If I can’t debut, I’ll get sick to death Episode 405
Ballerina Seon Ah-hyun has never walked a different path.
It was his duty to carefully walk the single path to the destination.
The road was sometimes steep or rough, but he could see his destination and the sense of responsibility that he should not stop walking kept his feet moving.
only responsibility.
‘When I first started… It was fun.’
How enjoyable was the new challenge and expression. Dancing was such a fascinating activity.
However, everything changed after he suddenly won an international competition with overwhelming results beyond his imagination.
‘ah.’
-Ahyeon, you were born to do this!
options are gone.
Agencies are attached, articles are rushing, fame is created, and tremendous titles and affiliations are created.
As long as the perfect best path was revealed, he could not try anything else.
There was no reason or reason to rebel against all expectations and advice. There is only life left to aim for greater success through ballet.
…Something seemed wrong.
‘I…I haven’t experienced enough of this to dedicate my life to.’
Still, it wasn’t unbearable. Because dancing is fun.
‘I can’t choose by trying everything I want.’
I heard the same thing in counseling.
It wasn’t hard enough to give up everything, so the counselor assigned by the agency did not recommend an impossible long break or career change.
But the resignation doesn’t go away.
Buried confidence in the future .
‘I am…I won’t be able to do anything else in the future.’
He had already spent half of his childhood and youth.
No friends or social experience. I didn’t even study properly.
Escape from this orbit was impossible.
So now I couldn’t say anything else. It could not plague the company, parents, and stakeholders with uncertainty and worry.
I couldn’t ruin this life without failure.
‘How nice it would be if I had no doubts or worries.’
Seon Ah-hyun worked hard to become that way.
I don’t have other hobbies and I don’t think about other connections and life. It is to narrow the radius of life.
I didn’t want to be lingering or curious.
It was such a win-win.
-The principal ballerino this time will be Ahyeon. also!
-Then I’ll do three more commercials like this. Are you okay, Mr. Ahyeon?
position is getting stronger.
can never break this You must not fail.
‘okay.’
So it was when Seon Ah-hyeon’s path was completely solidified.
We met without notice.
A survival program contestant sitting in the hallway as if he had lost his mind.
-I…Are you okay?
The words he poured out, saying that he would try to cheer him up somehow, were unfamiliar.
– Only good results are not the answer.
– The answer is to make a choice that does not hurt your heart.
‘I am….’
I don’t know why I said it so confidently when I never thought of letting go so easily.
It was as if someone other than himself was speaking.
‘Strange.’
But the words comforted him as well.
-Alternatives can also be the correct answer.
Even if you think it’s impossible to do it yourself.
And surprisingly, the opponent eventually picks up his energy and produces great results in the other direction.
– Wow, it’s really well made.
– It was the best.
He was only a one-time mentor, but that gave him a strange feeling of excitement and emotion. The whole situation and that person.
-…thank you Thanks to you, I finished the stage well.
So when he heard that from Ryu Gun-woo, he actually wanted to say more seriously that he was grateful.
But talking like that seemed like a burden.
‘…If there is a chance.”
I wanted to get to know you better and talk to you.
I really wanted to have my own mindset that even felt unfamiliar to this participant.
So it was the moment when we exchanged numbers and made a promise.
In the hallway where the participants suddenly turned around and disappeared… saw.
‘uh?’
-…sun?
Someone with blond hair wearing in-ears was looking at him from what appeared to be backstage and opening his mouth.
A stage costume and an outstretched hand.
“…!”
However, the strange afterimage quickly disappeared before I even touched it.
It was an unusually clear image to call it a fantasy.
‘ah.’
Strangely, however, Seon Ah-hyun was not anxious.
just…It seemed right. As if fixing a wrong thing, a strange promise is engraved in my head.
‘are you okay.’
Rather, I wanted to see more. Seon Ah-hyun began to reflect on the afterimage in order not to forget it.
After that, the afterimage suddenly reappeared.
When looking at the audience seats, when preparing in the waiting room, when going to the broadcasting station.
When you carefully contact the idol who was depressed.
– Wow!
Noisier, busier, more hardships and twists and turns.
However, there are more shining images of heart-throbbing life.
At such times, Seon Ah-hyeon was confused, but still, the anxiety of going in the wrong direction did not sound strange.
And as the afterimages get darker, a connection is created and a story is created.
Images connected by dotted lines.
‘What is it?’
Seon Ah-hyun carefully adjusted them to her inner self and kept them.
and at this moment.
“You did this stage at a concert.”
As if the shackles were lifted by those words, sound and movement dwell between all the images.
And the afterimages that were kept have meaning and become memories.
real life.
“…at that time.”
Eventually, Seon Ah-hyun realized.
