299. Because they don’t ask about my happiness (9)
“Then I guess the 1st Corps did the same.”
“Ah, about that…”
The guys roll their eyes.
…Do you think they definitely hunted according to the rules? Considering that the corps members were looking haggard and making crying noises…
“…Do you have any other snacks?”
“Oh, how about this?”
Well, let’s not think about it.
It’s not important or has anything to do with me.
First of all, my goal today is to get a good rest. Deon was leaning heavily against a bundle of blankets while eating another snack that someone had offered him.
The break was short, as always.
The three hanging moons overlapped into one and night came. Deon, who had been staying at the Lofty Knights’ lodgings until then, had to wake up to the visit of a cute little night guest.
Lirinel was snooping nearby as if keeping an eye on me.
“Hello, Deon.”
“Okay, I see you again, Lirinel. I guess the hunting competition is over?”
“yes!”
“Which corps took first place this time?”
“That’s right…”
Lirinel’s expression, which had been opening her mouth with confidence, became dissatisfied. Deon chuckled.
“1st Corps this time?”
“Yes…”
Should I say that too? That’s amazing. I guess only the corps members died this time too.
Small conversations take place in a peaceful atmosphere. Lirinel, who was sullenly muttering that she wanted to win, touched her palms as if something occurred to her.
“Oh, by the way, there is also an unofficial winner!”
“?”
‘Winner’?
It means an individual, not an army. Besides, it’s unofficial…?
“Do you remember being a setter?”
“A doctor exclusively for the commander?”
“That’s right, that guy almost hunted monsters by himself.”
It was definitely covered in blood last time too.
Where does this kind of energy come from in a subject with dark shadows under his eyes?
“It’s surprising. This guy looks like he’s squirming from fatigue…”
“Well, durability and attack power are separate things, right? Deon-nim used to say the same thing.”
“….”
Let’s just say that.
I stood up without bothering to resolve the misunderstanding. His calm, calm eyes turned to Lirinel, as if the peaceful atmosphere was ending here.
“Do you have something to say to me?”
“yes.”
“Then let’s change seats.”
There’s no way Lirinel came here for no reason. Unless it’s a coincidence, Deon is the type of guy who shouts that he likes him, but doesn’t come to visit unless there’s something special out of fear of disturbing him.
Especially now, if you see me here with my subordinates, it must be because of ‘that incident’.
Just as I was about to move to my room, I heard an urgent voice from behind me.
“Leader…!”
“?”
Deon looked back at the mad dogs. The knights, facing each other with questioning eyes, smile awkwardly.
It seemed as if it wasn’t just one or two people singing, but several voices overlapped, so it couldn’t have been singing for no reason. Deon tilted his head.
“why?”
“No, it’s just…”
It felt like the captain was doing his best to run to his death. I felt a shiver run down my spine and called it out without realizing it. It was a reflexive action, like calling out to someone in crisis, so it is difficult to give a reason.
However, we can’t keep holding him without any evidence. The members of the Lofty Knights had no choice but to laugh and let him go.
“I called him Thorn out of caution.”
“Be careful of the stones, Captain.”
“Oh yeah…”
***
As soon as Lilinel arrived at Deon’s room, she carefully closed the doors and windows, just like last time. For a moment, Deon’s eyebrows narrowed slightly, but she didn’t notice because she was turning around.
After checking to see if the soundproofing spell was properly applied, Lirinel turns around and faces Deon. The man sitting on the bed faced her with his usual face, as if he had been waiting.
“….”
“…Lirinel?”
“ah.”
I almost got caught up in the moment. I quickly took my eyes off him and began speaking.
“I have come to understand the scale of female heroes.”
“okay?”
“It was more than you thought.”
Rather than exchanging questions and answers one by one through conversation, it would be easier to present organized documents and ask only the questions you have.
He quickly rummaged through his arms, took out a document, and held it out.
“There is also information about Jin’s main axis here. Please read it.”
“….”
Deon began reading the document in silence.
…The scale of the hero is definitely bigger than you think. Is it just a little less than the number of heroes from the last battle?
If you think about it conversely, the number of heroes that the other kingdoms except Rweche gathered together was slightly more than the number listed in this document, so you can get a vague idea of how diligently Rweche was conserving its strength.
‘Yes, like a king, he was planning for the future.’
At a time when the demon world did not touch Rweche, the king of Rweche seems to have clearly understood and remembered that his country was merely pushed back in the rankings of conquest and had not become completely safe, so he made efforts to increase its military power.
Anyone in charge of a country should look to the future and prepare for it rather than being complacent, so this is the right thing to do, but… ‘It might be a little
annoying.’
He lowered his gaze a little lower with a subtle expression. The information about Jin’s main axis that Lirinel mentioned came out.
“There is not just one main axle, but several. Based on when you enter the castle gate, there is a fountain in the central square with a brick in the bottom center of each even-numbered watchtower under the first brick on the bottom right…” Deon figured out the locations of a total of six main axes
. I looked at Lirinel with a confused face.
“…I didn’t think I’d find it.”
“The main axis? It’s definitely a top secret, so it’s hard to find.”
“It’s an important weakness, but security can’t be weak.”
But how did you find it?
