Chapter 63. When did
those white and red roses (2) come from?
I quietly assessed it and closed my eyes.
In May. The month of Lemain’s birthday.
May, which includes the birthday of the current King Kairis, is the month when the continent’s grandest festivals take place. That also meant that it was a time when Bern had a lot of things to worry about. Wouldn’t that month, when countless visitors from all over the world come to Kairis, be the perfect time to infiltrate Secretia’s Sejak into Kairis?
That’s why I checked it thoroughly.
During the period celebrating Lemaine’s birth, what is the schedule of the Kairis royal family? What kind of guests are visiting and what happens? And whether the King of Kairis shows any behavior as if he has noticed Sejak’s infiltration. I heard and memorized as much news as I could. So much so that he was able to recall in such detail the details of when Archmage Allan Manasil visited Kairis and why he returned.
– Randel, the first prince of Kairis, suffered an accident.
So, I also knew about things related to Randel.
The accident that happened to Randel at the equestrian performance venue that he visited as an annual event. He even knew everything about the execution of Melfir Fallun, who had been falsely accused of being the mastermind behind the incident.
– Prince Randel, who was injured, visited Tensil for recuperation.
That accident.
I remembered again how Randel had left Kyris away for a while. And after recalling that incident and preventing it, I realized something I didn’t know at the time when I saved Melfir.
‘There is a healer in Kairis. Moreover, the reason why Brother Randel, who is capable of healing on his own, went to Tensil to treat an injury of that magnitude is…’
In the past, Randel did not receive treatment from the healer of the Kairis royal family and did not heal himself. There was no treatment either. Instead, he returned after staying at Tensil for several months for treatment.
‘I guess they knew it was Brisen’s doing.’
Randel must have been avoiding Briesen. In fact, because he knew that it was Briseen, not Melfir, that he left Kyris in order to avoid Briesen and seek treatment for such a minor injury. He didn’t even trust Tensil’s healer who was staying in Kairis and went to Tensil using his injury as an excuse without even being able to tell him that he could heal himself.
‘I guess that’s true.’
I went because I wanted to live.
I went there because I didn’t want to die.
The reason why the prince, who had been caressing the roses with his eyes closed and his ears plugged, had to run away from such injuries. The reason why he was able to immediately connect the accident that struck him with Brissen.
It wouldn’t have been the first accident that day.
He must have had his life threatened at least once more.
“older brother.”
After thinking, the red eyes opened again.
I looked towards the light green eyes.
Without saying a single word, the light green eyes that had been looking down at my feet, which were blocked by Calian, looked directly at the red eyes. The light green eyes that were beginning to capture the world looked at the red eyes that were beginning to block the world.
“Brother Planz.”
Has it been a while?
Suddenly, that thought occurred to me.
It’s been a while since I felt cold.
It’s been a long time since I’ve wondered how such red eyes can become so cool. It’s not a look I made to show off to someone, but a look that I couldn’t do anything about. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen a face like that.
Are those eyes unfamiliar?
Did it suddenly feel unfamiliar to look at you like that and call you that way?
“…… why.”
Has it been such a long time?
Has time passed that much?
So much so that that call seems unfamiliar.
Suddenly.
“I wish you could tell me.”
“What?”
“You probably don’t know what I’m curious about, right?”
“No. I don’t know.”
“I wonder if Brother Randel knew… Did he know that Brother Randel knew? That.”
“So what? What did you and I know?”
“Brother Randel also received the tea I received every morning. So me too.”
past.
Meanwhile, the lights were turned off on the 5th floor of Chermil Palace for a while.
The lights on the third floor of the Chermil Palace have disappeared forever.
The fourth floor of the Chermil Palace was left to shine alone forever.
“…Me too. I would have received poisoned tea.”
“Calian.”
“Did Brother Randel know that fact? Did he know that? Now I want to know.”
Memories erased by the old Calian.
Memories left behind by the old Calian.
Calian, standing on the remnants of the old Calian, was looking for the object of his resentment with cold eyes. The resentment I have because I am now a complete Kalyan rather than a replacement for the old Kalyan. Plantz knew that those were the eyes.
It’s so ironic.
