EP.82 The eraser in the head
No matter what, unmarried men and women cannot spend the night in the same room. To Tyrkanjaka, it was common sense that he couldn’t even doubt.
Tyrkanjaka let him into the room and laid him on the bed. I couldn’t bear to take off her clothes myself, so I had to lie down with her clothes on, even if it was uncomfortable.
Is it because of the accumulated fatigue for three days? He fell asleep as soon as he put his head on the pillow.
Tirkanjaka silently covered the blanket and took a seat in front of his room. I spent the night on top of the coffin, with a parasol hanging over my shoulder, with the sound of breathing coming from inside as a background.
In the meantime, just before the daytime lights turned on, the dog king appeared. Aji, the dog king, walks lightly from the far hallway. Tyrkanjaka gave strength to the hand holding the parasol for a moment.
“bruise?”
Aji only tilted his head when he saw Tyrkanjaka.
Suddenly, he remembered what he had regained. Tyrkanjaka felt a small emotion.
It was only a story that the dog king didn’t bark, but that little thing gave her joy. The feeling that was regained was something that touched even such a trivial part.
“You really don’t bark…”
Aji said to Tirkanjaka, who was blocking the door.
“bruise! It’s morning! I have to wake you up!”
“Wait. I’ll wake you up…”
“Bung! bruise!”
While Tyrkanjaka opened the door, Aji rushed through the gap. Then he ran wild and howled furiously.
Startled, Tirkanjaka followed Aji and entered.
Aji was loud enough. Enough to wake up those who have lost their memory.
He rose slowly like a mummy. Even after waking up from a deep sleep, he was still staring into space with blank eyes.
“Are you awake?”
Tyrkanjaka spoke like yesterday. I wasn’t expecting an answer. I just want to make him a daily life.
at that time.
“Hello…”
Tirkanjaka’s heart fluttered in surprise at the voice coming from the bed.
“Shay! Shay!”
On the way, Tyrkanjaka, who flew to sit him in the coffin, came straight to Shay. As Shay opened the door rubbing her eyes, Tirkanjaka exclaimed, showing Shay staggering.
“Looks like he’s got his memory back!”
“huh?”
“Didn’t you greet me as soon as you woke up this morning? My memory must be returning!”
Tyrkanjaka spoke in a voice that was not yet excited. Shay’s reaction, on the other hand, was lukewarm.
“well? It still seems a long way off to me. look at that stupid face He’s completely different from the usual guy.”
“Isn’t it better than small work? On the previous day, he only sparsely followed my words, but today he even said it himself. You must remember the words!”
Seeing the excited Tyrkanjaka, Shay pondered for a moment. If I tell you the truth, you will be disappointed.
But Shay didn’t have the ability to tell a nice lie. I wasn’t even that kind of person.
“Losing memory in that way is not losing memory as information. Information, such as knowledge and language, stays in your head. It just lacks the ego to associate it with itself and draw it out.”
It seems that he doesn’t even know if it’s his story. You’re listening to the story, but you’re just wandering over the coffin.
Shay looked at him and muttered.
“look. You don’t show any reaction. You probably don’t even know who you are right now.”
“But it is a little different. Look.”
Tyrkanjaka trotted towards him. He had been sitting idly by, only reacting when Tirkanjaka approached. Tyrkanjaka tapped him on the shoulder, then pointed at Shay and whispered.
“Here. I want to say hello to Shay.”
He just sits there like a baby, and Tyrkanjaka, who takes great care of him.
Seeing this, Shay murmured inwardly.
‘Oh, I think cognitive dissonance will come.’
From the outside, they are grown-up men and girls. But the girl is taking care of him like a mother.
Even that adult male was a military instructor who had been smirking and scattering a suspicious atmosphere just a few days ago. He, who had made Shay nervous several times, sat with an innocent face and was waited on by Tyrkanjaka.
‘I can understand Tyrkanjaka’s feelings. He must be feeling a great responsibility because something went wrong while he was fixing his heart.’
But Shay still couldn’t relax. Reading everything while sitting down, picking up and dropping people off with notes, was the black-and-white type that Shay hated the most.
I’d rather be in the dark, I don’t know. However, Shay couldn’t even pinpoint the true intention because the heart of the founder was quickly repaired.
An existence close to chaos that seems neither black nor completely white.
