Episode 1176 I have something to tell you. (1)
Cheongmyeong burst into laughter.
“Anyway, I heard you should know Dongryong’s confidence. Even though you’ve become stronger, it seems like it’s still not enough, right? “If you think about the past…”
“I told you not to talk about the past.” “I said it clearly.”
“Ouch! Yes yes. Is it possible?”
In response to Baekcheon’s rolling eyes, Cheongmyeong raises both hands and pretends to be exaggeratedly frightened. As Baekcheon sighed, Cheongmyeong immediately burst into laughter and took a sip of his drink.
Eventually, a voice filled with new warmth flowed from his lips as he slowly lowered the bottle.
“Everyone is doing well, including the private quarters… and the executioners.”
“….”
“I’m not just saying that, I really think so. I can’t treat you better than this. “Everyone endured like hell.”
“I know.”
“It’s a bit complicated. When I watch it, I think to myself at least once, ‘How can I only practice like that? Are those human bastards?’ “I also want to.”
“….”
“Other times, I thought, ‘They don’t do anything other than training. I really try.’ “I also want to.”
“Just do one thing, just one thing. “Select one.”
Cheongmyeong chuckled.
“I know. Everyone is working so hard that their bones break. And that I am trying to be of more help.”
Honestly, it’s amazing.
He always scolds me for not being good enough, but Cheongmyeong knows. Everyone is doing their best to help themselves.
“It’s just too much for us to handle. “No matter how much we share, it’s too much for everyone.”
“still.”
“That can be powerful.”
Cheongmyeong pressed his mouth with his fist. As if I said something I couldn’t say. Then he took a long breath through his nose and spoke.
“I didn’t do it all alone. “I’m a person who can’t do anything if I’m alone.”
It was truly sincere.
Cheongmyeong knows. That someone was always with him whenever he did something.
When standing at the forefront of Hwasan, Cheongmun led and Cheongjin supported the back. When fighting against the most powerful enemies, Tang Bao had his back.
Without them, Cheongmyeong would have been nothing more than a powerhouse. Because of them, Cheongmyeong was able to become the Emperor of Plum Blossoms.
“I wouldn’t have come this far if it weren’t for Sa-suk and the accident victims. Of course, Jang Mun-in, elders, and other Hwasan people.
“Things that I would never normally say come out.
Maybe when tomorrow morning comes, I might want to erase the time I said this forever, but for now, I just wanted to say how I felt.
“I have a lot to be thankful for, especially Sasuk.”
“Are you that kind of person?”
“…I’ll cancel. “I blacked out for a moment.”
Cheongmyeong smiled slightly and then shook his head.
“Anyway, there’s no need to think about unnecessary things. Because Sasuk is doing what Sasuk needs to do perfectly. “I can’t ask for anything more than this.”
“As long as the young cub’s snout survives.”
“I am an adult.”
“okay. “Keep talking.”
Cheongmyeong smiled and looked up at the moon.
Maybe he really is someone who will never be able to become an adult. That thought still remains the same.
But there are times when even he has to become an adult. There are times when you have to at least pretend to be an adult.
When younger people look at you and see trust and faith in their eyes. In such cases, even children who have not yet grown up must straighten their shoulders and pretend to be trustworthy.
Maybe everyone is like that?
As more and more people believe that they are adults, wouldn’t it be natural for them to start pretending to be adults at some point even though they haven’t become adults yet?
If there was Cheongmun, if there was Cheongjin, if there was even Tang Bo, Cheongmyeong might still have remained an immature, aging Hwasan madman.
However, there is no hearing, hearing, or party report here.
All that is left to Cheongmyeong are the children who have not yet become perfect, just looking at him. These are children who will one day spread their talents like wings and shine so brightly.
So shouldn’t you give strength to your shoulders? Shouldn’t we straighten our shoulders as much as possible and keep our backs straight even if they haven’t fully grown yet?
‘This is what it felt like: death penalty.’
I think I understand.
Why did the auditorium seem so big? How did he look so unwavering?