I realized that Kalyan had changed thanks to those eyes, but now I am realizing that Kalyan has not changed thanks to those eyes.
“Anyway… nothing will change, right? Even if I could have known in advance.”
“Do you really think that?”
“okay.”
“Lie. Again.”
Calian’s urging brought a chill to Plantz’s eyes.
– Nothing will change anyway. Do you really think that way?
– Was I wrong?
– If only you hadn’t closed your eyes and turned your head, everything would have been different somehow.
– okay. I guess so. At least one brother who would listen to your pointless complaints would have disappeared, so that would make a lot of difference. Are you acting like this because you regret that? Was it such a pity that your mother couldn’t remove one of your stumbling blocks?
“… If only I knew. If I knew. If only you could know what was in the tea your servant brought with you every morning. If I knew that. If that were the case. What would be different? What would be different.”
Plantz, who had the same look in his eyes as Calian, gave the same answer as Randel in his memory. Then Calian, who had the same look in his eyes as Plants, said,
“No matter what. It would have been different. It would have been different somehow.”
I gave the same answer as Plantz that day.
“It should have been different….”
Nothing had changed, but in fact, anything should have been different.
Something had to change.
But it didn’t change.
– yes. It’s a pity.
It’s really unfortunate.
* * *
– Dalkak.
The person who put down the teacup with a quiet movement touched his lips. However, no words escaped between them. The person who looked down at the tea, which shook for a moment and then stopped moving, ended up biting his foot without saying anything. Then, as if he couldn’t help it, he took a step closer and opened his mouth with a cautious face.
“It rained early in the morning.”
The words I chose so carefully ended up being that it rained. I didn’t say that I should do something or see something because it rained, I just said that it rained.
Tick tock, tick tock…….
In a place where there were no white cats, gray cats, or black cats, the clock chimed quietly.
The attendant, who was supposed to just put down the tea cup and leave, spoke to him for some reason and did not leave the room after him, so the person who had turned his gaze towards the calm scent of black tea raised his head. And in response to the servant’s words, which were obviously difficult to convey, he answered in a low voice.
“Yes. I heard a sound.”
“Yes, my prince.”
Tick tock tick tock.
A clock chimes again instead of a human voice.
A person who kept his mouth shut without leaving his seat. Randel’s servant Den spoke up again.
“Do you mind if I open the curtains?”
It’s raining and I wonder if it’s okay to close the curtains.
Den’s eyes were not looking out the window as he carefully said something that would be difficult to correlate. It was touching Calian’s gift that was placed on Randel’s desk, to be exact.
A gift that must have had a lot of meaning, but Den couldn’t understand all of it. A colorful box containing garden shears whose value it was difficult to estimate was shining under Den’s gaze.
“Leave it.”
“… It’s a nice day.”
Randel lowered the curtain after the other two brothers, who had briefly left the Chermil Palace, returned. Is it raining outside the window or is the sun setting? Is the moon rising, dawn is coming, or is the wind blowing? I ignored them all. Even though quite a few days had passed since I had been like that, I continued to be like that.
I didn’t even go out to the garden.
“That’s it. Leave it.”
Even though spring rain fell.
* * *
In the end, Plantz did not give an answer.
What Randel and Plantz knew about what they wanted to apologize to Randel for, and what on earth was exchanged between them. Nothing was told exactly.
‘Don’t… misunderstand. ‘I said you didn’t know.’
However, I only said this.
Randel didn’t know in advance what was in Calian’s car.
That soon became the answer to all my questions.
In the end, Randel was able to find out that poisoned tea was being delivered to old Calian, but he did not pay attention. Therefore, Plantz noticed a fact that was overlooked. As a result, the relationship between the two, who already seemed to have a deep rift, became completely distant, and Landel also became the Renieri of Planz. It was as if the whole thing had been discovered by Calian.
“It’s not that I didn’t tell you the answer, it’s that I can’t say it.”
The wise archmage who heard those words said this.
“It must be because of me.”
“Yes. It’s because of the prince.”
“Because it’s something I’m involved with.”
“Yes, because it involves the prince.”
Alan put down the mint tea, which is the most difficult to make because it has to be the most delicious in the world, and added with a gentle smile.