Lirinel laughed as if she was ashamed of how she accepted the gaze, which was clearly bewildered and tired.
“I wouldn’t have been able to find it without the shaman’s cooperation.”
“…It’s amazing.”
The story about the main axis was just a rumor, but I finally found it.
It was also discovered by the demons with the cooperation of the shaman. Even if that wasn’t the case, how much effort must have been put into finding the small number of shamans and getting their cooperation.
It was an additional mission with the condition that it could be done if you could afford it. Since there were so many other things to do, even if I said ‘I couldn’t do it’ without even trying, I would have gotten away with it without being reprimanded.
‘It’s terrible.’
I told the devil it was a secret, so he kept it a secret and did everything he was told to do. He said that even if Deon Hardt tried to kill him, he would still like him.
The blindness in the shining eyes that look at me is so severe that it takes my breath away.
“Lirinel.”
Deonhardt, who lost Dan, was able to make a decision that he had been putting off because of his carelessness.
“How far can you go for me?”
Lirinel, who was looking at him blankly at the unusual question, smiled brightly.
“It’s whatever Deon wants.”
“Then…”
He stretched out his hand.
A pale white hand cups one of Lirinel’s cheeks. Deon’s face distorted as his innocent eyes met his gaze.
“…Then…”
I have to make full use of this useful face and smile for the next words, but my lips just tremble and I can’t smile.
In the end, Deon spoke with a face that even he couldn’t tell what expression he was making.
“Can you die?”
The affection for me actually hurts me and strangles me.
This was the case with Cruel, this was the case with monsters, and the same was true with Dan. In particular, in Dan’s case, even though he was wary of it, he eventually accepted it without realizing it and this sad month occurred.
‘Wouldn’t it be better to eliminate risk factors in advance before the same thing happens again?’
Because the corps commander has to die anyway. therefore.
I hope you don’t show blindness to me.
‘If something similar happens again, I really won’t be able to endure it.’
If the victim of a ‘similar incident’ becomes the Knights of Lofty, I too will end up letting go of everything, but if that victim is you.
I will do terrible things to the crazy dogs who came here just to see me. You’ll drive a nail into their hearts.
‘They’re the only ones I’m responsible for.’
I’m overwhelmed by the crazy dogs alone. So, I hope you will antagonize me with this statement. Rather, it would be good for both sides.
However, the voice that came back was clear, without a trace of resentment or anger.
“…Before I answer, there is something I would like to ask Deon.”
Lirinel made eye contact with the man who was looking at me with a bewildered expression and calmly opened his mouth.
Although his remarks were certainly perplexing, I didn’t have any particularly negative feelings. How can you get angry when the person speaking has a face that looks like they are suffocating to death?
“What do you think love is, Deon?”
It was a somewhat unexpected question, but Deon thought about it seriously without showing it. It was also funny to urge a response from someone who said something like that.
…Actually, I didn’t even want to hear it.
Anyway, since it is love, it may vary depending on the object and type of love, but I know one thing.
“Not questioning my own happiness for the sake of others.”
Love is only for the other person and does not take one’s own happiness into consideration.
That’s why my brother died.
“It’s easy to use the excuse that it’s because I love you, but it’s not difficult to distinguish. If the actions of someone who says they love someone are mixed with greed for themselves, it’s fake.”
“…I see. Then.”
Lirinel laughed. A light, faint smile that seemed to scatter even in the breeze turned towards Deonhardt.
“Would Deon be happy if I died?”
For a moment, Deon stopped breathing. The lips, which opened and closed several times as if receiving an unexpected attack, soon spat out an answer with difficulty.
“…okay.”
“Then I will die for you.”
“….”
“Because I want Deon to be happy.”
Be happy.
Lirinel smiled sincerely. Even though he looked like a child, he had an extremely gentle smile, as if to prove that he was a long-lived demon.
‘Because I’ve seen too many times of tired and difficult Deon.’
Now I want to see a happy Deon.
Oh, I won’t be happy until I die, so I can’t see it in person. However, these feelings are not for Deon, but my personal greed, so I will put them aside and die.
Because my greed should not enter into my noble love for God.
‘It was hard to watch Deon pushing himself like he was going crazy, but it worked out well.’
Even though I can’t see it in person because I’m dead, if it makes me happy, I’ll be satisfied with that.
I didn’t bother to ask about the correlation between my death and happiness. Lirinel asked something else.
“When and how should I die?”
“…why.”
Even though he said it himself, his eyes twitch slightly as if he is having a hard time accepting the result. Despite his efforts to suppress his agitation, the tremors gradually spread and even affected his fingertips, but Deon simply fixed his eyes on Ririnel.
Lirinel looked at his eyes and fingertips alternately with an anxious gaze, and even though she was fidgeting, she gave an answer steadfastly.
“I told you. I hope you are happy.”
“….”
“Now that I think about it, I have never seen you smile sincerely.”
If you smile sincerely, you will be truly ecstatically beautiful.
“…Ha.”
Deon She let out a sigh-like laugh and wiped her face. It was part resignation, part mockery towards me, and at first glance, a mixture of absurdity.
“ Who is a demon and who is a human?”
The answer was extremely pure.