Perhaps it was Cheongmyeong’s gaze towards Cheongmun that made Cheongmun that way. While Cheongmun was leading Cheongmyeong, Cheongmyeong was unknowingly pushing Cheongmun’s back.
There is no one-sided relationship in the world. Even things that seem meaningless at first glance have meaning.
It’s as if these nothingless conversations and these nothingless jokes are taking away the stuffiness that was clouding Cheongmyeong’s head.
‘So I have to become a little more adult too.’
A small smile appeared on Cheongmyeong’s lips.
“There are times in life when even Dongryong can be helpful.”
“…You mean to fight?”
“It’s a compliment.”
“You must be like that.”
Baekcheon muttered with a bitter face. Seeing him like that, Cheongmyeong laughed.
“don’t worry. “Everything will be fine.”
“….”
“I will destroy all of you, the bastards and demonic cults. And one day, we will make Hwasan the best sect in the world.”
Cheongmyeong sighs.
“Of course, it’s heartbreaking to think that Hwasan’s Jang Mun-in will be executed by Sa-suk or Yoon-jong.”
“Then it’s up to you!”
“…really?”
“no. Cancel. Please erase it from my memory. “Please.”
Cheongmyeong chuckled as he looked at Baekcheon, who was shocked and looking at him with a straight face. And then…
“Tsk!”
I jumped up from my seat.
“…Why are you waking up?”
“Thinking has become clearer.”
“huh?”
Cheongmyeong shrugged his shoulders.
“I don’t understand why I was worrying about this. Thank you, Sasuk. “Thanks to you.”
“…what.”
Baekcheon looks at Cheongmyeong with an absurd expression.
“There’s still some alcohol left.”
“ah?”
Cheongmyeong put the liquor bottle in his hand to his mouth and immediately leaned back. The alcohol inside poured out and went down Cheongmyeong’s throat.
“I…!”
“Big!”
Cheongmyeong emptied all the bottles in one go, shook the empty bottles and grinned.
“It’s not there anymore?”
“…Crazy guy.”
“Giggles.”
Cheongmyeong smiled slyly and jumped down under the eaves.
“Don’t waste any time at the dormitory; go and sleep quickly. “I will practice the same way tomorrow.”
“…even though people are worried.”
“Who is worried about whom? Sasuk me? “Oh my, I’m so sad I don’t know where to put myself.”
“But this bastard?”
“Thank you.”
Cheongmyeong turned around.
“See you tomorrow, Sasuk.”
And then, without any regrets, I moved on without any hesitation.
“Hey you bastard! “I’m not finished talking yet…”
Baekcheon called, but Cheongmyeong didn’t turn around in the end.
“That bastard…”
Baekcheon, who was just staring blankly at the back, eventually shook his head. And then I raised my head and looked at the moon.
The moon, hidden by clouds, was emitting a faint light.
“…Leave me some alcohol and go.”
A hollow voice spread hollowly across the night sky.
Time passed quickly.
There was no significant change in Jangwon’s daily life for three days. The voices of those who were still suffering from excessive training filled the manor, and the voices of those who tormented them also grew louder.
On the outside, the seemingly peaceful daily life passed by in an instant, and soon the day promised to the court dawned.
“Have you thought about it?”
When Baekcheon, who had been summoned since early morning, asked, Ohgeom’s complexion hardened.
“Did you find the answer?”
Yoonjong took a deep breath and was the first to speak.
“Sasuk.”
“Yes, Yoonjong.”
“…Of course I was worried. “It’s to the point where I’m tearing my hair out.”
The others also nodded at those words.
I can count on one hand the amount of time I slept over the three days. I felt like I was going to collapse at any moment, so I couldn’t fall asleep even when I went home. Because worries filled their heads.
Yunjong glanced at the others and shook his head.
“I don’t know about other people, but honestly, I still don’t know. “What is right and what is wrong.”
Baekcheon listened to his words with an extremely serious expression.
“If it means risking my life alone, I will do it. “If I could die and save others, I would be willing to do so, even if it meant great harm in the future.”
A few people seemed to agree with those words.
