Episode 375 A man running at night.
There is an unspoken rule when it comes to dancing with the eldest brother. Not hurting each other too much. So, we had to control the tension and stop to exchange opinions in the middle of the fight.
In any case, he couldn’t deal with his eldest brother with just the power of the wood world.
As my eldest brother and I were fighting, the workers stopped their work and came running out to watch us. Watching the fight was an unavoidable instinct, so I left it alone.
The eldest brother showed off his full range of attack moves using the Dokgo Jungsword, but unfortunately, I also know the tricks of the Dokgo Jungsword. Most attacks and changes were predicted without difficulty. However, I didn’t think I would easily find my eldest brother’s flaws. In the end, we gradually increased our attack power until the wooden sword could no longer withstand it.
My eldest brother and I exchanged glances as often as our swords clashed. It was as if we could now communicate without speaking.
‘A little more…’
We looked into each other’s eyes and then increased our power even more. Now, as fighting spirit began to appear in my eldest brother’s body, his prayers became stronger and I also started fighting and swung my wooden sword.
Will the dance finish first?
At a time when I wasn’t sure whether the wooden sword would break first…
the eldest brother’s sword, which was attacking my shoulder, bent sharply and landed on the right side of my neck.
I stabbed my wooden sword into my eldest brother’s chest and at the same time accurately struck his wooden sword with the middle finger of my left hand.
Pop!
The moment my eldest brother’s wooden sword was shattered, my wooden sword reached his chest.
But as soon as the eldest brother grabbed it with his index and middle fingers, he turned his wrist and cut the wooden sword in two.
We took a look at the broken handle of the wooden sword and then nodded.
My eldest brother asked me.
“How on earth did you throw it away?”
“Stop the bullet. Did you intentionally grab the eldest brother with your fingers as well?”
It looked like he thought it was a real sword and held the blade with his fingers. At this time, the workers who were watching suddenly started shouting and applauding at the same time.
“Wow!”
Do we look like strange people in the eyes of the workers?
I sat down on the bench again with my eldest brother. The eldest brother asked as if he was curious.
“Can you destroy it with a bullet?”
“The moment I mixed the external and internal attacks, it exploded into one point. Because I was watching the trajectory all the way through, I was able to hit it accurately. “Well, since it’s a wooden sword, it’s not hard to hit it.”
We looked at each other with calm expressions and then started sharpening the wooden sword again while holding the dagger in our hands.
The eldest brother moved his dagger and peeled off the grain of the tree with an expression of rare satisfaction. It seems that I somehow liked Bimu. I also focused on making a wooden sword.
We finished each new wooden sword and then took a break.
Breathing became increasingly easier.
The sun was setting as if an ordinary day was coming to an end.
The workers hired by Magyo continued to build the barracks with the lights on, and the workers at Jaha Gaekjan stopped work and gathered in the vacant lot to begin preparing dinner. Since I always made things for my eldest brother and myself, if I was wasting time like this, I would be asked to eat.
Anyway, I’m glad I don’t have to feed my eldest brother the food I cooked.
I sat on the bench and watched the sunset from start to finish with my eldest brother.
It’s not often that peace comes to my mind, but today I felt quite peaceful. Also, knowing that my eldest brother’s mind was also in a calm state, my breathing became much easier.
I felt as if something had been ripped from my chest, and I cleared my throat once.
“Hmm…”
the eldest brother asked while looking at me.
“why?”
“no.”
Next, I felt as if a thin layer or membrane was peeling off my head, so I corrected my posture and sat up straight. I was quite surprised because it was a sensation I had never felt before in my life.
‘what?’
When I sat upright and crossed my legs, my eldest brother stared at me from the side.
My eldest brother looked at my expression and asked.
“what’s the matter?”
“Because my senses are strange. “It’s not a bad feeling.”
“Should I have a lucky breakfast?”
“I’m going to meditate for a while.”
“Okay. “With peace of mind.”
I closed my eyes and focused on my breathing.
I was embarrassed because something was happening in my body and I had never experienced it before.
When I calmed my mind and contemplated the inside of my body, I felt the same phenomenon. The membrane covering my chest came off once, and an unknown skin peeled off my head again. Each time I repeated this phenomenon, my breathing became slightly easier and my chest became lighter.
