”
“….”
“Let’s go back.”
Jeong In-ho realized why Ha Seong-yoon was so dangerous in the previous time. It was a fact that I felt right away, but it would be more correct to say that I have finally felt it.
“I have something to ask Jaeheon Lee. “For some reason, I don’t feel well.”
“…okay.”
Just having eyes will put you in that state.
‘If it were the old Ha Seong-yoon who gained his eyes when the situation was worse, there would have been no way to do anything without going crazy.’
Is it fortunate that Ha Seong-yoon now seems to be trying to control himself? For that matter, all the information that comes out of his mouth is quite confusing, but Ha Seong-yoon also knows that his condition is not normal. As soon as I got used to those eyes, I would close my mouth.
He muttered softly as he watched Ha Seong-yoon moving his feet shakily.
“…a ghost.”
Unless it’s just nonsense.
It didn’t seem like it would be that bad to have something like that.
“….”
Jeong In-ho, who was staring into space for a moment, asked the doctor.
“…I think you’re recalling a memory from before, is that correct?”
“…maybe.”
“How far?”
“Unfortunately, I only have the one right before. It was only after I got these eyes. Even that seems closer to retrieving information stored in these eyes rather than recalling it… Yes, I think that’s right. All you can see is what is recorded in the eyes themselves. “I don’t know the exact circumstances.”
“….”
“…Wait a minute.”
He blinked a couple of times and asked Jeong In-ho.
“Did you say that the first to last person to die was Jeong In-ho?”
“…Yes, but…”
“Then what about Kang Min-ah, who was the last person to die just before then?”
“….”
“By any chance, you couldn’t think of Kang Min-ah?”
It was an unexpected question, and Jeong In-ho could not give an answer right away. In my mind, Kang Min-ah’s daily actions that I was too busy just passing by came to mind.
Have I ever felt uncomfortable with her?
“….”
When I woke up from a nightmare.
‘…No, that can’t be possible.’
Jeong In-ho reflexively started with denial.
If things were going to turn out that way, why does Jeong In-ho, who didn’t die last time, remember that time? If ‘Last Survivor’ was simply a system that remembered previous episodes, Jung In-ho’s situation could not be explained.
“You’ve been acting strange lately. Well, it’s not as good as the old In-ho Jeong, but…”
“…Why is that like that?”
“yes?”
“It would have been quite a shock if I had recalled all the memories at once.”
“…Isn’t it possible that I only remembered part of it?”
“So why?”
If it is true that Kang Min-ah really recalled her memories and that is why her appearance was so distorted, then why is she different from Jung In-ho? Why is the degree and method of recalling memories different from mine? Even if it is because Ha Seong-yoon obtained the records stored in his eyes, why? Because I’m the first?
It may be a far-fetched guess, but Jeong In-ho felt that he might be receiving unfounded favoritism. I don’t know who is giving the affection, and I don’t know if it’s really affection.
“….”
He decided to bury this headache for a while.
“…I think there’s more reason to go back quickly, don’t you think?”
“I can clearly see that things are becoming more and more complicated.”
I wanted to do that.
“It’s gotten really complicated.”
I really didn’t like it, but I thought that Jung In-ho could understand Lee Jae-heon. If you’re becoming more and more like him, it might be something that can’t be helped. The fact that you couldn’t escape even if you died was a more miserable and strange fact than you could imagine.
Ha Seong-yoon has already been able to see some of the previous time, and Kang Min-ah, who has been acting strangely, is also highly likely to have recalled memories, so why does he only feel this discomfort?
“…I was lonely.”
I didn’t feel like I had to block out my voice.
“I felt so lonely remembering it alone, so I wanted someone to remind me of it…” “
….”
“Even though I witnessed the possibility, I’m not as happy as I thought I would be. Why? “Why did it become like this?”
“Stop it, I’m not in a state where I can handle you right now.”
“Since when did you cherish me so much?”
“It’s troubling because so many things have happened, so please don’t do the same to Jeong In-ho…”
“But aren’t you curious?”
lose control
“What on earth am I thinking?”
The most important thing is the feeling of twisting.
The reason I couldn’t hold back even though I knew it was an unanswerable question was probably because I was so tired. This feeling of losing something that shouldn’t be lost is probably just because you’re tired and can’t sleep. So if you fall into a languid sleep while basking in the warm bonfire, all of this will be resolved.
It was definitely like that.
* * *
And
there was another survivor who was troubled by what had happened here.
“Why are you doing this? “I was just saying hello because I was glad to meet other people…”
“Go away.”
“I don’t know if you know that this is secretly hurtful. What do you think I did? Isn’t that really rude? “Are you saying I’m going to kill you guys?”
“I told you to go.”
Please stop, you crazy people.
‘In a way, it makes me sadder that the real crazy people are getting hit.’
The abandoned monster that I had barely become friends with had already run away. Even though he must have smelled blood from Song In-myeong, he ran away like that. Even for a monster in the park, he is quite gentle.
Lee Jae-heon, who had escaped reality for a moment, tried to straighten his distorted face and looked at the two crazy guys.
‘Fuck it, making a living.’
If the protagonist finds out about this situation, will he really let me live?
‘Already, I’m dying of anxiety because I have a hole in my hand.’
As soon as Kang Min-ah found out about Song In-myeong’s presence, she immediately took out a hammer, and upon seeing her like that, Song In-myeong lifted up the wooden block with a grin. No matter how you look at it, it’s a picture that will drive you crazy. At this point, it was safe to say that Lee Jae-heon’s concept had lost its meaning.
Of course, it is important to maintain ‘Lee Jae-heon’, but in front of those who will soon start bleeding from the collar…
“…Wait a minute. wait for a sec.”
He desperately tried to get between the two people.
“Everyone, please calm down. Chief Kang, put down the hammer. “Put that one down too.”
“I don’t know if you know what will happen if you get in between these two, but you don’t hesitate like this?”
“Please student. “Do we really need to provoke in this situation…?”
Of course, it is true that he did not hesitate to join in to make his mouth water.
The plan that came to mind during a conversation with In-ho Jeong the other day, the ‘Lee Jae-heon bait operation’, had not yet been scrapped, so it was a good option to gently coax him into creating a plausible situation since we had already met. To make that happen, the first thing to do was to calm down the excitement. Even though you have to do it.
‘I don’t know why Kang Min-ah is so excited, and I don’t even know who that man is, but let’s stop him first,’ continued ‘Lee Jae-heon’ with an embarrassed expression.
“Calm down and let’s talk.”
Because I still need an excuse to kill you right now.
