Episode 2
“Confucius here….”
“Okay, thank you. Go out. Don’t let anyone enter this room today.”
“yes?”
“…Why do you keep making me say it twice?”
“Oh no. It’s so strange that you thank me…”
I couldn’t help but sigh.
“Ha…yeah, it’s all my fault.”
The reputation of those around me would change on its own if my behavior changed, but my conscience tingled every time I realized each of my mistakes.
furthermore.
“Confucius, are you really okay? Your head still hurts…”
Suddenly.
I almost broke the pen I was holding by mistake.
“Ah! It’s okay! Get the hell away!”
I’m screaming loudly. Rather, Rick’s expression brightened a little.
“Yes, yes, I understand. Rest.”
thud.
– Looking at you screaming, it seems normal. Go and look at things.
– yes!
“Ugh…”
The voice coming from outside the door made me hold my head again.
But right now, there was no time to worry about such trivial things.
What’s important right now is…
“Phew…”
I had to write down everything that came to mind before I forgot.
To change the future.
‘You have to survive! certainly!’
And to save my family.
I had to organize the major events of the future while my memories were still vivid.
The most important of these was clear.
‘Imperial War.’
It was a war that would take place 10 years later.
When the faltering McLane family began to strengthen with the appearance of Ronian McLane, the youngest Auror user, a disaster occurred that ruined not only his younger brother and family, but the country itself.
A plan had to be made with the goal of preventing it.
‘Until then, we must at least develop the strength to move this country.’
To do so, he had to use each ordeal that would come to his family as an opportunity for growth.
Especially.
‘The Battle of Yeongji in a year’s time.’
A territory war suddenly broke out when no one expected it.
That was the first ordeal to be solved.
If things go as they should be, the family will be destroyed as a result, leading to a dark age until Ronian becomes an Auror user.
It’s a crisis that will come a year from now.
‘you can do it.’
Knowing the future is a greater weapon than anything else.
Logan wrote passionately with burning hope.
widely.
“Whoa. That’s it.”
Logan stood up with a sigh of relief.
All information was recorded in a password that only he knew at this point.
A code used by the future Grandia Liberation Front 30 years later.
Even if someone sees it, they shouldn’t be able to tell.
‘Even if it’s just one thing…’
The information that Logan wrote down is literally a record of future events.
Even if this article spreads right away, we won’t be able to find out what happened to him right away, but as time passes, we will begin to doubt the source of the information.
Then, the moment when word spreads that he had somehow returned to the past.
In a different sense from the Empire, the Church of the Nine Great Gods, the most powerful force on the continent, turns into an enemy.
He had seen many times how self-righteous religious denominations dealt with apostates and blasphemers.
The moment you get involved, not only you but your family will be unable to avoid disaster.
So it was a secret that could not be revealed even to those closest to us.
I carefully looked through the contents of the paper once again to see if I had written anything wrong or if there was a chance it could have been leaked.
“good.”
Only after confirmation was completed did the second task begin.
In a way, this was just as important as future information.
‘Secret Book of God’s Sword.’
A book embroidered with a golden hawk that Logan burned before returning to the past.
The grand vision called God’s Swordsmanship was a treasure worth pursuing.
A hero who defeated the evil dragon that ruled the ancient world and ushered in the ‘age of humans.’
The vision of the ancient hero, who was later revered as the god of swordsmanship, was a treasure that could not be compared to anything else in today’s continent, where individual military power becomes social status and power.
The leadership of the empire cheered at the news that the secret book had been found in the ruins, to the point where they had to take it out even at the cost of sacrificing most of the elites from the Grandia Liberation Front.
The last owner was himself.
He was entrusted with the treasure just because he was fluent in ancient languages, and because of that, he was chased so hard that he died.
‘You have to write it down before you forget it.’
A secret book that was memorized to train talented individuals for the independence army.
If the contents of the secret book were true, it was clear that it would be the best vision that even the Empire’s Auror Masters and Archmages would not be afraid of, as long as they learned it perfectly.
‘Is it possible. enough.’
Before returning, it was too late to start something new and I lacked talent, but now it was different.
A young man who is not yet an adult.
And…
wow.
