Chapter 39. I put up with a lot (2)
To put it bluntly, both of them are older brothers.
To put it harshly, neither of them are older brothers.
know. Know.
But now I didn’t know whether to be obedient or harsh.
I couldn’t tell you how grateful I am that you guys think of me. I couldn’t even tell you why you are so willing to hide things about me. I looked at Plants and said, unable to laugh or get angry.
‘Because it’s okay.’
It’s okay, so please talk to me.
Even though I had already given up on the small beach that I still remember with its nostalgic smell, I couldn’t get angry when Chase asked me to move on to the voice that asked me again if I couldn’t help but become a knight.
I couldn’t even smile as I looked at Plantz, who had a face that told me to either bark or get angry or just move on and not ask any more questions about him.
– …… Anyway, please be careful. Don’t try to look any further, but just watch closely.
So, I just made this request to Chase again.
It’s funny to call it a mistake, but in any case, it was Chase who caught something from Calian. I wasn’t unaware of that fact, but even so, I couldn’t ask Chase any more questions.
I knew that it was Chase who would engrave Calian’s every word in my heart, so I knew that no matter what I asked now, it would only be like a thorn to Chase, so I couldn’t ask more.
That’s what Plantz said.
Because Chase is younger than Calian is now. Everything is okay because everything you have to carry is too heavy.
– I have to explain it somehow to Prince Calian, but it’s not easy to do.
– I know. What do you mean?
Could Kalian be the only one who loses his usual composure when it comes to something like Devlan’s involvement? Chase would add more, not less. To the point where he couldn’t predict that Calian would have mild questions about what he was talking about with Devlan, and he couldn’t even give a proper explanation or excuse for those light questions.
How uncharacteristic of Chase this looks.
– I just want to ask you to explain the matter in detail…
– I. I’ll get back to you later.
Because of this, Calian, uncharacteristically, interrupted Chase. Chase paused for a moment before answering.
– All right. Say it again, Prince Calian.
Chase said this without being able to say anything more. Kalian ended the communication with an apology. And then he turned his head towards Plants.
“Don’t ask any more questions, not even from me.”
Plantz, who saw the ring’s light turn off as if telling him to listen to me, spoke again. I knew I would have ended the conversation without being able to ask Chase a question. Of course, I also noticed that he was trying to get rid of Plantz instead of Chase.
Calian, who was staring at Plantz, opened his mouth in a quiet voice.
“Even though I didn’t listen to anything Brother Randel said, I am trying very hard to obediently listen to everything he says.”
Is there anything more absurd than this?
But Plantz did not frown or laugh.
The reason I couldn’t laugh at the story about trying to listen well was because I knew that, although it was hard to believe, it wasn’t a lie. I don’t know how messed up his original personality was, but judging by Chase’s words and his occasional actions that resemble his old personality, you knew that he had become very rounded now.
“Brother Randel tried to deal with me, but he tries to control me. Knowing that, I try quite hard too.”
Instead of trying to dominate, Plantz just wanted to be the older brother.
So, I don’t know about anything else, but I put in a lot of effort when dealing with Plants. I kept him alive without killing him, and although I used a knife a bit, I never punched him out of habit, and I fed him well, and when I told him to sit down, he sat down, and when I told him not to be stubborn, he broke down, and so on.
Of course, there were small side effects, such as unintentionally going in and out of the 4th floor as if it were my own room, or barking more days than talking, but anyway, isn’t the fact that people made an effort important? No problem.
“But I don’t think I can do that this time. I think I know what’s going on, but I have no idea. That’s why.”
But this time I can’t even try.
I think I know what the conversation will be about. What does it have to do with the fact that the two, who cannot decide whether they are brothers or not, have similar reactions and are trying to hide the fact? No, I think I know who the story is about.
I was too busy cleaning up after Calian’s actions, but the light green broom that looked like it was cleaning up after a guy with purple eyes who lived in a seaside village in the far south sighed heavily.
“Calian.”
“…… yes.”
Plantz, who was in front of Calian, who answered calmly, looked intently at the strawberry pieces and mint leaves in the teacup and continued speaking.
“If it’s something you need to know, the Crown Prince of Secretia will tell you, and if it’s something that’s not that important, he’ll have already told you about it. Shouldn’t it be okay to just move on quietly?”
