If I can’t debut, I’ll get sick to death Episode 506
After the remarks of Steer Ryu Chung-woo, there was a short, heavy silence in the practice room.
‘Do I need to retrieve my memory?’
It must be because the members gradually realized what this meant.
So, instead of Ryu Cheong-woo, who was originally a tester, he said that he would continue to be here.
In the meantime, Steer Ryu Cheong-wu was quietly waiting for our reply without any other response.
As if waiting for a verdict.
….
and after a while
Brother, what are you talking about? You should be able to find your memory. ah don’t worry!
Big Sejin responded with a smile first. Talking as if nothing had happened seemed to give her a chance to gently pass or cancel her words even now.
However, Liu Cheng-wu did not cancel.
Well, I didn’t mean to worry about that. Could it be that Sejin is worried about you? Are you anxious because I have no memory?
…!
okay.
‘If I had to cancel it because I was shaken by that sound, I wouldn’t have done it at all.’
But I didn’t expect to ask such a straightforward question.
When asked if he was insecure because he was less confident than the original testa Ryu Cheong-woo, he said that calmly.
Let me know if you have any concerns. I’ll make up for it soon.
Oh no, I’m still very grateful! But at this rate, it’s too unfamiliar and uncomfortable for him.
Not too uncomfortable.
Steer Ryu Cheng-wu smiled faintly.
it’s fun The stage is good and there are many new things to learn. It’s good that it’s unfamiliar.
….
I’m afraid that if I get my memories back, I won’t feel like this.
yea, that would be better.
Big Sejin spoke softly in a fairly warm voice.
however.
How sure are you?
yes?
Liu Qingyu said unfazed.
It’s not an ordinary situation that you can easily be sure of what just happened. And I think you know best how I feel.
…Um,
until the big Sejin, the expression became speechless for a moment.
He had to say something to refute, but he hesitated for a moment, fearing that the bomb would explode by offending the other person in the process.
You think so, but doesn’t this mean that you are wrong the moment you refute it head-on?
‘X feet.’
twisted I’m going to start with the atmosphere right now.
It was the moment I quickly decided on what to say and was about to intervene.
practice!
…!
Suddenly, someone shouted loudly.
Surprisingly, it was Bae Se-jin who was sitting in a corner reading an e-book.
We only have a week left! break is over Whatever it is, practice first and tell me!
ah.
The way he shouted until the veins stood on his neck looked very desperate.
And at that moment, as if struck by some kind of lightning, the atmosphere suddenly changed. It reminded me of the immediate priorities again.
It wasn’t the way I was going to do it, but it worked very well.
Bae Se-jin continued to shout.
If it’s too late, Kim Rae-bin won’t have time to arrange!
yes.
Even if he stays up all night just because he keeps the deadline, his roommate will stop him. My roommate is Moondae Park!
oh.
hey that’s a bit
…! no! Even if I don’t have to do such night work, I’ll finish it within the period. Believe me!
I believe… !
With Ravin, of course you can!
The tension was relieved for a moment in everyday conversation.
okay. let’s work hard.
yes, fighting… !
So the topic changed smoothly.
Liu Cheng-wu also actively participated in the practice as usual with a mild and cooperative attitude, as if his earlier remarks were a lie.
After some time passed, the tension from earlier began to feel like it could come out naturally in a special situation like this.
‘Because you’re going to be confused, maybe! Cha Yoo-jin even ran away from home.’
In this way.
However, I did not forget the attitude of steer Ryu Cheng-wu earlier.
‘I’m not confused.’
that was sure
He had already made up his mind in his head.
What remains here as Steer Ryu Cheng-wu.
Then all the efforts he has made so far fit together like a puzzle.
As I was told, no more than that, I learned all of Testa’s representative songs and performances of the latest songs, and learned the history of the group called Testa and the individual story of ‘Cheongwoo Ryu’ here.
Just like training.
So that I can remain as Steer Ryu Cheng-wu without recovering my memories as Testa.
‘I wonder if that was the purpose.’
and break time.
I saw Bae Se-jin, standing in the corner of the practice room, letting out a small sigh.
brother.
…Moondae Park.
Bae Se-jin glanced at me and then looked away.
It was Ryu Cheong-woo, who was listening to Kim Rae-bin and Seon Ah-hyun’s explanation of the song.
…I thought about it before.
Bae Se-jin murmured softly.
He also made me uncomfortable. Just like when Cha Yoo-jin did it before.
….
however…I’m trying hard not to look like that. I don’t know why.
I was noticing
Apparently, it wasn’t just because the favor was accepted that he was pleased with the steer, Ryu Cheng-wu, who was accepting a water bottle a few days ago.
‘I understood that as a sign of ‘I will try to get along well’.’
As he said, I don’t know the reason, but it seems that I saw hope in itself.
Besides, Bae Se-jin’s words were not over.
…And I don’t know why they both make me uncomfortable.
Damn.
That’s
it.
Bae Se-jin sighed.
It’s obvious. Maybe he was a nuisance to the group and was eventually dragged back to his former agency.
….
It will be okay if I show that I have changed a lot since then.
And he put on a pretty stern expression, but soon his complexion darkened.
Rather than that, what should I do now… i don’t know that
….
Side by side, we looked at steer Ryu Cheng-wu.
The way he talked to the members was friendly enough to be confused with Ryu Cheong-woo, the original testa.
but.
If he doesn’t get his memory back, the original Cheongwoo we knew… How is it going?
I couldn’t answer
* * *
One week later.
The day of the first contest of < Jinseong Match > has arrived.
[Let’s meet Testa’s stage now.]
I fixed the in-ear as I entered the MC’s introductory phrase and the 6th stage.