The golden energy that arose according to Logan’s will moved along his body.
Force, the power of life.
His expectations were amplified by powers he had never dreamed of at this time in his previous life.
Kuuk.
Experience of dealing with the youth and force of the body. If these things are in harmony, you may be able to learn this ancient vision even with your own limited talents.
No, you will definitely learn it.
‘Ronian. I won’t let you suffer alone this time. never.’
The overwhelming anticipation of a different future made his heart beat.
After organizing the things I should never forget, my goal became more precise.
‘It’s clear what we need to worry about right now.’
Battle of Yeongji a year later.
First, we must overcome that crisis.
‘can do. Now, the first thing we need to do is….’
Logan began to come up with ideas, burning with passion as if he was about to start a territory war at any moment.
But…
* * * 10 hours later.
dump.
After thinking about it for a long time, the conclusion reached was clear.
“There’s nothing I can do…”
Logan fell on his desk, clutching his face, which had become dull after staying up all night.
What should I do to win the territory war? The answer was simple.
Strengthening territory power.
What was needed to achieve it was also clear.
“Strengthening the power of knights and soldiers or strengthening and developing weapons.”
There are a few ideas that came to mind right away, but all of them…
“I need money.”
It wasn’t just a matter of his current reputation being bad.
Even if he had a good reputation and was a solid successor, nothing would change.
“…They were a famous beggar family in the kingdom. Damn it.”
There is no money in the family itself.
How to make money. I also needed a way to make a lot of money in the near future.
Such a convenient method….
“I wonder if there is…”
Boom. thud.
Even though I kept banging my head on the desk, nothing came to mind.
It was only last night that I felt like I had hope.
I wanted to beat myself up from yesterday.
‘I wish I could go back to the time I was in by at least 5 or 3 years…’
As frustrating as it was, I even had the shameless thought of wishing for more on a subject who had already experienced a miracle.
But I couldn’t just keep escaping reality.
‘Can not help it. We have no choice but to prepare, even if it means squeezing all the resources we have.’
It seemed possible if the focus was on preserving power and surviving rather than winning the territory war.
‘okay. I can’t help it. First, recover your skills from your previous life and change your reputation. It’s a personal matter. As long as I get over it safely in 3 months, it’ll be over… Huh? wait?’
Suddenly a thought crossed my mind.
‘Ohh. Now that I think about it,
I thought of a way that I could definitely make a lot of money if I did it right ….
‘Three months later…’
In order to make the idea that came to mind come true, there was something I had to do before then.
* * *
“What about the head of the family? Are you going to visit me? On purpose?”
“okay.”
“why?!”
“Because there’s something I need to ask permission for.”
I roughly expected it, but seeing Rick’s surprised expression made me remember more clearly the relationship between myself and my father at that time.
But now it was unavoidable.
‘Father…’
Logan calmly took a breath as he left the door. And I remembered my past life.
When I was young, I was kind, but when I grew up, I was strict.
A person who was only cold when he was destroyed.
– You are no longer my child.
His father had virtually stopped hoping for him even before those words were said.
For example, even when I fell down with a head injury during an incident at an official sparring, my father did not show his face even once.
A crazy son and a cold father.
The vicious cycle of emotions created by that relationship continued until he was kicked out.
Of course, even though I was kicked out in my previous life, I was busy blaming my father for that for several years.
It was only after realizing his mistake and hearing about his father’s death that he regretted not going to him sooner and asking for forgiveness.
The period of regret has been over 20 years.
Besides…
– How upset must the parents who kicked out their children be?
These are words I heard when I was hesitating whether I could go back to my family and ask for forgiveness.
The words of an old mercenary lingered in my heart, adding to my guilt.
Since I was meeting my father again, I couldn’t help but feel nervous, and even my hands were shaking slightly.
guilty?
Or fear?
Or expectations?
Logan himself couldn’t accurately express his feelings right now.
Hueup.
Logan took a deep breath and tried to smile.
And then he took a confident step forward.
however.
“Oh my! Please forgive me, Grand Duke.”
“….”
You have to smile.
“Please save my life, Grand Duke!”
Smile….
