[Episode 176]
‘How can I say…’
It’s a strange feeling.
I had a dream and spent a week in a daze, but it still didn’t come true.
I locked myself in my room for a week and suffered from all sorts of worries. From the answer to Lucillion’s words to the downfall of the former family.
I thought revenge would simply be refreshing and cool, but as time goes on, there is a subtle bitterness.
Oh, it’s not at all that I sympathize with my former family.
Even if Lucillion used a hand… Chai Do and Chai Hyun were the ones who would have an accident someday in the first place.
‘Father was a bit shocked.’
I thought that a person who was so noble and benevolent when cornered would show a filthy bottom when he loses everything.
Will the mother live in hiding for the rest of her life?
“Lucilion….”
Did he take care of all of this?
Did I stay there for a while after I died? Or did I have a lot of things in mind assuming the time of my death?
“It’s unexpected…”
Lucillion only knew that there was a line invisible to others, and while acting casually, he prevented people from entering the line.
A person who doesn’t get involved in someone’s life as long as there is no direct harm to me.
However, if you ask for help, he will definitely help you, but he is a person who is quite friendly, but there is a line that should not be crossed.
I thought so.
“I’m going to give my dad a final report soon.”
I couldn’t even tell my dad about it.
‘Because I have to go to the temple to answer Lucillion today.’
I’m still not sure about anything though.
I idled around in bed for a while, watching the time, and headed to the office just in time for Dad to finish breakfast and go to work.
“Eirin?”
“dad.”
“I’ve been resting in my room for the past few days, so what are you doing here from this morning?”
“I just… have something to report and something to discuss.”
My father narrowed his eyes and sighed briefly as he opened the office door.
“Come in.”
“huh.”
“It’s early, but would you like a cup of tea?”
“yes.”
I was sitting on the sofa in the office and slowly stamping my feet when my dad entered the bathroom.
“dad?”
“why?”
“Dad will you take care of us?”
“Yes, I used to do that to your mother often. It’s not that bad.”
“No, that’s not it…”
I just couldn’t believe it.
Dad didn’t have the image of brewing something himself.
Contrary to my thoughts, my dad brought the tea to me quite skillfully.
I looked at my dad sitting across from me, grabbed the teacup with both hands, touched it lightly, and smiled.
“I was very scared when I first saw my father.”
“…was it?”
“I felt like I was standing in front of a huge beast.”
Dad tilted the teacup with an embarrassed face. Even my father, who seemed sharp-edged in the past, has softened a lot now.
“Yes, Dad. They say everything is resolved.”
“solve?”
“Even the stars and my old family in the other world…all of them were punished for their sins.”
Dad’s hand, which was tilting the teacup at my words, stopped. Dad quickly finished the teacup without hesitation.
“Good thing. If not, I was going to do it.”
“yes?”
“I was thinking of making a deal with God or something.”
My dad said a lot of things casually. I blinked my eyes in bewilderment, and Dad smiled lightly.
“Did that god help you?”
“No, Lucillion…”
Crispy—
the handle of the teacup cracked. When I quickly shut my mouth, Dad quickly put the teacup down.
“You say they can’t be undone? I’ll take care of it.”
“yes?”
What kind of nonsense are you talking about?
Dad seemed to realize that my words were far-fetched, so he became quiet for a moment and sighed.
“Okay, this is what you see, and what is counseling?”
“Why did Dad think of marrying Mom? I’m sure… There was something like that? It’s like you’re going to be with me for the rest of your life…”
“…”
Dad got up quietly. My dad, holding a sword standing in the corner of the office, flashed his eyes.
“Isn’t that the substitute? Daddy won’t kill me.”
“That’s not it…! No, that’s right, but…”
My father crossed his arms and looked down at me, then sighed and sat down on the sofa again.
“It wasn’t that there was a certain amount of confidence or a trigger. Just the parts of me that I couldn’t get enough of… the ugly and weak parts…”
My father crossed his arms and licked his lips slowly.
“I thought that the only person who could show me that kind of side would be your mother for the rest of my life. That’s all.”
Dad answered briefly.
I thought that when I fell in love, lightning strikes in my head.
I thought it was a bolt of lightning striking me in my head telling me that this was love.
“Will Daddy be lonely when I get married?”
“It must be lonely.”
“Dad, don’t you want me to get married? Then I… As long as I can be with Dad…”
Dad, who had been listening quietly, jumped up from his seat.
Then he strode over on his long legs, sat down next to me, and pressed my head with his big hand.
“Eirin.”
“yes.”
“It is natural for children to leave the arms of their parents. If you decide, I will respect your opinion, even if it means cutting off a limb from it.”
Isn’t it just a lack of respect for the limb cutting?
When I pouted my lips, Dad giggled mischievously. Just like my dad one day when I was little.
“I don’t want to leave Daddy’s arms.”
“I will leave someday. There will be more precious things than me.”
“…If there is a way to live forever, if there is such a way…”
Since I’m a dragon, if I find a way somehow…
“Will Daddy live with me?”