“But… I can’t force others to die in order to save others. “If Jo Geol-gi says he’s going to die to save the civilians, I don’t have the confidence to let him go.”
Jo Geol bit her lip slightly.
“I don’t think this is a question of right or wrong in the first place. No one in the world can answer that question. Sasuk I really thought about it seriously, but… I’m sorry. “I couldn’t find the answer.”
Yunjong lowered his head with a look of regret on his face. But rather than blaming him, Baekcheon just smiled calmly and nodded.
“You worked hard.”
“…yes.”
“What about the others?”
Since no one opened their mouth, Baekcheon’s eyes naturally turned to Yu Iseol. Then, uncharacteristically, Yu Iseol bit her lip slightly and answered.
“I don’t know.”
“Is that so?”
“No matter what happens, I will fight at the forefront. But… I can’t tell my superiors to do that.”
“Yes.” Baekcheon nodded as if what he said wasn’t wrong. This time, the gaze shifted to Jo Geol.
Jogeol scratched his head.
“How can I find an answer that even accidents and death sentences couldn’t find?”
“…I didn’t even expect it.”
“yes?”
“no. so?”
“…Honestly, I thought I just needed to know how to risk my life. But… it occurred to me that risking my life to protect the agreement could be forcing someone who doesn’t want to do so to throw their life away.”
Everyone looked at Jo Geol in surprise at those words. Jo Geol asked, rather surprised by the reaction.
“Oh no, why is that? “I didn’t say anything I couldn’t say, right?”
“…He also does something called thinking.”
“Growing, growing.”
“If I do this, someday I will become a human being.”
“These guys!”
When Jo Geol got angry, Baek Cheon laughed and tried to stop him.
“Yes, you worked hard. What about Soso?”
“Sasook. Honestly, even if I can’t ask you to go out and die, I think I can ask you to die together.”
“okay?”
“yes. “As long as I don’t survive alone, that’s fine.”
“okay. So Soso is that way?”
“But… I can ask the Sasuk brothers to die with me, but I don’t think I will be able to do that if the disciples come later. They have to live. Even if we die.”
A few people nodded at those words.
“So I don’t know. I just thought I had to protect it, but it never occurred to me that people I really wanted to protect could be sacrificed for someone I didn’t know. But… what I want to protect and what Hwaseong wants to protect may be different…” As
Tang Soso lowered his head, Yu Iseol lightly touched her shoulder.
“What about Monk Hyeyeon?”
“Amitabha Buddha.”
Hyeyeon closed her eyes and chanted.
“dole. The Buddha told us to spread Buddhism everywhere in the world and save living beings.”
“yes. That is the teaching of Buddhism.”
“Dividing the superiority and inferiority of what you want to protect is also just an obsession with small relationships. “It is right to save more people.”
It was when Baekcheon nodded. Hyeyeon smiled bitterly and said.
“But… if that were the case, wouldn’t I be a Buddha or a person?”
“Hagiya.”
“…If you think about it, that guy isn’t even a moderate.”
“He’s an apostate monk.”
Hyeyeon’s face quickly turned bright red.
“When did I become excommunicated?”
“It wasn’t?”
“I thought everyone knew that?”
“That kind of thing…”
Hyeyeon was the class president and continued to chant her displeasure. Baekcheon sighed, calmed his expression and looked at everyone.
“I’m glad that everyone seems to have thought about it seriously. After thinking about it, what did you think? “Did you think there was an answer?”
“no.”
“…Honestly, I can’t find it.”
“There is no answer to this in the first place.”
Baekcheon nodded.
“okay. This is a problem that has no answer. But you must know. “We can just say there is no answer, but Jang Moon-in and Cheong-myeong must somehow find the answer that is missing.”
Those who had some understanding of the feelings of those making the decision nodded with serious faces.
“So, no matter what answer you receive today, you should never resent it or criticize it for being a wrong choice. Do you understand?”
“Yes, Sasuk.”
“I will.”
“What qualifications do we have?”
“okay.”
As if that was enough, Baekcheon turned around. His eyes were deeper than usual.
