Chapter 33. I thought I would raise a dog (3)
someday.
A story that has been postponed many times.
Calian, who was thinking about it alone, smiled embarrassedly.
The person who knew everything about Calian’s secrets without exception was Alan, and the person who should never know Calian’s secrets was Lemain. Of course, it was Jan who wanted to keep the secret hidden until her death.
“… That’s right.”
And this person paradoxically makes me wish I knew the secret, but I also wish I never knew it.
That was Arsene.
Calian also knew that Arsene would not just accept the explanation that he had the memories of the Sword Master, as Lemaine knew. I feel sorry for Lemain, but Arsene was a little smarter than Lemain.
The bright blue hair that I was told I couldn’t cut because I was too busy and started growing it out. It suddenly occurred to me that it was very different from the short hair I had that day, but also very similar.
“Why does Lord Hertz follow me?”
Calian, who was looking at the end of the hair, asked this. It was a question that had never been asked.
Arsene looked at Calian without answering right away. Therefore, Kalian continued speaking a little more.
“I don’t remember doing anything nice to you at all, but it’s surprising and somehow strange that you follow me like this.”
If he had black hair and red eyes like other Balkan wizards, he could never be considered to follow the current Calian. Not the original Kalyan. The Vern inside didn’t have this deep, black, short hair, nor did he have eyes like flames that couldn’t tell what was burning.
Clear, bright blue eyes looked at Calian. Arsene smiled slightly as he looked at Calian with eyes as bright as the sky he looked up at right after the sun rose on that small beach in winter.
“You don’t have to answer today. I’ll wait for you, my prince.”
When asked why he follows me, he could have answered that he was the only one in the category of good people, but Arsene just said this.
Calian, who was looking at Arsene, laughed.
It was because I understood what he was thinking when he said this.
“This is why I ended up staying away from Lord Hertz.”
Arsene already knows that Calian has a secret. However, if I haven’t decided whether it’s okay to tell you in detail what the secret is, and that’s why Calian is asking this question, I’d rather just wait.
Calian fully understood that this was what he meant. Because,
“Yes, I have to answer this much. He is the person who took my life.”
do.
said.
* * *
The scent of mint was sometimes cool and sometimes sweet.
The scent soon became so good that I couldn’t put it down.
“Oh, I see.”
The tip of the hand of the person who was muttering quietly tapped the end of the teacup. When the small ripples in the quiet tea water subsided, dark purple eyes turned to Teilan.
“Maybe that wizard knew the truth too, but I didn’t even think about it.”
A blue-haired wizard who seemed to follow Calian’s instructions very well. I didn’t ask whether the wizard knew about Kalyan.
Chase, who saw Teylan looking at him with an expression as if he was saying something out of the blue, answered with a soft smile.
“I thought that the wizard was also a trustworthy person, so I told him that if I could not meet Prince Planz, I could deliver a letter to Prince Calian through the wizard. I will check whether the wizard knows Prince Calian’s past. “I didn’t.”
It was said that he had now realized that he had dragged Arsene in without knowing whether ‘that wizard’ Arsene knew the truth about Calian.
Chase continued with a grin, perhaps knowing that as a result of that belated realization, Calian, who had been spending leisurely time with his cat, had once again demonstrated the talent of getting caught.
“Hmm. What if I didn’t know?”
Of course, recognizing a situation and finding a solution are slightly different problems. Chase, whose face was filled with the thought that he would do something, smiled slightly.
Tailan, who clearly understood what Chase meant when he said ‘let it happen as it should be’, asked with a puzzled look on his face.
“If it’s that wizard, isn’t it that wizard?”
Chase’s younger brother, whose name I can’t remember at all, and a wizard who is said to have taken Chase’s last breath with his former student. The question asked whether the wizard named Arsene was that wizard.
Even though the questions were extremely vague, Chase nodded instead of laughing or scolding them. It was because I realized that I couldn’t put the story into my mouth so I kept talking about it.
Chase answered yes and added an explanation.
“It seemed like I was paying it back well now, but I didn’t think about whether I was paying it back on my own.”
As Chase said this, he tried to figure out whether Arsene was among them by choosing people who might know Calian’s secret, but soon gave up. It was because I felt like I was hearing Plantz’s words again in my ears: that it would be faster to count the people who don’t know Calian’s secret.
Since most people around him seemed to know the truth, it was Chase’s mistake not to keep it in mind.
“I thought it would be better to find out and pay back if possible.”
After hearing this, Tailan lifted the teacup in front of him instead of asking if it was really a mistake. The scent, which was both refreshing and sweet, was quite appealing to Teilan.
I think it’s a scent that goes well with the third prince.
* * *
I didn’t ask why I was smiling.
I didn’t ask why I was smiling so much.
I didn’t try to guess what was contained in Randel’s smile. I didn’t want to pay any more attention to this person who was always just watching from a distance.
– Don’t make a fuss. Nothing will change anyway.
I didn’t even say that I remembered everything about the past to someone who couldn’t remember it.
“Doing both is greed.”
This is a story about not just blaming others as if you were hurting alone while turning a blind eye to your own sins. The story is that just because you’ve been hurt a lot doesn’t mean the things that hurt you go away.