I felt like I wasn’t in a state where I really needed to meditate… so
I opened my eyes again.
My eldest brother was looking at me from the side, but the surroundings had become dark. When I looked up at the sky, it was full of stars. As expected, from a little distance away, the lights lit by the people building the barracks were very visible.
Somehow, I could see all the surrounding lights clearly.
So, it felt like the thin film on my eyelids had been peeled off. When I focused my hearing more than anything, I could faintly hear the voices of people building the barracks.
Only then did I realize that my five senses had expanded somewhat.
My eldest brother guessed my condition and spoke.
“I don’t think it’s a coin-operated horse.”
I nodded.
“Suddenly, the level of my five senses has slightly increased.”
“and?”
I told my eldest brother about the changes in my body.
“My heart feels a bit refreshed. My head feels a bit clearer. “My eyesight has improved and I feel like I can see more clearly than before.”
“Stay there.”
“huh.”
The eldest brother got up, took the torch handed to him by the workers, and looked closely at my face.
“How’s your breathing?”
“Breathing is easy too.”
“Tell me how you are feeling compared to yesterday or before.”
“State of mind? Is there any difference in the state of mind? “It’s the same.”
“If you feel something writhing in your danjeon or any changes in your body, prepare a fortune-telling breakfast right away. I will stand up for the law, so don’t worry. “Instead, this place is a little uneasy, so go inside.”
“hmm. “Nothing much is going on, but let’s go in first.”
After getting up from my bed, I headed to where the workers were. The workers said while looking at us.
“The meal will be ready soon. Come over here.”
The eldest brother answered while handing the torch to the worker.
“Eat first.”
“yes.”
Suddenly, I stopped walking and caught my eye on Jahagaekjan, which was under construction. The structure was now barely standing, with cornerstones and pillars rising here and there. On one side, the flag of Nammyeong Unhyang, the black cat of the Murim League and Jecheon League, was visible. As I added more imagination, the completed Jahagaekjan looked like a dream.
“….”
Now I know that even if Jaha Gaekjan is engulfed in flames again, he will no longer feel regret, anger, sorrow, or hatred. I was just ready to accept any outcome.
It was only after seeing Jaha Gaekjan that
I realized that a layer of madness that had been strangling my heart had been lifted.
It was a little absurd.
Past life as well as present life.
No, until the moment right before when I was dancing with my eldest brother.
I realized that I had never been normal.
It looks like he was crazy the whole time.
How could a person do that? He was crazy even when his eyes were open, and he was crazy even when he was sleeping with his eyes closed. It wasn’t a surprise, but I felt quite different today. The only person I could ask was the eldest brother next to me.
“Eldest brother.”
“huh?”
“Have I been crazy all this time?”
When my eldest brother did this again, he answered honestly.
“He wasn’t crazy enough. “I always walked a tightrope between the mind and the devil and the ordinary mind.”
“How about now?”
The eldest brother looked at me and answered.
“I don’t know because it’s happening in your mind. “How are you feeling?”
I answered while making eye contact with my eldest brother.
“not bad.”
The eldest brother smiled happily after hearing what I said.
“Then that’s it. What more could people like us want? It’s okay if it’s not bad. Just in case, sit cross-legged and enjoy the fortune. “I will protect the law.”
I sat down in front of the Jaha guesthouse under construction, closed my eyes, and then asked my eldest brother.
“What do you call this phenomenon? There must be a word for this situation. “But I can’t think of anything.”
With my eyes closed, I heard my eldest brother’s voice.
“I don’t think there are any words in Baekdo or King Jeongjong’s martial arts that explain your current condition.”
“then?”
“It’s in the magic road.”
“What is it?”
I calmed down and waited for my eldest brother’s answer. The eldest brother’s voice caught my ear.
“It’s probably a phenomenon of disembodiment.”
I never thought it would be this absurd.
What are you talking about?
I sighed briefly and then fell into meditation.
Does this mean that the path I have been walking along has been a magical path?
It’s ridiculous to insist so hard to say no.
Anyway, while I was learning martial arts, I suffered from fire and evil spirits. It was like that in my past life and it was like that in this life as well. Moreover, Jahain’s merit was demonstrated in the process of coinage.