“What I lost and what I gained as a result of that incident are one thing, so how can I tell the prince in detail about that?”
In the place where the old Kalyan disappeared, Kalyan took over.
Kalyan lives because the old Kalyan is gone.
What is lost and what is gained are one thing. So Plantz cannot tell Calian how the old Calian disappeared. Because the lost seat was not empty.
How can I tell my younger brother, who lives because he is no longer there, that I might have been able to save him? Those words that will not change anything even if you make them known. How can I say this?
“Are you resentful?”
“Who are you blaming against?”
“The prince must have a grudge against everyone he thinks of. Wouldn’t he have a grudge against Briesen, His Highness, you, and Prince Randel?”
“I can’t say I don’t have any resentment. I feel resentful toward all those who closed their eyes, blocked their ears, hurt them, and ultimately sent them away. However…” “Do you also understand why Prince Randel failed to come forward
? .”
“… Yes. If I say I feel resentful but understand it. If I say I understand but still feel resentful. Is that a deception?”
“If I were to give you an answer, it would be a deception.”
Isn’t Kalyan the only one who is allowed to hold a grudge on behalf of the old Kalyan? What can Alan say about that?
“I both resent and understand. That’s right. I don’t know what would have happened to me if that child had been able to survive, but I am. I wonder if he could have been saved. I feel that kind of regret. Is that also a deception?”
“Rather than calling it a deception… I should say it’s a sad thing. You live a life where you have to consider such things.”
Calian let out a small laugh.
“It’s okay. I already said I wouldn’t dwell on the past anymore. I resented it for a while and then eventually understood. But I feel a little disappointed. I decided to live that way, so I will live that way again.
So, it’s okay.” Calian answered calmly and stretched out his hand. Then he picked up a tangerine handed to him by Secretia and peeled it. Calian looked down for a moment at the bright yellow and sweet tangerine kernel that appeared in the familiar touch, and then took it to his teacher. I handed it to him. It was a reward for the mint tea and words filled with affection.
“It’s just father. Rather, I came here with one concern. I’m so worried that I have to say it out loud. “I wanted to talk to someone.”
“What are you so worried about?”
“Worrying about me.”
Calian answered without hiding his answer and took a sip of mint tea. Then, he put down the teacup and put his hand down for a moment. He held it and opened it and continued,
“Baron Fallun, Hina, and Eila. Everyone is doing well now. Unlike the past. The only thing that hasn’t changed from the past is me.” I
wasn’t talking about Bern. I wasn’t talking about myself now. I was talking about the old Kalian who gave himself up to Kalian and left on the same day as the past. “That kid
. helped me by correcting the awkward speech of a stranger who had his own body and passing on his memories. Since he understood everything about me, he even encouraged me to continue living without feeling guilty. And so I left.”
“Yes. You said so.”
“So I guess it was revenge at first. That’s what I thought. Although he said he was worried about the people he left behind, I thought that he might not have meant it. In my heart, I blame and curse everyone. Maybe he thought he couldn’t change the future on his own and wanted revenge somehow, so he left after giving me his place and helping me. Hoping I can get revenge on them all. I believed so. I thought it would have been better if I had left like that. But I found out that I erased my memories of Brother Randel.”
Alan, who put a piece of yellow tangerine in his hand into his mouth and swallowed it, just looked at Calian without saying another word. Calian’s words continued to be heard.
“If what you wanted was revenge. … The memory that should have been erased was not Brother Randel’s indifference, but Brother Plantz’s different actions.” “The
former prince made the current prince understand the decline of Crown Prince Plantz and take care of Prince Randel. Are you saying you wanted me not to hate you?”
“Yes. Maybe they were worried that I wouldn’t accept my new brothers. Maybe that’s why those memories were hidden and erased. That’s what I think.” I wonder
what it would have been like if the old Calian had behaved in the opposite way.
I erased all memories of how Plantz was different when he was alone with Calian and Plantz when he treated Calian in front of others. Randel would have also drank poisoned tea. If the memory of not knowing had been left intact. If only
Randel’s indifference to the old Kalian had been kept in mind so that the current Kalian would not be able to understand Plantz’s true intentions. If so, the current Kalian would have understood the current brothers. Could he have tried? Even if he eventually understood, would he have been able to accept it as quickly as he did now?