“Well, I was wrong. Please take your anger away from me!”
…My hands were shaking for a slightly different reason.
Haha.
“Damn it…”
I seemed to be even more nervous at the servants’ overreaction.
But this was all something he brought on himself.
The verbal abuse and assaults committed during this period.
The current situation was the result of those evil accumulating actions.
My conscience has been prickling, but I can gradually change this.
All you have to do is show how things have changed over time.
Your smiling face will never be awkward.
…That’s how it should be.
As I calmly took a breath and walked forward, my father’s office came into view.
smart.
“This is father Logan.”
“…Logan? Hmm, come in.”
Rattling.
As he opened the door and entered, a huge red-haired middle-aged man who was looking at documents in front of the desk by the window looked at him.
Red hair and red eyes. The fierce eyes and tight lips were clearly identical to Logan’s, although they were different in size.
The moment when our eyes meet that middle-aged man with stubborn eyes.
Logan felt his heart pounding.
‘Father…’
What a resentful face he must have had.
How much did this person make you regret?
And how much…
I missed this person.
‘I’m sorry. ‘Really…’
There were many things I wanted to ask out of regret.
I wonder if this ugly son was also loved by you.
Did it hurt when you kicked it out?
And… did you miss it?
All the words and complex emotions I could not say in my past life were swirling in my heart.
But I forced my boiling heart down.
It’s different from my younger brother’s time, when I just thought it was a dream and just poured out the words I had stored away.
Now is the time to show that you have changed first.
Logan corrected his wavering gaze and walked into the room with strides.
“…You’re better than I thought. So what’s going on?”
Unlike Logan’s complex emotions, which were a mixture of longing and regret, his father’s reaction was cold from the first word.
To some extent, this was expected. The important thing was from now on.
“…I would like to enter the Seonsan Mountain and practice closing meditation. I have come to ask for permission.”
Logan, who had already prepared himself, answered with an unwavering voice.
The first thing to do before the incident occurred three months later was to restore the state of my previous life.
An era in which force determines an individual’s status and power.
I thought this was the minimum condition for overturning my current reputation and gaining strength in speaking out in the event that I will experience in the near future.
Of course, contrary to his thoughts, the response he received was not good.
“Closed training? You?”
“That’s right.”
An expression of astonishment and eyes full of absurdity.
“Hmm. Do you want to run away just because you lost to your younger brother?”
“I realized that my efforts so far had been insufficient. It’s late, but I’m trying to come to my senses now.”
“Maybe it was just a lack of effort… It still doesn’t seem like you’ve come to your senses.”
Logan spoke his prepared words with a sturdy expression, but his tone was devoid of even a single ounce of trust and his expression was filled with chills and he did not move at all.
“…I also realized that my behavior during that time was also problematic.”
“I’ve already heard that statement many times.”
“Until now, I have not acknowledged my own shortcomings and have shifted my anger onto those around me. I was foolish and immature. During this training, I will try to control that immature mind.”
“…Hmm.”
My father’s expression finally changed a little, perhaps because his sincere words made sense.
“…It doesn’t seem like you’re just making excuses this time.”
“I won’t disappoint you anymore.”
“I know I’ve let you down so far.”
“….”
“You don’t seem like the guy who was only expressing regret with his mouth a while ago and showing resentment with his eyes.”
Could there be anything to say?
Logan just kept his mouth shut and his head lowered.
“…How long do you plan on staying?”
“I’m thinking about three months.”
“Really? Do you think you can catch up with Ronian that much?”
“It’s not about beating Ronian. I’m just going to do my best, even if it’s only for a short period of time. Still, I’m willing to humbly accept that it doesn’t work out.”
My father looked at himself for a moment as if he was surprised by the prompt answer, and at some point slowly nodded.
“…It certainly seems like things have changed a bit. Yes, it should change. It’s good. I will allow it.”
“thank you.”
I bowed my head politely and immediately turned around, when I heard a voice that seemed to hesitate.
“…It’s still spring. Seonmyo will be too cold to sleep in, so pack warmly.”
Logan, who flinched at the unexpectedly warm words, simply nodded.
However, my gait as I left the door became a little lighter without my knowledge.