If you can’t debut, you’ll get a fatal disease Episode 332
What kind of situation is this?
I’m lying in bed I don’t have a particularly good idea. I’m just chewing the cud.
The situation right before I went to visit Sejin, who had left the hotel room for camping.
– Beep.
I pressed the doorbell of Sejin’s hotel room, but there was no response.
-….
I wondered if you were not in the room. But is he the kind of person who will go out and make a gossip with big Sejin?
obviously inside
– Sejin Lee.
I waited a moment and rang the doorbell again.
Then came the response.
drooling.
Not at the door, but at the smartphone.
[Let’s talk about it later, Moondae. I’m a little tired right now]
That was the end.
“….”
I took my hand off the pillow, checked the text once, and swiped it away.
-Are you okay?
“uh.”
Then, the face of Ryu Gun-woo appeared on the screen. I’m in the process of returning the call I hung up earlier.
…I have to do my job.
“What was the story you were trying to say?”
-…wait a minute.
The guy on the screen moves. Then, raise both hands and point to the air.
– Do you see this?
“no.”
The guy on the screen carefully lowers his hand.
-You can’t see… .
“….”
-I did a little research since the last time I logged in to download the ‘receive rewards’ pop-up.
is it.
– A few days ago, I was able to open the status window by calling it from my side. So I wonder if you can see it on the screen… .
“okay.”
It was something worth making a video call with. I understand.
And when he shut his mouth, the room became quiet again.
“….”
A cautious voice was heard.
-That brother. Also, what happened earlier?
“no.”
Can’t you stop asking about that?
I almost felt annoyed at the moment, but I recognized that there was no need for it and pressed it.
…From his point of view, the phone suddenly hung up, so of course you can ask.
“I was hung up on by someone I don’t know, but there was a bit of a misunderstanding.”
-ah….
After a brief exclamation, he was speechless again. He seems to have understood the situation roughly.
‘Is this the end of the story?’
Now, when you wonder if it would be okay to end the call and hang up.
-I…Then wouldn’t it be okay if I told you the circumstances?
“what?”
– Lee Se-jin, right? You were my close friend. then…
“I’m going to return to the past in someone else’s body and become an idol, but if I don’t, I’ll die, so just say that you leveled up and came this far.”
-….
“Common sense, this…no sorry.”
At that moment, I realized why Keun Se-jin had stopped talking and left. I guess I did this to avoid needlessly shouting.
I shook my head and continued.
“I will organize and analyze the status window problem you just mentioned, so you should rest today too….”
-no. brother.
The guy stopped talking.
– I think it’s really the first time that hyung doesn’t pay attention to the system story like this. Normally, you would have asked a lot of questions.
“…!”
– I think you are concerned about the current situation.
“….”
And a small voice was heard.
-Then just say… How about having a good time?
I involuntarily clenched my fist.
That was the moment.
I suddenly recalled afterimages derived from those words.
Mistakes this guy made every time I met him until now.
-brother!
-Geonwoo hyung… .
Errors in titles or endings.
I knew it was because he was so bad at deceiving others.
But now that I think about it, I wonder how the guy who lived in the body of Ryu Gun-woo for several years made such a mistake every time… .
Isn’t it unnatural?
“You can’t believe you made mistakes whenever you were with the members….”
-….
“Is it because you wanted me to be found out?”
after a moment of silence.
A voice came from the screen.
– Maybe…
“…!”
-I wasn’t conscious at the time, but I think it was a bit unconscious… …. I think that will help my brother.
“what.”
-Testa is someone close to you who has lived with you for several years. I wanted my brother to feel at ease after revealing his secret… .
It is an action based on good will.
However, it reminds me of something in that it does not consider the other person’s intentions and feelings at all.
And he talks about it himself.
-But that’s what the system does.
okay.
-Hyung, ignoring your thoughts and feelings and just doing it.
It was an overly mechanical and inhuman impulse for this frail fellow.
I opened my mouth slowly.
“…So you guessed that it seems to be affected by the system?”
The last time we met, it reminded me of the guy who was especially afraid of the system.
– I feel that the part that has been assimilated with the system is getting stronger. Even if it moves to another body, it seems to have some effect.
And a bittersweet voice comes out of the screen, as if a little dejected.
-yes. So after I noticed, I’m really trying not to make mistakes… .
“….”
– It wasn’t really intentional. It must have been uncomfortable for you, but I’m really sorry. I will be very careful not to be swayed in the future… ….
“…okay.”
A sigh of relief was heard from the screen.
‘You’re having a hard time.’
Being influenced by something you don’t know must be quite unpleasant.
‘I’m going to have to pay close attention to this guy’s condition from now on.’
As if I had been bathed in cold water, I looked at the big moon with a bit of my senses.
But the topic has returned.
-But hyung, though, this is a really separate message. That friend will definitely trust you.
I’m going crazy.
I said while holding back my sleep.
“If he had the personality to believe such science-fiction sounds, he would have been cleaned up by now.”
However, Lee Se-jin had the most realistic personality.