No matter how confident you are, this is survival. If I made a mistake and slipped, I might ruin my career and reputation.
But I wasn’t worried.
Normally, of course, it would have been thanks to proper preparation, but now it’s not because of that.
‘I don’t care that far.’
Because other anxiety factors were greater.
….
Wow!
cheers and applause.
Within that, Testa started to move.
-The sound of raindrops
hitting the window and
pouring into my head.
The hit song we chose was a ballad titled < I Don't Know You >.
It was a song that became famous as ‘Insane Pick’ on SNS, which was popular at the time, for its mournful dawn sensibility. Thanks to the composition of repeating the chorus, once you hear it, it is addictive and popular enough to stick in your ears… .
Kim Rae-bin arranged it to be much more depressing and heavy. -Still waiting for
the boring Love and Sick
notification to ring
.
A slow, low bass rang through the speakers.
-You don’t know,
but a performance with a sense of weight will continue in earnest.
The concept is inner melancholy.
The song puts in a classic piece to make it more and more elegant and grand as it develops, and a rather artistic performance is put on top of it.
And even the solo dance of Seon Ah-hyun in the interlude.
In the opening performance, we broke the line once again from the symbolism of KPOP, and this time we tried to come up with a stage that best suits the cultured taste.
and last.
-I can’t sleep,
so I’m going to say
Goodbye goodbye
. Kim Rae-bin evaluated and selected the right person only with his tone without self-interest.
Ryu Chung-woo.
-You don’t know, but
I digested it neatly.
And the accompaniment came back with the sound of the bass.
-Umm… umm.
Even the ending in the sound of the performance that seems to be stagnant.
….
The stage chose a concept that was dark and atmospheric enough to be damned with halfway control.
Catharsis and charm increase even more when the correct impact is entered at the correct timing.
And that strategy worked.
Wow!!
Let the lights go out.
Enormous cheers and applause filled the seats, in stark contrast to the dark stage atmosphere.
Keying-
The bright lights came back on the stage, and before exiting, the members greeted brightly with the excitement of the stage while breathing heavily in sweat.
Thank you~
Thank you.
And it was the same for steer Ryu Chung-woo.
thank you!
Ryu Cheng-wu did well.
And he looked happy.
‘Damn it.’
I held back a sigh because that made people’s heads more complicated.
But it couldn’t be delayed any longer.
‘It’s an escape from reality.’
We had to talk before the update was over.
After a while.
Waiting time to clean up the stage before taking the final cut for the < True Match > contest.
I have something to tell you.
….
I called Steer Ryu Cheng-wu to the small sleeping room inside the waiting room.
The boy followed without resistance. and asked
Is it because of what I said a few days ago?
I nodded, not surprised.
If I go back to the dorm, I’ll be in the middle of the day again, so I’d rather be better now.
‘And this… It would be better to approach him as a relative rather than a team brother.’
That would be more comfortable with each other. So I sat down next to him and talked.
can i ask the reason
….
I don’t mean to say anything. I was asking because I didn’t hear the reason why you thought ‘It won’t be very good if you get your memories back’ during practice at that time.
Steer Ryu Chung-woo did not come out uncooperatively this time either.
Rather, as if thinking for a moment or choosing words, there were no words.
And answer slowly.
Because I don’t think that person is me.
….
Cha Yujin Um, I saw Yujin and thought.
The boy spoke calmly.
I mean, he’s very different from the Cha Yujin I used to know.
….
It seemed like I had memories of living as Cha Yoo-jin, whom I knew, but I did.
‘Was that it?’
Yes.
Now, even if Cha Yu-jin has regained his memories of his days as a steer, he is putting more emphasis on his memories of living as a testa.
Of course. Steer is a thing of the past.
There is no way this fellow, who was in the same group as Steer Cha Yu-jin, could not have felt that sense of incongruity.
I mean, this guy… It’s natural to think that when you get your memories back, you won’t be where you are today.
‘shit.’
Even if I find my memories, I think I will become like everyone else. I don’t want to.
Steer Ryu Cheong-woo said so openly. I gritted my teeth.
His words didn’t even end there.
know. But, he must be thinking that it is the same person.
….
If that’s the case, I’m the same member as I am now, who has no memories. yes?
for a moment.
‘This…It sounds like something prepared.’
oddly smooth
‘Same member?’
no it wasn’t
‘We didn’t treat him like that.’
At that moment, I realized the contradiction in our attitude towards steer Ryu Chung-woo.
No matter how much you lose your memory, people around you usually unconsciously treat you as before. It’s a habit.
As it happened a few times inadvertently when Steer Cha Yu-jin was in the past.
‘But we’ve got this guy… Are you treating Testa Ryu Chung-woo as the same person?’
Steer Cha Yoo-jin was treated the same as Testa Cha Yoo-jin we knew, and instead fought and escaped.
While insisting that ‘I am different from the person you know’.
As a result, we now implicitly treat the ‘original Liu Cheng-wu’ and this ‘Steer Liu Cheng-wu’ as if they were different people.
Saying that you only lost your memory.
‘Damn it.’
it was cooked
There was no way this guy wouldn’t notice that sense of incongruity.
But instead of pointing it out, he talks calmly, as if persuading me according to my logic.
As long as either party is persuaded, it doesn’t matter.
And in the next month or two, maybe even a few weeks, I’ll be able to do my part without help.
But at the end, the calm voice trembled low.
So just… I want you to stay like this.
that day.
Testa’s stage received tremendous acclaim and ranked first in the on-site audience vote.
On the Internet, early audience reviews overflowed, raising expectations for the program and giving fans relief and excitement.
It was as planned.
But there was only one thing that went according to plan.
…I got an update complete popup.
