If you can’t debut, you’ll get a fatal disease Episode 352
The festival is over.
Testa’s testimonials and certification photos flooded the Internet.
The university community is also responding.
– How dare you sing a cheering song there and induce a group of people? Park Moon -dae Honorary Yeonhee
└ ㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ – There is a
testimony that the manager was trying to cry under the 3 songs of King Star Encore
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reputation. reputation.
A direct cam opens and comments are posted.
-Live is crazy Wow, this is how it works
-Let’s do waterbomb… This is absolutely not selfish.
– I hope you leave a lot of direct cams for this active song
.
Tomorrow’s schedule might be possible right now, but that’s something we can’t guarantee.
If you scroll down the screen further, there is an ad-lib video where I pick up a handheld microphone and dare to sing a cheering song.
-The video shouting that this is an idol
-Your quickness is really crazy,
right?
If doing what you know is quick, you should call a dog a tiger.
Park Moon-dae is the kind of person who sees gains from information differences and wipes his mouth. The head doesn’t work well in a crisis situation.
A really quick-witted bastard would have said something else there.
therefore. In the words of Seon Ah-hyun.
-….
-I’m sorry… .
– No no.
Instead of just repeating words like an idiot who doesn’t even know her mother tongue.
So instead of standing there dumbfounded until the guys who eventually came back pulled Seon Ah-hyun and me out of the bathroom.
Then I’d rather… .
‘Stop’
Stop unproductive households.
Move on to the next situation and think again.
And I… It seems like she entered my room, but Seon Ah-hyun went to her room… is it
‘maybe.’
didn’t take it outside. That would mean that you can still be in the dorm, and that your condition has calmed down.
I pressed my face with both hands. My brain seemed to harden. My head doesn’t turn… .
roll your head
That’s all you can do, so don’t neglect your duties.
Why did things turn out this way… no You can’t say it like that.
‘Why did you create this X-like situation, you bastard.’
I gritted my teeth.
If you ask me where did I start doing shit….
Of course from the beginning.
‘I shouldn’t have thought of saying it in the first place.’
Is this insane?
If you predicted that ‘if informed, you will go to a mental hospital’, then you should keep your mouth shut.
‘Because someone else believed me? You generalize it with one case, you fucking bastard.’
I should have been relieved and passed on if it was eaten in the board that was caught and explained. Why would you talk again to someone who doesn’t know anything?
Is there any reason to objectively accept this crazy sound? Did you say ‘I want to do that’?
“unnecessary…”
Didn’t the situation become this way because of a dog joke?
‘Seon Ah-hyun’s abnormal condition… .’
What the hell are you going to do with this reactivated situation?
“….”
What if you only know the cause? Now that I know you’ve done a fucking stupid thing, I know how to find a fundamental solution… .
‘shut up.’
I covered my mouth. The teeth squeeze the grip.
Stop doing useless things and look at reality again rationally.
‘A thing to do.’
…somehow Sunahyeon’s status ailment needs to be deactivated again.
The reason Sun Ah-hyun has been able to disable status ailments so far is thanks to her talent.
‘Guts.’
[Guts (A): Make your own mindset. Burn your concentration and press negative states.]
-When activated, cancels one abnormal state (highest priority).
However, this characteristic… It was deactivated because of the bullshit I was talking about, and the status abnormality returned again.
I clenched my fist.
‘late….’
Before, I persuaded Sun Ah-hyun with my characteristics.
– Just think ‘I’m going to do this’.
Seon Ah-hyun understood my words and decided to focus only on the task in front of her right now.
But now my words cannot be persuasive.
I’m the one who confused him so he can’t concentrate on his work.
You already think I’m crazy, but I can’t help it… .
“….”
my brain is blank
‘What can be done… .’
how to convince
Like before… .
I reflexively brought up my status window. Then, as expected, a pop-up appears.
[brother….]
Big moon.
There are no other words. The pop-up seems to be shaking… Am I going to taste it and look like that?
How is it?
I muttered in a hushed voice.
“characteristic…Can you pull it out again?”
A quality that can convince anyone.
“….”