I conceded.
‘so…I was procrastinating.’
Because I have to work, the timing is not right.
With such an excuse, I was rationalizing the situation where I kept my mouth shut and procrastinated.
I was drunk with the atmosphere and said ‘I’ll tell you when the time is right’, so I should say… No matter how I convey it, the probability of not believing it seems too high.
I sighed.
Then, a voice that sounded a bit ridiculous on the screen… What’s not funny?
-Hyung, I’m telling you in case you forgot… That brother was the status window??
I know that.
-I know how Lee Sejin-nim and hyung have been!
“…!!”
– The hyungs fighting and stuff like that… Anyway, I am speaking from the point of view of a third party who knows all the information. Trust me… !
It was quite embarrassing to see all of it.
However, the big moon was embarrassing and nabal, and was almost making a noise now.
-That friend knows you as much as you are realistic… ! And we trust each other a lot.
And I’m funny, but I’m listening to that.
– If hyung explains it sincerely and honestly, you will believe it.
“….”
I laid down on one arm.
-brother….
I don’t know.
“I don’t even know how to say it. It happened like this.”
-ah….
“first…Take a look at the situation.”
It’s nabal to tell the truth now, and I don’t know how this guy will turn out tomorrow.
There was a possibility that it might not be a big deal because my emotions were intensified right away. If you cool down, you can explain the misunderstanding and be a little embarrassed, and then it will end.
– Bro, so… .
The guy on the screen seemed to be trying to say something of encouragement in his own way, but it didn’t really come across.
“okay.”
I immediately ended the call and replied to Sejin’s text message after conflict.
[sorry. Rest well]
And it was funny, but it really didn’t matter.
The very next day, the overtime camp for the album went smoothly.
* * *
“I put a blast sound on the beat, what do you think?”
“Good? But how about putting it only at the point of the chorus and replacing it with a different sound in the verse? Your ears might get tired quickly.”
“All right!”
Big Sejin gave feedback and adjusted the situation well, no different from the previous day. Push the good comments and cut out the inappropriate ones.
“I want to choose a song based on demo number 4. How about that?”
“…That’s fine. But I think number 3 is better.”
“okay.”
It’s not like when I was angry and the relationship was awkward before, and I didn’t just laugh and act well.
just…The sense of distance has deepened.
‘Damn it.’
You don’t give me a chance to have a private conversation.
It was hard to even apologize for this. It’s because ‘I’m sorry’ is impossible to develop a ‘I’m fine’ conversation.
“Let’s get some rest.”
“yes.”
and break time. I woke up after following with my eyes the guys who were scattering around the suite more freely than yesterday.
‘Let’s pour cold water on it.’
If you can’t concentrate because you’re frustrated, it’s stupid. Let’s have a cold water friction and wake up and look at the album.
I was on my way back after using the washstand by the front door.
“…Lee Se-jin.”
“yes?”
A voice came from the kitchen next to the hallway.
Bae Se-jin calls the big Se-jin.
It was rare. That’s why I remembered the conversation I had with Bae Se-jin after the big Se-jin left yesterday.
-I…Did I say something strange?
-…no. It’s because there was a bit of a misunderstanding with me. Sorry for getting you into trouble.
– No, no.
It’s a situation where anyone who hears it will bring up the topic.
The voices of two people with the same name continued to be heard from across the corner of the hallway.
“excuse me…I mean yesterday Sorry if I made a mistake.”
“yes? no. It’s not like that. I made a fuss by myself.”
“…Isn’t that because there’s a problem?”
“Oh, that’s just my problem. Did I say something rude then? I’m sorry bro.”
“No, that’s fine… .”
After a moment of silence.
“Um bro. I have something else to do, so is it okay if I just say this?”
“…wait for a sec.”
I heard Bae Se-jin swallow his saliva.
“…Hey, it was yesterday, but Park Moon-dae told me about the person Park Moon-dae was looking for, so it wasn’t me. I didn’t know because I happened to be there.”
“….”
“I didn’t have to say….”
“brother.”
Big Sejin stopped talking.
“I think you should hear this from yourself.”
“…!”
“I really don’t think it’s your fault, so you don’t have to worry. Rather, thanks to you, you know. situation.”
I heard Bae Se-jin’s pain. The feeling of wanting to say what was going on and the thought of being out of place if I intervened more seemed to cross paths.
and finally said
“okay. that…I hope you have a good talk with Moondae Park.”
“….”
The guy who would normally have said ‘yes’ and finished, instead spat out in a tired and sharp tone.
“…I don’t know. to do.”
“…!”
“anyway…yes. All right.”
I knew then.
Clearly, this guy was more concerned about the current situation than he was.
And there was also the urge to listen to the story because I was so pissed off right now.
‘then.’
I suddenly remembered the last words of the big moon that I replied to my words yesterday, ‘I don’t know what will happen after this happens.’
A statement that didn’t make much sense at the time.
-Now that the situation is like this, wouldn’t you believe it more if I told you? You’re not the type to say nonsense to an angry person.