‘Really, that’s not acting, right? There is no particular reason to do it, but…’
Even if there was no reason, he was a person who would commit crazy things calmly. Even if you want to get rid of the doubt, it continues to remain in a corner like a mark.
It was when Shay glared at him with sharp eyes.
“greeting.”
He understood Tirkanjaka’s words and nodded passively at Shay.
“Ah, hello…”
The reason why even that attitude he is showing now is suspicious is probably because of his behavior. Shay waved her hand.
“This doesn’t make any sense. Even if you lose your memory, you can say hello…”
“…Sister.”
“?!?!”
Chicken meat sprouts on Shay’s arm.
Goosebumps all over the body.
Along with that, I felt like I was going crazy with a physiological rejection. Shay exclaimed urgently.
“What are you talking about! You must be my sister!”
Tyrkanjaka pointed out.
“Wouldn’t Shay be right?”
“Oops, bro, no, I’m younger than him! for a moment! Everyone stop in place!”
When he was suddenly flustered, Shay’s attitude was one. Shay held the cherry blossoms that had floated by her bedside and started blowing.
Whoops. Compressed air spreads in all directions. A complicated airflow created around Shay, and the wind passed through the narrow doorway, and a sound similar to the howling of a beast came out.
“What happened all of a sudden?”
Tirkanjaka, who lowered his parasol to block the wind, frowned and looked behind him. Fortunately, she blocked the wind so he didn’t fall backwards.
Shay regained her composure while fiddling with her beloved sword, the cherry blossoms.
“Whoa. Just to cool off for a bit.”
“If you cool down twice, the prison will be uprooted. Be careful. Anyway, do you understand now? Why did I say I was different?”
“huh. I know, I understand…”
Unni is a term used by a woman younger than her to call a woman older than her. It comes out when you have the ability to objectively measure the distance between yourself and the other person.
So, it means that you have the ability to recognize not only yourself but also the other person to some extent…
“But why is it that you are an older sister?! It’s the complete opposite!”
‘That bastard is a man, so why is he recognizing himself as a woman!’
The words were aimed at him, but Tirkanjaka, who understood on the contrary, put his hand on his chin and looked Shay up and down.
“Hmm. You’re a little bit nice. It wouldn’t be strange even if I mistook it for a woman… as a woman…”
Suddenly, the words became longer, and Tyrkanjaka’s forehead narrowed rapidly. Tyrkanjaka seriously looked at Shay and the instructor several times before groaning as if he was worried about something.
Then I went up to him and explained it gently.
“Don’t be confused. Although Shay is small, with thin limbs and a handsome face, he is clearly a man. I mean, he is a true man.”
“man?”
“okay. You’re a man, so keep that in mind. It’s not an older sister, and it’s not even an older sister. Getting it wrong is an excuse among excuses.”
Rather than correcting a misunderstanding, the words were full of vigilance. Seeing Tirkanjaka glaring at her, Shay felt an indescribable feeling.
‘Similar to the attitude you showed yesterday. Ay no way Did you really melt the frozen heart? Have my doubts really come true?’
Then Shay realized something strange after a long time.
As Tirkanjaka said, Shay is now disguised as a man. It’s an artifact, so it works without Shay paying too much attention to it.
But he called Shay his sister.
sister. In other words, words that can be said only when you recognize that the other person is a woman.
‘for a moment. Have you seen through Agartha’s mask? how?’
In an instant, a new doubt arose. Could it be that he saw through Shay’s male attire from the beginning?
But Shay quickly erased his doubts.
‘I can’t do that. Agartha’s mask definitely has an effect. To the point that Tyrkanjaka and others still believe me as a man. And if you’ve seen through men’s clothing, it’s strange to reveal it now.’
If so how?
Shay quickly came up with a reasonable hypothesis.
‘that’s right. My artifact, Mask of Agartha, has the ability to determine first impressions. The first impression is an important factor that affects subsequent meetings… but the only thing that this artifact can affect is the first impression. It doesn’t work for someone I’ve already met.’
This meant only one thing. It’s not the first time he’s seen Shay, but the first impression doesn’t remain.
In other words, the fact that he lost his memory.
