If you can’t debut, you’ll die from an illness Episode 321
The buzz of people under the stage, the noise of devices, and the flickering light from the cheering rod stimulate all five senses.
I’m back.
“….”
someone grabs your shoulder When I turn my head, I see big Sejin and the faces around me.
This kid is laughing, but his hands are getting stronger. I think it was this guy who called me earlier.
‘I must have stumbled.’
When I debuted in < Azusa >, I remember that I almost collapsed after watching the first truth check.
I don’t know if it was a similar situation, but the difference in the time I feel is so big.
Suddenly, I quickly scanned the faces of the guys standing behind me.
‘A long time.’
From Ryu Chung-woo to Bae Se-jin, who stood on the outskirts. Actually, I met Bae Se-jin a few days ago, but it’s surprising that he has a different impression from the guy at the beginning of his debut.
‘I’ve seen it for a long time.’
It’s been 4 years.
As a student, it is no different from going to the same high school and going to college together.
I came this far by forming a team with six strangers my age. It is a rare experience.
However, I have an irrational thought that I could not have made a better team than this even if I had chosen with my own eyes with a status window.
It was a rare thing.
I laughed in my heart when I saw Kim Rae-bin with his pupils shaking.
‘It’s as you said.’
-Although we did not meet for the purpose of friendship, we believe that a true sense of solidarity can grow within it!
There is more to this than simply wanting to keep doing it as it is because of the good grades.
And the same goes for the cheering sticks shaking in front of them.
I gave a slight nod to the guys behind me, then turned to the front again.
People who support Testa.
And, as Testa’s Park Moon said, the one in front of me is me.
The conclusion that came out after going through all those situations is still that.
“….”
I can’t do this. Perhaps because of the words he heard in the world of images just before, his head struggles in his emotions.
‘It’s embarrassing.’
It was then.
All of a sudden, text popped up on the prompter.
-Please express your feelings quickly.
“…!”
yes feel.
I came to my senses. The fact that I had something to do right now raised my head to reality.
I was frozen for about 3 4 seconds. It’s already been a long time since I’ve been in the middle of a long time at the awards ceremony, but I’m going to have a good time.
‘Still, it’s the first target to receive fair grades, so I hope you understand.’
I chuckled and grabbed the mic.
“Did I procrastinate too much? sorry. I’m nervous.”
Small laughter erupts from the audience.
I don’t think it was a funny remark… I’m going to say that I accepted it well.
“When I look back at the moments I was active as a testa, it seems like it was a very long time, and it seems like I debuted just yesterday.”
I took a deep breath and spoke again.
“It was like that moment when I decided to become an idol.”
It is a journey that started because of an absurd threat of sudden death.
“Honestly, as an outsider, I wasn’t sure or expecting how far I could go. just…He said he could do it, so he appeared on the program.”
I wouldn’t have thought of doing it without the sudden death threat. but….
I remembered what I said to the big moon right before I came to my senses.
-I didn’t know that I wanted to be an idol, but I guess I did.
I could imagine in a very specific way the perspective of the person taking pictures of me from under this podium, avoiding security.
Because I’ve done it a lot.
And at that time, I did not bother to trace the cause of my satisfaction. Because I couldn’t imagine the sight of looking down directly from the stage beyond that point of view.
“But after meeting these members and meeting the fans, Testa came all the way here.”
But what if standing on the stage in person is more genuine and stimulating than watching the stage from the audience?
that…What I did with the data arm was exactly the vicarious satisfaction.
And if you think the fact that I succeeded in finding this real joy is actually thanks to my ‘infinite potential’, the taste of mulberry will grow… It is an illusion.
‘It’s a lot of money.’
Numerous variables came into play. And I wasn’t the only one who moved that variable.
Because idols are groups.
“Regardless of this award, I think I was really good at challenging myself as an idol at that time. …I am very happy.”
I didn’t know that such embarrassing words would come out of my mouth, but what if everyone didn’t understand it?
“I believe the members will too.”
I put my arm around Seon Ah-hyun, who was standing next to me.
“…!”
‘…Does he look frightened?’
I thought I would naturally take it over because the mood was burning, but I almost became embarrassed.
Still, I didn’t hate the complexion, so I looked around and said something.
“thank you.”
“….”
Then, a strange look as if they were crying began to spread on their faces, and naturally, something like a game ceremony began to happen.
Encouragement and sense of accomplishment for having worked hard.
‘oh my god.’
In the audience seats, the cheering rod shakes like crazy and cheers resonate.
I’ve embraced being one of seven professionals who hug each other.
And I was thinking of another one.
‘Did you go in well?’
I finished my last words between my arms, thinking of the guy I was probably watching on TV.
“Thank you so much for awarding me.”
It was a general thank you.
* * *
Fanfare burst out with the aim of quickly ending our speeches and asking for seats to be vacated, and we went backstage holding the trophy.
As soon as the award ceremony is over, our stage continues after a brief preparation time.
That’s probably what the first target placement was for.
I thought silently as I moved with the trophy still in my hand.
‘I must give up the next award ceremony unconditionally.’
It was because when reason came back, he realized that he had been overexcited.
‘I think it came out, but next time, I’ll have those who haven’t spoken about it prepare separately… .’
But I couldn’t keep counting. This is because an urgent question came before I even arrived at the place of change.
First of all, a big deal.
“Park Moon-dae, are you okay?”