‘ah.’
He was not a ballerino.
It was Seon Ah-hyun who failed to become a ballerino and quit dancing as if running away.
however….
‘I was happy.’
Sun Ah-hyun became an idol.
“You did it with a balloon….”
He recalled the enjoyable unit stage of the first concert. After that, let’s have a group stage.
The self who was stuttering, the self who was giving up, the self who was forcing himself, the self who doubted his friends
“…It’s Moondae.”
It was okay to fail.
Quitting ballet did not mean that the self who had learned it would lose its value.
The daily life collapsed due to ruthless bullying and abandoned school days could one day be restored.
Life doesn’t end broken.
If only I could walk with my mind set on walking again.
‘that’s right.’
And, conversely, living a seemingly perfect life without any terrible failures did not make the inner anxiety and fear go away.
On the contrary, it erases the trauma that Testa’s Seon Ah-hyun had.
A sense of shame that I might have made a weak choice at the crossroads of life.
‘me too…You made the best choice every time. Like the other members.’
All doubts and doubts buried in oneself are offset.
the very first.
Reminds me of the words that helped me to run on a new path without giving up.
– Just think ‘I’m going to do this’.
And now I was facing the person who gave me that opportunity.
* * *
“…That means it wasn’t that I had a memory from the beginning.”
“Yes.”
I fell into the waiting room with Sun Ah-hyun.
It was okay for Seon Ah-hyun, who was already suspicious in part 1, to return to the audience a bit late, and I wasn’t even nominated in the first place.
That’s why I can sit face to face with him now.
Sun Ah-hyun nodded and smiled.
“…I completely remembered it now.”
There was no difference in appearance, but it was revealed in the expression and movement. This was the Seon Ah-hyun I knew.
I was speechless and couldn’t speak for a while before finally answering.
“okay.”
And he held out his hand.
“Good come back.”
“Yes…!”
The guy held out both hands and shook hands. He’s a really cool guy
‘…a little.’
Calm down and let’s move on. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen it, so it’s because understanding the situation comes first before solving what’s going on.
thesis.
-How did Seon Ah-hyun come to his senses?
I took a deep breath and got to the point.
After several afterimages, he said he had just ‘awakened’ from my question and established his ego.
“Because of the concert talk.”
“that’s right….”
If that was the trigger, it means that it kept piling up.
“I think I can understand Moondae’s words…I thought that I wanted to understand. So all of a sudden.”
It seems that Seon Ah-hyun remembers the afterimage well whenever it comes to mind and connects the characters.
Still, I don’t think I knew in the middle that I was Moondae Park, who appeared in my afterimage…
“How did you find out that I am Moondae Park?”
Sun Ah-hyun’s eyes widen.
It’s as if he didn’t know how to ask such an obvious question.
“…! Even if the appearance is slightly different… It’s too much like an open door.”
“ah.”
“and…Because we talked.”
The guy blushed and spoke seriously.
“Mun-dae was originally a person named Ryu Gun-woo.”
“…!”
“I remember…. of course.”
ah.
I remembered that time.
My dark history that I managed to regain my pace at the end of the nuisance and convince Sun Ah-hyun after doing all the stupid things that I was talking about.
‘….’
But I guess it wasn’t useless.
I decided to revise my evaluation a bit.
Maybe the decision itself to speak wasn’t a mistake.
“thanks.”
“…! Oh no! Because we are friends, that is what we should do.”
Sun Ah-hyun smiled brightly. I couldn’t do anything else, so I laughed too.
‘I thought I would be needlessly confused when my memories came back.’
Seon Ah-hyun did not appear to suffer from pain or internal conflict at all.
On the contrary, it seemed more comfortable than before.
‘Bae Se-jin was right.’
– Just because it looks like that on the outside doesn’t mean it’ll be the same on the inside,
I’ll admit it. He’s 1st win.
After that, I quickly informed him about the current situation.
More specifically, the burden of having to somehow reinforce the logic to convince them… There were no more.
“For more details, let’s talk over the phone after the awards ceremony.”
“huh!”
Instead, they quickly returned to their seats at the awards ceremony before it was too late.
I got a temporary seat thanks to performing with the two nominated people and took a seat in the corner of their table.
Bae Se-jin, who was looking at us with an expression that seemed to say ‘why are you so late’, changed her complexion as soon as she checked Sun Ah-hyun’s expression.
Then, taking advantage of the VCR’s entry, he quickly whispered to me.
‘Couldn’t it be now… .’
I nodded slowly. A big smile began to spread across Bae Se-jin’s face.
Then, he stabs Seon Ah-hyun, who was sitting next to him.
‘you!’
‘Hello Sejin-hyung… !’