Calian looked at Planz without answering.
It’s not a big deal, but it’s something Kalyan shouldn’t know. So, important information related to Bern.
It meant that he would not reveal it to the end.
He arbitrarily intervenes in Kalyan’s affairs and hides the truth as he pleases, while boldly telling people not to reveal more.
“You nodded when Hina told you not to meddle in her work, but I don’t know why you are so eager to get involved in my work.”
“I don’t think my brother or I are any different.”
Plantz responded to Calian, who mentioned the contradictory appearance.
Isn’t it the Calian side who arbitrarily intervenes in Plantz’s affairs, hides the facts at will, and tells people not to reveal more information? Of course, Calian didn’t know how important the work about the king was, but that didn’t change the fact that they were doing the same thing.
“I always teach you something, and you learn things together that you never thought possible.”
“My brother teaches me so well.”
Plantz, who responded without giving up at all, leaned back in his chair and slowly closed his eyes. Calian, who knew that he would make that kind of face when he was lost in thought, waited for Planz’s decision without saying another word.
“…Why does my brother insist on walking on shards of glass?”
I’m not sure if stepping on one less thing would be of much help, but I’m trying to go and step on the thing that was set aside so that I could step on it less.
“Why do you want to step on it?”
Calian smiled quietly as he remembered Alan who had said something similar, and nodded.
“I’m going to lose my temper when I see Serenti.”
And then he answered with the exact same expression he made every time he didn’t listen.
“I am going to accept everything you give me without rejecting it and go through it all. Every time I give you something that I cannot avoid, I just want to accept it all. So when I meet you later, I will pay you back everything I received. To do that, even if I have to take one more, why not pay me back more? That’s why. Even though I’m not good at complaining, I’m good at counting.”
ah.
My little brother is talking crazy again.
“… I’m going to be thrilled.”
Is it because he died once and lives a second time, or because his life is different? Is that why? This way of thinking is so unique and crazy that I cannot possibly follow it. What should I do?
When Chase returned, I should have just sent him away to be his little brother. I should have bundled up the blue-haired crazy wizard, sent his father, Kirie, and that brazen servant, and just wrapped them all in one bundle and sent them away. On the way, I sent Brother Randel along with him to drop him in front of Tensil, and regardless of whether the palace was suffocating or not, Kairis thought I should just take Lucy with me and take care of it while supporting His Majesty.
“Hina, Kirie, Yan, and Master are all alive because of me, so I thought I was fortunate enough to live, but then the rain started. Since I saved my brother, I saved Kairis, I saved Secretia, and if I want to save this Continent of Cysstera, I also have to live. “I tried to live with my thoughts, but it started raining. And then I couldn’t take it anymore. I kept holding on and holding on until I couldn’t take it anymore.”
I endured a lot.
I really held back a lot…
“So, I think I have to do that to survive. I want to live, but I think I can only survive if I have to find a reason. Now, I really feel like I have to have a reason. That’s why I do that.”
“Then you’ll bark in front of Serenti too.”
“That wouldn’t be bad either. Meowing in front of Serenti.”
Calian grinned, saying, “I will definitely try it,” as if it wasn’t a joke.
“Please let me know. I’m not as young as you, so it’s okay.”
Whatever the secret is, you will find it out someday anyway.
Whether you got caught in the rain one step ahead or one step behind, you got wet in the same way. If it’s going to rain at some point, I’d rather get hit now and grind my teeth.
Plantz sighed again.
It meant giving up.
“Crazy guy.”
How can you stop a crazy person from living like that?
* * *
As frustrated as my heart was, my hands quickly formed words.
‘They’re not kids, but they act like kids.’
‘Did the princes behave like that?’
After resolutely leaving the Wilhelm Pavilion and meeting Calian and Plantz at the Chermil Palace, Hina confided her true feelings to Kirie as if she were a child. She was the older sister to Veronica and Demirea, the older sister to Calian and Plantz, but the younger brother to Kirie.
‘Because they both think that setting my boundaries and worrying about me as they think is doing me good. Because they treat me like a child. ‘I didn’t like that.’
‘So you told me not to do that?’
‘huh. So I told him not to think like that. ‘I said I know how to do something.’
‘okay. good job.’