So, the state just before the manifestation of self-made power is the state of affairs.
The state in which one performs one’s own exploits is one’s mouth.
It seems like this is why I couldn’t unfold it as I wanted.
In fact, some of my actions were close to magic, as I was driven by madness and killed Kang Ho-in.
Let’s admit it. If this is not magic, then what is magic?
After being crazy all my life…
It wasn’t until my mind returned to normal that I realized that I had gone seriously crazy. This was a realization that was somewhat different from what I normally perceived as a crazy person.
It’s a bit funny to say, but…
it means that it was rarely normal.
A few memories flashed through my mind like a flash of light.
Memories of smashing the head of an already dead Heukseonboju, memories of splitting the Vice Lord of Unwoohoe with an axe, memories of killing assassins from Saryugok at the lakeside, memories of grabbing Gyoyeong’s wife by the collar at the peak and throwing her down the cliff, using Ilwolgwangcheon. Memories of performing self-destructive feats, sometimes falling into sleep with a body that felt like it was about to collapse, and even how I felt when I danced in the rain after killing the Four Heavenly Kings…
This is the Juhwa Ilma and this is the magic.
If this is not magic, then nothing in the world is magic.
How far did I come back to escape the demonic path?
…I saved Mo Yong-baek, dragged Cha Seong-tae around, came to understand Lim So-baek, and tried to make Geomma smile a little more. Although he barely gave up trying to kill the demon and desperately wanted the demon, he never made it go away.
Because I knew that in the end, I wasn’t much better than them.
When I see a manly senior who regrets the past, I think about my mistakes.
I feel the heartache of the open ark that I cannot even imitate even if I were born again.
I felt a sense of awe from Cheonak, who was always training harder than me.
I don’t know much about the white-clothed student.
Anyway, what I was trying to change was the fate of many people.
In the end, it seems like those people helped heal my psyche little by little. Actually, I was running at night the whole time, and it seems like these people were gradually turning me back to the light.
Know the combination of extreme yin and extreme yang.
I learned about the combination of external and internal skills.
I am still immature when it comes to relationships between people. Shaking off the mental demons was not an art, it was not a skill, it was not a spiritual skill.
The moment an unknown regret came deep into my heart and I let it out in a sigh…
I felt like the dam surrounding the Heavenly Ok or Danjeon was collapsing.
Is something rushing in?
How on earth should we accept this?
I remembered the Great Sea I had seen with Gwangseung.
Did I hope that someday I would be able to take on this huge waterway? All kinds of regrets and past mistakes were swept away by the rolling waves and spread throughout my body. In order to accept and handle this, I had no choice but to broaden my narrow mind.
The words Master Ki Seong-ja wrote in his book or the words Gwangseung sometimes said while hitting me on the head…
I think the feelings were the same.
It is common for disciples to only hear what they want to hear, and I am like that.
In a space where I couldn’t tell if it was a dream or an imagination, I saw the Gwangma of my previous life running down a dark night road and being chased by the Murim Alliance and the Demon Cult.
Why did I live like that?
I felt heartbroken as I watched myself running away all night.
Where on earth are you running away to?
Gwangma kept running along the dark night road. Even in the midst of all this, it seemed funny that he said he wasn’t afraid of death. If I wasn’t afraid of death, I wouldn’t have run at night in the first place. In fact, he was one of the craziest monkeys in the world, but he wandered around at night hating other crazy monkeys.
I followed Gwangma.
I could see my face looking at the cup engulfed in flames. Before I knew it, it was not Gwangma, but Jeomsoi of Ilyanghyeon, who was glaring at Jaha Gaekjan with an angry expression. The helpless look in his eyes that said he couldn’t do anything contained the burning flame of Jaha Gaekjan. As soon as Lee Ja-ha turned into a light demon, he ran towards a dark place and muttered like a crazy person.
He swore that he would come back and kill them all.
As I was running at night, I was suddenly swept away by the black waves and struggling. My eldest brother’s voice was heard in the vast, rolling sea.
“…Concentrate. Third.”
After shaking off my thoughts, I began to practice fortune-telling to receive the stream of heaven.