Randel, who was thinking about those words, turned his gaze to Plantz.
“It’s a shame.”
“There is nothing to regret.”
Plantz immediately responded to the comment that it was a shame that he couldn’t do both.
Randel, who was looking down at Plantz’s face, quietly opened his mouth.
“Perhaps you wanted to say that I, too, am like you.”
This was said without hiding his discomfort at being compared to Lemain. Plantz, who had been looking at Randel like that for a while, slowly opened his mouth.
“How can you think like that?”
Randel would have understood this much without having to explain it in detail. But Plantz didn’t bother to open his mouth and continued.
“… Your Majesty knows that there is a difference between being stabbed and being stabbed. If someone who is more than you is more than you are and has never been less than you, what answer should I give you?”
At least Lemain didn’t try to hide behind the statement that he had no choice. Because he didn’t pretend to be a victim himself.
“No one in this palace is like you. It’s truly fitting for someone who feels alone and unfair.”
There was no need to bother picking roses and waving them in front of my eyes. Because Plantz already knew that Lemain was at the bottom of Landel. Because I knew very well how Landel would sound like he was inferior to Lemain.
So, I just used what Calian once said in place of what I wanted to say.
Thanks to this, Randel stared into Plantz’s eyes once again. Although he had always been reluctant to look at those eyes, he never tried to avoid them, so he faced them silently.
Randel asked, looking at Planz’s eyes, which were now clearly shining.
“If you look at it that way, does anything change?”
In the end, nothing changes whether you look at reality properly or not, so why bother looking at it properly?
Plantz laughed.
“You realize it’s already too late.”
Randel knew that the words were not yet finished, so he kept his mouth shut without saying another word.
“I also realize that I shouldn’t have been late.”
“I don’t know what makes you realize it’s late.”
“anyway.”
Plantz raised his hand.
A long finger with slightly prominent bony joints was pointed at Randel. Instead of looking at the eyes that seemed to contain nothing, I headed towards the heart, which contains many other things.
“You won’t open it. What are you so curious about?”
Randel, who had been quietly looking at the fingertips, looked at Plantz again. He spoke in a low voice towards Plantz, who was very different from the one he knew.
“It’s surprising. Talking to you like this.”
Plantz stared into Randel’s eyes.
I answered with a lot of things in it.
“I thought it was surprising too. How could I have known that someone who can’t even do such small things would dare to benefit my younger brother?”
Landel, who returned exactly what he had said, smiled again without realizing it. Plantz, who had seen the small sound of laughter, stood up without another explanation.
Anyway, since I had said everything I had to say, Plantz was thinking about getting up and heading down when he heard Randel’s voice.
“I will tell you and tell you. Why did you change like this?”
I didn’t bother to come to Randel and ask him a favor.
I don’t want to face you, so go back. Instead of giving back new wounds to the wounds you gave me, I don’t dare to go back and face them like that.
What is the purpose of behaving like that?
Plantz stood up, looked down at Randel’s back, who was still sitting, and spoke in a low voice.
“I want to live. Raise a cat. Breathe.”
The third one said he was raising a dog.
Second, if you raise a cat.
Who should grow this country?
Plants, who had finished speaking, left without telling me that much.
* * *
I spoke as Bern only once.
As for what I said as Kalyan, well.
How many times did it happen?
Even though I wasn’t good at lying when I was Bern, I was really good at hiding it. How did I end up not being able to even hide it like this?
Maybe it’s because I’m sick of hiding it.
Or just.
“… I guess it’s because I’m greedy for someone to notice. I don’t even feel like hiding it anymore.”
Kalian, who told the whole story, said this. Then, I moistened my dry mouth a little with a sip of black tea. My mouth was sour again and the tea tasted like coffee.
“Still, I wanted to hide it from you, but on the contrary, I also wanted to be the first to tell it. I spent a year like that.”
He spoke incessantly.
I told the whole story from beginning to end without seeing Arsene’s face. And still without looking at his face, he drank tea and hugged Lucy, who had come to his side for no reason.
I used magic to brush off a lot of Lucy’s hair from her black clothes. Even though I did that, there was still hair on it, so I used my magic power again.
I wasted so much time. I continued without looking at Arsene.
“Is that really true?”
After a while, Arsene asked:
It was clear that the story was not believable, so it was not impossible to ask such a question. So I was about to nod when Arsene added.
“Are you really saying that I worked under the vice commander, the prince’s older brother?”
ah.
now.
“Is that what you don’t believe?”
Calian, who had completely looked down on me without even realizing it, looked at Arsene.
Arsene was smiling.
His face looked very different from the day he took his last breath as Verne was injured and dying.
I didn’t say thank you for telling me the story or that it was so unbelievable that I couldn’t handle it. He didn’t feel sorry like Alan, didn’t show anger towards someone like Kyrie, and didn’t carry guilt like Plantz.
I didn’t feel any twisted pride in having taken the last part of Bern. He was just smiling with a face I had never seen before.
“I’m sorry I couldn’t remember.”
Not by holding your breath. Not by going to war.
I’m sorry for not being able to keep my promise.
That’s all I said.
Calian, who was quietly looking at Arsene, grinned.
“How can I do that?”
This is why I
Can you get away from this crazy wizard?