The status window did not move.
And after a while, the small text comes up.
[No.]
Ah.
yeah i knew it
[sorry….]
“Nothing to be sorry about.”
Why does everyone apologize when I say bullshit? Do you have any manuals?
Why am I fucking doing this… .
[It’s not your fault. Not really.]
“That’s right.”
It wasn’t that someone forced me to do it, it happened because there was a problem in my mental head.
I lost my judgment.
Other than that, another conclusion… ….
smart.
“It’s Moondae.”
who is calling
When I turned my head, I saw Ryu Cheng-wu’s face as he cautiously entered the room.
“Ahyeon calmed down and it’s okay.”
“….”
“You said you wanted to be alone, but…Sorry, I want to come in.”
Liu Cheng-wu walked over with a puzzled face and gently sat down on his bed.
I want to stop hearing apologies.
“It’s your room, but it’s your heart.”
“…um okay.”
Then there was a short silence. Liu Chengwu opened his mouth again after that.
“It’s Moondae. It’s only natural that you want to tell others about your situation.”
okay. And being really stupid is a different matter.
“Now, it was just a matter of timing, so don’t think too much about it. Understand.”
“….”
I chose that timing.
But there was nothing to answer.
smart.
Someone else entered the room.
‘It’s big.’
As soon as he closed the door he came in and grasped the situation, he immediately said with a firm face.
“Park Moon-dae. It’s my fault. Sorry.”
“….”
I feel like throwing up.
“How can this be your fault?”
“Because I instigated it.”
What is that guy saying right now without changing the color of his face?
“I made a mistake because I thought Ahyeon would believe it.”
“….”
“Because you seemed so nervous when you were talking to me, so I hoped you wouldn’t be this time. I’m over it. You just did your job.”
“no.”
I pressed my temples.
“I was the one who said it. stop.”
“So that….”
Big Sejin opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something more, but soon closed it.
thank you for that Because I felt like my head would break.
“It’s not anyone’s fault, it just happened that way, both of you, stop it.”
Liu Cheng-wu intervenes and clears things up. I couldn’t agree, but I did.
But the next thing I couldn’t say.
“but…Moondae. How about we take a break for a while?”
“….”
what.
“Since we’ve been active for over two weeks, it will be okay to take a few days off now. On the agency side, it’s okay to say that you want to get sick with the flu or body aches.”
A soft, cautious voice follows.
“Shall we take a little break and reorganize?”
rearrangement.
The choice to cease activity.
“….”
If I have a conscience and think of Seon Ah-hyun’s condition, I should agree.
Considering the crazy live difficulty of the current title, the decline in Sun Ah-hyun’s ability will be noticeable right away.
Then it’s not clear what you’re going to hear. All sorts of insults and controversies.
‘It’s right to rest.’
If I’m sane, I shouldn’t be yelling at me to work here.
but….
I turned my head and looked at the pop-up in the status window that I hadn’t turned off yet.
Rest… this guy
[Hyung, take a break and give yourself a break…. Please.]
It’s not long now. If you can’t make a record with this activity, it will die. It goes back to the status window.
But this bastard clearly knows that, but tells him to rest… .
“…this.”
My brain is about to burst.
There are so many things to think about, so many things to deal with… what the hell is this… .
Suddenly the words came out.
“later.”
stop.
Don’t say anything that doesn’t work. There is no later.
Even at dawn, I have a schedule. Less than 4 hours left. Even now, you have to make a quick and accurate judgment. efficiently….
“It’s Moondae.”
someone grabbed my shoulder
Ryu Chung-woo.
“Then let’s skip the schedule for at least three days. No problem in three days. A lot of things have already been taken. Okay, Park Moondae?”
“….”
I nodded.
I don’t know what you can do with it. Maybe
* * *
Same visual living room.
Kim Rae-bin was in agony with the hot tea that Sun Ah-hyun often drank.
“I guess…There must be an incident between the two of you.”
Cha Yujin shook her head. His dear friend was very gifted as an artist, but this problem was a chronic disease.
So I said it honestly.
“Everyone knows. Rabin Kim.”