‘Certainly, it seems that he has lost his memory. It’s okay to clear up your doubts… Or, perhaps, with this opportunity, you can naturally clear up the misunderstanding that I’m a man…’
I dressed up as a man to enter the abyss, and I kept it just in case… Shay Surprisingly, he did not hang on to dressing up as a man. It was to the point that he often forgot that he was also dressed as a man.
It might have been better to resolve the misunderstanding and have a comfortable relationship now rather than insisting on dressing as a man. That said, I had no intention of forcibly revealing my gender to the point of throwing off my clothes.
If this naturally instills the perception that Shay could be a woman…
“A man… a man.”
“okay. It’s a man. Did you remember?”
When Tyrkanjaka finished speaking, he nodded loudly and murmured.
“It was kind of ambiguous.”
Somehow. vagueness.
I didn’t make it out of the language, but the words to go in between them rang in my ears. Regardless of Agartha’s mask…
Shay’s temples grew sinewy. She gestured towards him with a fearful face.
“hey. Wait a minute, come to your work. You remember!”
The instinct to detect crisis appeared before the ego. He got scared and hid behind Tirkanjaka. Then, Tyrkanjaka comforted him with a benevolent smile, and soon began scolding Shay.
“Shay. don’t scare me too much Is he not afraid?”
“No, isn’t that suspicious? Look at the talking tail! Are you slowly scratching?”
“Isn’t it true that you are ambiguous? The line is thin for a man, so I used to get confused sometimes.”
“Is the confusion over?!”
‘wait for a sec. Didn’t that bastard just say something other than ambiguous…?’
As Shay opened his eyes, Tirkanjaka drew even closer and wrapped himself around him. The parasol worn by Tyrkanjaka hid his face.
“I didn’t know before, but now I lost my memory while trying to help me, and now I am like a child who doesn’t know anything. How can you think of blaming him?”
“It’s suspicious to be confused about my gender, but it doesn’t make sense to recognize yourself as a woman in the first place! There is no reason for that! hey! you speak honestly Didn’t you forget?! Aren’t you just laughing inside?!”
“Are you going to set me up now? The man’s arms are so narrow. That’s too much. Isn’t it?”
Tirkyanjaka wrapped around the instructor until the end, so Shay couldn’t even use his hands, but only huffed. However, since the glaring eyes were fierce, he was afraid and hid behind Tirkanjaka’s back.
And Tyrkanjaka secretly enjoyed that fact. There was a reason why she didn’t bother yelling at Shay.
Feeling a hand gripping his collar, Tirkanjaka comforted him again.
“Don’t worry. Didn’t I say I’d take care of you?”
“Thank you. Uh…”
He trailed off, and Tirkanjaka added softly.
“Didn’t you tell me earlier? Call me Tyr.”
“Yes Tyr.”
“Yeah, that’s nice.”
Shay opened her mouth in amazement.
‘I didn’t even mean to attack! Don’t use others as villains!’
It was increasingly spectacle.
Even if you don’t want to doubt it, it springs up suddenly. If he’s pretending to lose himself, that’s awesome, but even if he does, that’s great. How can a person be suspicious even if he loses his memory?
After grinding his teeth for a while, Shay suddenly came up with a good idea.
“for a moment. Why didn’t I think of that?”
If I had really lost my memory, I would answer honestly when asked.
If you’re pretending to have lost your memory, you’ll muffle questions that are difficult to answer.
‘If it’s the former, you can find out his secret information, and if it’s the latter, you can see through his acting. This is your chance!’
In any case, there is nothing to lose. Shay said excitedly.
“Tirkanjaka. It’s now. Now is your chance to get some information out of him!”
Of course, Tyr won’t nod right away. But Shay was confident to convince her.
As expected, Tyr immediately reacted negatively.
“Information? You mean to interrogate this person who has lost his memory? what else to dig Absolutely impossible…”
“His name or rank, or the reason he came here or his ability! There is no chance to know now or not!”
But if it piques her curiosity. Shay made a suggestion with a contemplative smile.
“how is it?”
Tyr, who was about to vehemently object, stopped speaking.
“Name name.”
Tyr, who had been muttering a little, looked at him with a mixture of curiosity and guilt, then closed his eyes and took a step back, expressing his passive agreement with Shay.
“…If you want to take care of me in the future, you should know at least. like his name. Mmmmm.”
The walls that had surrounded him were gone. He stared at Tyr, but Tyr just avoided his gaze.