I didn’t say that I was saying that because I was worried about you or that I was doing it all for you. I only listened to Hina from Hina’s side. I knew there was a good reason for everything, but he didn’t tell me it and tell me to understand. Kirie has always been like that since the day blueberries turned blue.
After bravely saying what he had to say in front of the two princes, he realized that he was only saying this to Kirie because he was upset, so there was no need to add his own thoughts and try to teach Hina. Unless Hina is asking because she doesn’t know, all she has to do is listen.
After a quick conversation like that, I brought Hina to Wilhelm’s coffin, and Arsene had a dying look on his face.
‘Lord Bern, do you know where the Prince, the Deputy Commander, or the Prince, the Deputy Commander, are and what they are doing right now? I’m so busy right now that I have to sell my name, but neither the prince, who is the deputy commander, nor the deputy commander, who is the prince, has ever come.’
While asking about Plantz’s whereabouts. Therefore, the person answered that he was currently talking to Prince Calian.
‘ah. Right. Thanks for letting me know.’
Arsene, who looked like he was about to die after hearing these words, gave up looking for Plants and went back to work.
For some reason, it seemed like they had been wearing the same clothes for several days, but since the wizards were so clean, it was hard to tell, so Kirie just stopped paying attention. The area under my eyes has always been black, so today I’ll just sleep, pass out, die, or whatever.
After that, there was nothing much to do, so I returned to Chermil. Because personal training time was significantly reduced, I was training whenever I had time.
“Kiri.”
As I entered the training center, there was someone calling Kyrie in a happy voice.
It was Kalyan.
Calian came to the training center at this time and even though he saw Kyrie, he did not draw his sword and just sat on the floor of the training room. This meant that he had not come to spar or look at Kirie’s sword.
“What’s wrong?”
The small sound of breathing while sitting like that was the same as usual, but it was also different somehow. Isn’t he the kind of person who would be disorganized like that just because he got scolded by Hina?
“Is there something going on or not? There is work, but it doesn’t mean there isn’t work. It’s difficult.”
The sound of laughter shakes subtly.
It hurt again to hang on to the end of laughter.
So Kirie walked towards Calian without asking any more questions.
No sparring, no teaching, no conversation.
I knew I came here just because I needed Kirie and others. I don’t know if it was Kirie now or not, but I knew she came because she needed a place to lean on.
Kyrie walked towards Calian and sat down next to Calian.
“I will listen.”
Since you can’t drink, I can’t give you a piggyback ride, and since there hasn’t been a fight, I can’t show you my back. I always have good listening ears, so I can hear Kalian’s voice at any time.
As expected from Kirie.
Calian, who spoke in a whisper, grinned.
“You know it, Master knows it. The Crown Prince of Secretia… Crown Prince Chase also knows it.”
And then he said rambling but consistently precious and painful words.
“My brother says he doesn’t know. He says he can’t hear that name because I didn’t tell him. I knew it would happen. It was okay because I knew, but I knew it would be okay because I knew, so I went out of my way to confirm it.”
A name that would not be passed down unless Calian said it out loud or someone remembered it directly. He said that he had to come forward and confirm that Serenti was indeed erasing the name of someone who should be forgotten.
Kirie, who always doesn’t listen to every single word, just listened without saying a word.
“Should I write it in big letters and put it up in front of the palace like you said? If I write it down and put it up, maybe they won’t forget it and they’ll recognize it. But I thought that wouldn’t work. I thought I’d try something I already know anyway. If I do that, I’m going to get scolded by my teacher. Sis.” “I wonder if Fanian won’t understand this time. And then… and then.”
I listened to the voice that sounded like the sound of the wind and then the sound of flowing water as it spoke about the name of a person who was being forgotten.
“It was okay because I knew. But now that I think about it, it seems like it’s not okay. Then I was thinking about what to do. I was thinking about what to do. I didn’t know what to do. So, I had no place to go.”
I listened to it as if listening to the wind.
I listened to it as if I were listening to water flowing.
“So I’m going to stay here for a little while.”
I listened, remembering every word, even the smallest breath, as if it were all flowing out.
Because I vowed that I would not forget this time.
“Go ahead. It’s okay if you stay for a while.”
Since I have already kept my past promises, I promise to keep this promise as well.