“….”
Kim Rae-bin nodded his head with a slightly depressed face instead of annoyed.
That’s how serious the situation was.
‘It’s such a mess.’
Seon Ah-hyun looked like a self-destructive sleepwalker, and Park Moon-dae seemed to pass out of shock. Because I had to lift it half way to the bed.
Cha Yoo-jin honestly couldn’t understand why the situation had come to this.
They seem to be saying sorry to each other.
Doesn’t that mean we don’t have bad feelings for each other?
However, at the same time, I reasonably understood the situation.
‘Well, it seemed like everyone didn’t have many friends.’
He also often saw relationships that made each other so important that eventually the problem became heavy.
They were very clumsy people. Although that sincerity was also the charm of this team.
‘hmm…That older brother is like that too.’
He saw Bae Se-jin staggering with the face of a loser and sitting in the living room.
I am…Why can’t you talk like this?”
It seemed that he had failed in trying to speak kindly to Seon Ah-hyun.
Feeling a bit sad, he nodded his head.
“I speak well. I will come and tell you.”
“Wait a minute.”
Originally, I was going to go first to help Moondae recover his energy, but isn’t the situation more difficult when he needs advice in addition to consolation?
‘I have to go to a place like that.’
Cha Yu-jin shrugged her shoulders and confidently entered Kim Rae-bin’s room, so Sun Ah-hyun’s room after knocking.
Seeing that no one stopped him, his choice seemed right!
“Hyung, I’m going in..”
“….”
creak.
When I opened the door and entered, Seon Ah-hyun was sitting on the bed in front of the moonlit window.
It was a stiff posture and pale complexion, as if the soul had escaped .
It looked more like ruins than people.
It was at least possible thanks to the sedative.
“Are you okay bro?”
“….”
Sun Ah-hyun nodded her head very slowly. Perhaps because of the drug, his eyes seemed to be out of focus.
“Are you feeling okay?”
silence.
Cha Yoo-jin sat down next to him and stabbed right into the core.
“Can’t you tell me anything? Dae-hyung Moon’s secret?”
“…!”
Seon Ah-hyun looked away. Then it seemed a bit human. Cha Yu-jin shrugged.
“Everyone has a secret. I know even if I don’t hear!”
Isn’t it rather strange to have no secrets in life?
And whether or not to share those secrets was just an option.
Are more intimate and good friends because they share many secrets? Do you know that person better?
Cha Yu-jin did not think so.
‘If it doesn’t come naturally, it just becomes weight.’
Maybe now is such a situation I didn’t know.
[No matter what, my brother heard the secret, and there was a problem of some kind.]
Seon Ah-hyun was still motionless, but murmured lowly.
“My self is ruined.”
“Then fix it.”
“…!”
[Don’t think I’m saying it lightly. Well, I don’t think Hyun-hyung is hurt by Moon-dae.]
Yoo-jin Cha stared at Ah-hyeon Seon.
[Then, if you think about getting a good night’s sleep and talking with a clear mind to fix it, it’s easier to organize.]
It was advice to slow down and get out of panic.
And the answer comes back.
“…Oh I know.”
Seon Ah-hyun murmured in a low voice.
“…That’s why I… It won’t work.”
“…!”
“Every time. Knowing, knowing, but doing nothing..!”
In Seon Ah-hyeon’s eyes, who said that, Cha Yu-jin confirmed a very clear feeling.
‘That’s… .’
It was self-hatred rage.
Seon Ah-hyun knew it too. Why don’t you know?
There is nothing he can do at this point, so keeping his mouth shut and sleeping is the only thing that helps the situation.
But it doesn’t. Because I am anxious, because the fear of ruining everything dominates my mind.
Likewise, I realized the moment I heard Park Moon-dae’s ‘secret’.
‘no….’
Moondae’s past activities.
Amnesia and nightmares Considering the extreme choices… This wasn’t usually serious.
-I’m not Park Moon-dae.
It was seen as a sign that a broken heart was spreading to an identity problem.
And he also knew that he was the most suitable person to bring up the story to Moondae.