Probably not.
“Isn’t that a contradiction, father? If that child was so worried that the person who would take over his body would hate his two brothers and seek revenge. If you were worried enough to erase your memories and leave. If that were the case, wouldn’t there be a reason to give yourself up to me and help me? Wouldn’t it be better not to help me? Wouldn’t it be better to have them go to the tower or stand on the Renicita leaves in the square so that they can’t adapt to this body and this life and their true identity is immediately discovered?” “… Yes
. That could be the case.”
“That’s why I’m worried. I was afraid it meant that the child didn’t want all of this in the first place. “I was afraid it was something I was forced to do
.” “What does it mean that you didn’t want it from the beginning?”
“Maybe you didn’t want me to be in this body. I wonder if he was forced to hand over his body to me when he was so concerned. I guess I was forced to understand even though I didn’t want to. Maybe that’s why he prepared his own defenses and helped me. “
You mean Serenti?”
“It was Serenti. Whether it was Danu. Was it Sispanian? “Or it was someone else.”
I don’t know the reason, but if all of this was someone’s plan in the end. If
the child was forced to help Bern, who would take over my body, so that he could put it to good use since his life would soon disappear anyway. Such a ridiculous demand. If the old Calian understood and accepted it,
the child
decided to comply with the pressure, but he may have been worried that Bern might harm his brothers. So he left his memories of Plantz intact and remembered Randel. “Maybe they just erased it. Maybe they put in at least some effort.
“I think it was a forced understanding. I’m worried. If that were the case… whoever was leading this matter, I am.” I
was worried about that. I was so
heartbroken that I couldn’t bear it unless I came to Alan and told him everything.
“I felt like I would never be able to forgive him. ”
Alan let out a deep sigh.
Calian’s voice sounded so sour that even the sweet tangerines in his mouth tasted sour.
“If what the prince said is true.”
Alan swallowed the sour taste and opened his mouth like this. . However, the afterword did not continue.
“…!”
Alan’s eyes looked into the distance.
Calian quickly stood up from his seat. His eyes were also looking in the same direction as Alan’s.
“Master.”
“Yes. “This is Chermil Palace.”
Chermil Palace.
Suddenly, a huge mana began to swirl there.
Soon, Alan looked at Calian and opened his mouth. Unlike Calian, Alan had a calm face, as if he had seen what was happening with his own eyes. “
Go and stop him. I will make sure there is no disturbance.”
Contrary to his quiet words, a strong magical energy emanates from Alan’s body. Therefore, when Calian, who had not fully assessed the situation after hearing these words, tried to ask a question – Knock!
Somewhat
. An urgent knocking sound rang in the office. After that, the door to the office was flung open without any other permission.
“I’m sorry. Disrespect will be punished later. I came to see you like this because I thought it would be better for Prince Calian to come before the matter escalates.” An
apology.
Polite but urgent words follow.
“His Royal Highness Crown Prince Planz broke into the terrace of Prince Randel’s room. I’m on my way after barely stopping Den from calling the escorts. Please stop the crown prince.”
Reric spoke as if he knew it was absurd. Alan, who heard that, answered in a relaxed voice.
“No. The person you serve has already broken the upstairs window.”
“Huh? My Majesty?”
“That’s right.”
Plantz went over to Randel’s terrace. While
Reric was unable to stop Plantz and came to Calian, Plantz lost patience and broke Randel’s window. Security magic. I don’t know, since Alan will be able to prevent this from working anyway. He just received a greeting that he didn’t receive, and while he was being greeted, he said he would get an apology and broke Randel’s window. Alan and himself, who had first prevented the Cispanian security magic from working
, Calian looked at Relic’s face as he came, then raised his palm to cover his face. He had completely forgotten the painful words he had shared with Alan just moments ago. “…Ah…” What did I teach him
wrong
? “I wonder if my older brother has grown up like that.
“I’m amazed…”
Oh,
I really am.
I’m really amazed because of the peas of the gale-and-go.