-…!
-Since I know you, you won’t think of it as an excuse or a prank if it sounds strange!
“….”
X feet. okay.
I picked up the phone and called the manager.
There is no other way. Let’s do it.
* * *
Sejin Lee liked concerts.
If you are familiar with him, it would be easy to misunderstand that someone like Lee Se-jin would prefer variety shows or appearances on famous YouTube channels.
Originally, what people thought with their head and what they felt with their heart were different.
The concert was no different from proof of oneself as an idol.
Existence of dreams and ambitions.
‘So good… .’
But today I couldn’t fully enjoy that good concert.
Originally, at a concert, it is normal for the members to get together and enjoy a meet-and-greet around the time of the encore.
Even if it’s not that, when I match the sum with the members who are on stage like that, it also inspires immersion and a sense of belonging.
But today that was impossible.
‘under….’
It is because we stood on stage together without having had a proper conversation with Park Moon-dae since the uproar a few days ago.
I am conscious of it moment by moment as if a stone got into my shoe, and every time I feel depressed.
‘why….’
In fact, I already knew that Park Moon-dae did not ‘look at me with as much generosity’ as the other members.
In fact, I was rather willing.
Because it felt like a kind of relationship establishment.
‘Equal friends.’
I even shrugged a little. Even if the group disappears, he is confident that he and Park Moon-dae will continue to work together and remain friends, even if no one else knows.
that reassurance.
However, once you know that it is an illusion, as much as that certainty… I feel betrayed.
‘It’s really funny.’
No, Park Moon-dae didn’t say that he believed in you the most, so what kind of betrayal did he have?
Sejin Lee laughed.
I know very well that being a human being can easily change positions depending on the environment. And there was nothing particularly sad about it.
‘This industry is more like that.’
However, he couldn’t understand why he felt so sad as if he had become a great friend with Park Moon-dae.
But if you think about it again, isn’t that enough?
‘It’s not like we were just a moderate group.’
We spent a lot of time talking about all sorts of worries and accidents and even revealing our personal history.
And yet… .
Sejin Lee clenched his fists.
‘It’s over with an apology through text.’
Park Moon-dae means that he has nothing to regret right now.
What’s even funnier is that he’s thinking about whether to talk first and solve the situation.
Wow!
Sejin Lee took a deep breath as he watched the shower of flowers burst from the side of the stage.
It wasn’t just out of breath.
‘It’s annoying.’
On this fine day, it was absurd that I was in bad shape because I had a fight with one of the members in front of a large number of spectators.
It’s because I’ve tried the most idiot who can’t distinguish that kind of construction.
So I paid more attention to performance and live. If you lack immersion, you have to do it elaborately.
“Thank you for your hard work~”
“You worked hard!”
So, when I came down after the concert, I felt a sense of desolation greater than the overflowing joy as usual.
It felt like the energy that was overflowing on stage had disappeared.
“….”
“How are you biting?”
“What were you doing, you left quickly!”
In the meantime, the fact that the other party went unharmed somehow made me even more pissed off.
‘Why am I the only one consuming my emotions?’
Lee Se-jin struggled between heat and fatigue, and eventually left with a sigh.
I was thinking of getting in the car and going back to the hotel and going to sleep.
Tirik.
But when I opened the door to the hotel and went in.
“Are you here?”
“…?!”
Someone was already sitting in the room.
“I got the key from the manager.”
Someone who had their hands on the table… …It was Park Moon-dae.
Lee Se-jin doubted his eyes for a moment.
‘this….’
What’s the matter?
Why the hell is the guy who said he went in first?
At that moment, a flash of hope passed through my mind.
‘no way?’
I’m going to grab an apple and try it… .
“Sorry for trespassing.”
“Ah, sorry about that?”
X feet X feet.
Big Sejin felt the urge to slap his own mouth. I don’t even know why I’m talking like this.
In the first place, it seemed like it was losing in itself to reveal a displeased look.
and…So I was afraid that the relationship would become strange.
“I’m sorry about that and I’m sorry about the other things.”
However, despite this, Park Mun-dae calmly answered without any other reply.
Being calm, somehow I didn’t like it more.
“what.”
‘No really calm… Did you do it?’
He almost cried, but at the moment he checked Moondae Park’s face and posture.
His expression was still serious, but his hands were touching his fingers and making small movements on his shoulders.
“…!”
Park Moon-dae… I was very nervous.
“That’s something I couldn’t properly explain to you yesterday.”
“….”
“The hyungs don’t know all about my situation properly. Only part of it was caught.”
“You heard me?”
“okay. So it means that this is the first time I am speaking with my own mouth.”
“….”
Lee Se-jin forgot all the complexities and irritations for a moment and focused on the conversation.
what the hell are you trying to say
“first…I think it would be appropriate to start by saying this.”
Park Moon-dae’s eyes lit up.
“I am not Park Moon-dae.”
“…??”
“And back to the past.”
Lee Se-jin began to suspect that he had actually fallen asleep in the car.