‘I have to do it.’
Ryu Chung-woo and Lee Se-jin are people who have overcome their own mental hardships. He received little medical help.
So, if they are healthy, they completely believe in Park Moon University.
‘It was just me… !’
The only person who could properly tell about the danger was himself, but that was the only way he could help Park Moon-dae.
I’ve been thinking and deciding to become a helpful friend and colleague who fulfills my role, but… ..
‘I couldn’t do that.’
…no it didn’t
A precious relationship built with trust and intimacy can end with just one word.
Because the possibility alone was too frightening.
‘only me…What if they hate me because they don’t trust me?’
‘In the end, that means that Moon University is strange. Then… I can’t…’
‘You’ll feel bad…’ …’
But if you keep your mouth shut, then you can keep going.
Seon Ah-hyun squeezed her hand tightly until it turned white.
‘It was more important for me to just be friends no matter what happened to the literary college… .’
Because of his disregard, Mundae’s symptoms became more severe.
In the future, if Mundae really suffers greatly while doing activities, so if it becomes an irreversible situation… .
‘It’s my fault.’
I knew it thoroughly, trying to gather information so that I couldn’t sleep and somehow not show that I was suspicious.
– Can’t we just trust him?
I don’t really believe in it, but I want to justify that self-justification somehow.
Even though I knew everything, there was one reason why I couldn’t do anything and ruined my work.
‘I…It’s because I’m the kind of person who can’t help.’
There is no excuse.
He thought so much about good things and right things, but in the end, he couldn’t do anything about really precious and fearful things.
And I couldn’t help but pour out my weak spirit to the opponent in the worst way in the worst situation.
‘It didn’t help that… .’
it’s just a wound It gave Moondae another wound… .
My throat tightened.
‘Don’t be in pain.’
Self-pity was also a luxury. Seon Ah-hyun suppressed a scream. Because apologizing while crying is not an indulgence.
“….”
Cha Yoo-jin, who was watching, almost clicked his tongue uncharacteristically.
‘He looks like some kind of ascetic medieval monk.’
I couldn’t figure out the specific inside story.
I could see it just by looking at this atmosphere. Sun Ah-hyun was in pain.
Still, Cha Yu-jin decided to say something. After all, everyone has to come out of the pain on their own feet.
Still, can’t you give that person a stepping stone!
[hmm. all right. But this situation is a bit different.]
Cha Yu-jin raised her hand.
[If Hyung doesn’t do it this time, Dae Hyung Moon does.]
“…!”
[That hyung is the type of person who wants to solve something by himself in the end when something happens to this group.]
Seon Ah-hyun raised her head.
[He’s such a big brother. You know, right?]
Of course I knew.
[So this time, it’s not a matter of whether or not hyung does it alone.]
“…”
[Either hyung acts, or Moondae hyung does it first. It’s one of the two.]
Seon Ah-hyun gritted her teeth.
then.
…then.
* * *
Dawn.
“Let’s go Kong.”
Cheong-Ryeo was walking down the street with her dog, who had finally returned last night.
It’s just that my trail was still a course that I could use without any problems with any sightings.
Going out for a walk at the usual time, I was happy to feel that everything was back to normal.
Although it’s funny to call a routine that’s only a few years old that way.
“hmm.”
He immediately wrote a text with a faint smile.
[I’m discharged]
Send the photo you took now.
“Bean. here.”
“king!”
And he was about to take a picture of the grinning dog’s face.
I saw Inyoung sitting on a bench.
“…hmm.”
It was rare because of the time zone, but it didn’t disturb me.
It was because he was a familiar person.
“Brother.”
“….”
dark bench. The black hood moves slightly to reveal the contents underneath.
familiar face.
Cheong-Ryeo confirmed the pale complexion that could be seen even under the mask. In the meantime, the voice that is heard is calm.
“…I have something to ask you.”
“….”
It was very rare.
And since he had done this rare thing himself, he made an equally rare decision.
“Okay? Then let’s go in.”
Moondae Park was invited to the VTIC hostel.
In an impromptu way that would have been unforeseen just yesterday.