I let Bae Se-jin and Seon Ah-hyun, who were excited, gesticulate. The two of you will publish an article as a friendship. I chuckled and watched the VCR turn off.
The awards ceremony was resuming.
and that night.
[Ahyeon Seon has entered]
The testa group message room was filled with all 7 people.
[Seon Ah-hyun: Hello..!]
[Big Se-jin: Ah, crazy]
[Big Se-jin: No, I’m sorry, but Ah-hyun is finally here
. emoticon)]
[Cheongwoo Ryu: I heard you Ah Hyun-ah, it’s really good (smile emoticon) Should I call you Ah-hyun?] [Ah-
sun Sun: It’s really okay, you don’t have to do that!]
Even though I almost fell into chaos, I lay down on the bed and went down the message room that returned to the conversation with excitement.
Half of it is actually in this lodging, but it felt a bit different.
‘Shall I contact Seon Ah-hyun in a few minutes?’
Let’s talk a little more, I’ll tell you the details later.
Before that, clear up some doubts in your head.
‘hmm.’
Well, as a result, I came to the conclusion that good is good, but… Even so, we have to deduce why only Seon Ah-hyun was able to regain his memory on his own.
‘There is still no Seon Ah-hyun in the status window.’
[Yes!]
First of all, it means that the system was not involved.
If so.
‘…Is there any difference from the previous awakening?’
As a result of thinking about it, one thing came to my mind.
Seon Ah-hyun did not complain of headaches or dizziness, which was common when other guys woke up, and naturally regained their real self.
‘…how?’
As if he could have been…
like self-sufficiency.
“…!”
yes.
I got up from bed
It feels like being punched in the head.
[Ohhhh, what did you think of??]
Yes.
It is the ability that Seon Ah-hyun has that is different from others.
‘characteristic.’
I remembered Sun Ah-hyun’s characteristics.
[Guts (S)]
: Make your own mindset. That’s why I can afford it alone.
-When activated, mental abnormalities are offset. (Duplicate application possible)
This.
Now, Seonahyeon was a B grade, but anyway, the effect of canceling the abnormal status was basically there.
‘So if this brings back even a little bit of memory… .’
The moment the S-class characteristics of the real Sun Ah-hyun return, all status abnormalities are caught.
So the result.
‘…That this guy came back on his own… ??’
It was an absurdly fraudulent act.
[Wow Ahyeon-nim is really cool!!1 Crazy!]
No, that’s… .
‘It’s not a situation that ends with being cool.’
[Yes?]
This… It was a hint.
I squeezed the edge of the bed.
There is a premise of this logic.
‘It means that this situation is abnormal.’
[!!!]
Yes.
Sun Ah-hyun’s characteristic is to offset status abnormalities, so as long as they are offset, all of these situations are ‘status abnormalities’.
Like my ‘Debut or Death’ or Cheongryeo’s ‘Correction’.
“….”
[That makes sense! Since we got into this situation while trying to catch the system in the first place, if you think the system caused a status abnormality… .]
Wait.
‘…I was trying to catch the system. la.’
Oddly enough, that sentence lingered in my mouth.
‘If I were going to destroy the system… .’
And I noticed a sense of incongruity.
[Tongue hyung?]
Such a fucking thing.
I immediately kicked the door and ran out to find another room.
“hmm? You came just fine.”
A room with Cheongryeol.
Because his roommate, Judan, went out on a personal schedule, he is now in a room alone.
He sits at his desk writing something, then turns his head leisurely and continues talking.
“About the first awards ceremony next month, the score calculation for the Music Awards…”
“We.”
“hmm?”
I said it with the feeling of wanting to bite my tongue.
“There is something we misunderstood.”
“….”
Let’s think.
I got on a plane with him and drove him to the middle of the Pacific Ocean and tried to destroy the system.
in what way?
By making it so that there are no hosts around for the system to enter. That basically means you have to have a system in place.
“After all, you need a guy with a system now to do the damn thing about getting rid of it.”
“….”
“Then he must have been on the plane at the time.”
I swallowed.
“Who is that?”
I completely forgot.
Still, I didn’t feel any discomfort.
The guy in front opens his mouth.
“Um, well.”
Cheong-rye, who was still sitting at the desk, put her hand on her chin and frowned as if she was worried….
for a moment.
I looked at the guy in front of me feeling my blood run cold.
You look fine.
This crazy control freak doesn’t show any displeasure at the situation getting out of control right now.
that.
“you…I remembered.”
“….”
That there was one more guy on the plane.
and.
“I knew I forgot.”
Cheong-Ri covers the notes she was organizing on her desk.
Then he smiled and opened his mouth.
“I still have a good brain, junior.”
this…X feet.