“…?”
“You just almost fell. If you feel unwell, tell me. Let’s drop some painkillers and leave.”
That’s why you grabbed my shoulder. I understood his behavior.
‘I’ll start by grasping the situation to what extent.’
“Did I almost fall?”
“I thought I was about to collapse….”
Seon Ah-hyun muttered with a blue face. It seems to have staggered more than expected.
‘this.’
I’ll have to see if this excuse works. I sighed first and rubbed the back of my neck.
“sorry. Since it is the first target… . I can’t remember what to say and I think it’s because I’m nervous.”
“…You said it was because you were nervous?”
“you…?”
Why are these bastards so suspicious?
I answered as calmly as possible.
“sure.”
“Wait a minute.”
“Manager, give me a thermometer!”
Doubts rained down like bombs. I think you know roughly what my impression was during that time.
I raised both hands.
“I’m fine, that’s right. just…I really like it.”
I looked around at the faces of those guys who seemed to be a little shocked and smiled.
“Because it is the first target. I know how to be thrilled.”
“Park Moon-dae….”
The astonishment disappears and the warmth permeates. Everyone will have their first target song, so I thought this would work.
“…okay. Things like that happen, too.”
“It’s belatedly said, but I think it was a wonderful acceptance speech!”
good. All the weak-minded people have passed.
‘…Well, it wasn’t even a lie.’
It’s true that I felt good. I handed over the trophy to those who were intoxicated with the target atmosphere.
“Let’s fight next year too.”
“Ughhh!”
“Good!”
Ryu Cheng-wu seemed to be enjoying this atmosphere with a face that said he was pleased with the teamwork, and then ended his words gently.
“I’ll take your temperature anyway.”
“….”
do whatever you want.
I changed into a costume and was judged normal body temperature. It’s absurd, but it seems like I’ve overcome some kind of hurdle.
“13 minutes left~”
But at the same time, I realized the real problem.
‘Damn it.’
I rolled my head and finally stabbed Seon Ah-hyun.
“Ah Hyun-ah.”
“Ugh huh?”
and said quietly
“Can you quickly check the revised choreography this time….”
“Why can’t I suddenly remember the choreography at Moondaemundae?”
quick-witted kid.
“…After the testimony, the tension is relieved, so check it out.”
“Ah, that’s right.”
It’s not a lie.
‘I haven’t danced or sang for days, you bastard… .’
There is a year-end one-time revised choreography that I practiced for just one week right before Ryu Gun-woo entered the body, and I am going to use it now.
I’m breaking out in a cold sweat because I’m afraid I won’t be able to remember right now on stage.
“Anyway, check it out.”
“Yes! Let’s do it right away… !”
Fortunately, there was no time, so instead of other conversations, the choreography lesson started right away.
Once the two dance lines were attached, the angle was instantly established.
“I kick and turn here…Hit your toe with a pointer and go… .”
“Moondae was half a beat fast, be careful!”
“okay.”
“I know that choreography best. Brother, will you tell me!”
“Would you like to go get some drinks?”
So, with the help of the others, I completely relearned the choreography in 3 minutes.
It was comfortable to live alone, but the taste of being with many people was not bad.
* * *
This evening, the prestigious music awards ceremony is being broadcast for the first time at the end of this year.
-Park Moon-dae I think I almost collapsed.
-Kwanjong haha
-Isn’t the schedule too overworked? I think there are aftereffects of that accident. I need to be careful.
-Looks like they’re just thrilled, but look at them running like dogs.
Twin Homma, an office worker taking pictures of Lee Se-jin and Park Moon-dae, clicked his tongue as he watched the real-time comments that made his expectations for humanity disappear.
But this is a normal thing, and something else bothered her more.
‘I can’t believe he’s feeling that emotional.’
Park Moon-dae has handled everything rationally like a knife until now, but only this time, he acted as if he couldn’t stand the overwhelming feeling.
Before the acceptance speech, I couldn’t take my words off, staggered, looked back at the members, and the editorial was long… I did everything I wouldn’t normally do.
I don’t know if there is a story or if the object was so meaningful… .
‘It wasn’t bad.’
The twin hommage nodded, saying that he could understand why Lee Se-jin had to concede to Park Moon-dae.
Since Park Moon-dae has a calm image to the public, like a fourth dimension, shaking like this would come as a charm rather than annoyance.
It was no different from showing the public a scene with an effect similar to crying at a concert.
In fact, by the time Park Moon-dae’s testimony was over, the reaction to the comments had changed quite a bit.
-It’s kind of touching
-Park Moon-dae really looks like a puppy with Opusity.
What
‘s going on?
-You’re thrilled right? Dogs.
Besides, even the last act that seems to confirm the members’ affection for the team.
It seems that there was something about that series of flows that stimulated people’s heartstrings.
‘This kind of thing works well.’
A collection of reactions from a singer who won first place on music charts for the first time since his debut was not wandering on WeTube for nothing.
People like the fall of a star, but they also like the thrill of a star.
Testa’s emotion came raw to suit the taste of such people.
The twin homma nodded quite satisfied.
‘Good job.’
Park Moon-dae didn’t really calculate that, and he was expecting a very bad reaction.
In any case, contrary to his expectations, Testa’s impression of the grand prize was expected to be successfully discussed as a touching speech of the award.
Awards season was only just beginning.
And this season, Testa’s amount was going to be very large.