“…”
Dad’s pupils widened wide, then slowly narrowed back to their original position.
“no.”
Dad’s sweet voice fell. It was a warm voice that contradicted the answer. Dad’s large hand gently brushed his cheek.
Dad opened his arms and hugged me tightly.
“I will do my best for you as long as I live, and when the time comes, I will go to see your mother when I die.”
“….”
“The reciprocation of immature days is also piled up with words I couldn’t say back then. You all told me.”
Dad said.
“As much as I love you, I love your mother too. And I don’t want to be a burden to you.”
“But…”
“Eirin isn’t weak enough for me to protect anymore.”
Contrary to the friendly voice, the contents were not so friendly. I know I’m swarming.
I know that this period will not last forever and that the end is coming.
“I…”
I don’t want to be left alone.
However, that foolishness is now a childishness that cannot be manipulated by his father. Dad made a decision a long time ago.
I lowered my head weakly and nodded.
“I’m sorry to bother you.”
“And I think Eirin, although I was against it, you already made up your mind.”
Dad said.
“In the end, you have to create a family that will be with you for the rest of your life.”
Dad is sweet. Everything Dad said was right. But at the same time it was brutal.
It was because I realized that my father was already making plans for the deaths of people around me, whom I had vaguely thought about.
“It’s obviously sad that you’re leaving my arms, but…”
Dad carefully took me out of his arms.
“If you are convinced, Eirin, I will not stop you.”
“…dad.”
“But it can be a bit annoying.”
“Dad…”
“I heard that he is going to snatch away my well-raised child, but please be a bit grumpy. But I admit that the High Priestess helped you a lot.”
Dad said with a very unwilling expression. Dad tapped me lightly on the shoulder.
“Go and see.”
“…dad?”
“Is it an important day?”
“…Because I decided to answer yes.”
Dad nodded.
“Come on, baby.”
Dad’s lips landed lightly on my forehead and then came off.
“My lovely daughter. No matter what you choose, no matter what life you live, I will love you.”
At Dad’s reassuring words, I slowly got up from my seat. I left the office with a hand pushing on my back.
* * *
Watching Eirin walk away, Erno Etam’s mouth twisted.
“I really don’t know when the kid grew up like that. dahlia. It would be nice if you could see it too.”
It was a poisonous cigarette day.
Erno Etam lightly scratched the corners of his mouth with his fingertips and stood up.
The feeling of seeing my daughter becoming an adult in an instant and escaping from my arms was very sad and aroused a strange feeling as if something had been opened.
After sitting on the sofa for a while, Erno Etam got up and sat down at his desk.
Crunching—
soon, only the sound of paperwork being processed echoed emptyly in the spacious office.
* * *
Close your eyes and imagine.
The dragon’s magic used to gain power just by thinking about it.
‘I miss Lucillion.’
I was able to stand in front of him just by thinking and wishing like that.
Lucillion was in the white, empty room. The image of Lucillion sitting on a chair and staring blankly out the window.
No matter how you look at it, it wasn’t like going on a business trip. Wouldn’t it be strange if you were locked in a room for a week and spent like a disabled person?
“Lucillion.”
“…Eirin?”
“You said you were on a business trip…”
When I made a voice, Lucillion looked at me and smiled. It was the same smile as always.
“If I didn’t say that, I felt like I was going to push Eirin. Are your thoughts organized?”
“huh.”
Lucillion, who was looking out the window, got up and turned around. Lucillion, facing me with a couple of steps in between, looked at me quietly.
Like a sinner awaiting judgment.
“I honestly can’t be the first.”
“Is that so, I knew about it, but… I can’t. As expected, I will shave my head and convert to a new religion, aiming for a hundred years later…”
“Sleep!”
As I watched Lucillion take out the scissors with a clean mind, I hurriedly screamed.
“Listen to what people say!”
“yes.”
He meekly put down the scissors.
“Limited to a maximum of 100 years.”
“….”
“Then you can be… the first.”
Lucillion’s eyes widened at my words. There was a wave of disbelief in his blue eyes. “I’m selfish, I get tired of it quickly, I have a weak mind, and I don’t know if I’ll get tired of it for a long time, I’ll bother you, I’ll get involved in troublesome things, I want to have a baby, but I don’t want to be
sick …”
As I spit it out, I kept thinking about it.
“yes.”
“Maybe I can’t trust you properly for the rest of my life and doubt when you’ll leave…”
“You said you’d give me your heart.”
“If I have the confidence to handle it…”
If there was someone who would stay by my side without going crazy for the rest of my life, if there really was such a person, if there was someone who would tell me about love, I hoped it would be Lucillion.
“Let’s get married.”
At my words, Lucillion took a deep breath.
“i like you. Love is… I don’t know because I’m still young. I like you. I don’t know if it’s a friend or a member of the opposite sex, but for the rest of my life… Oh.”
Before I could finish my words, Lucillion took me in his arms, picked me up, and spun around in place.
“Lou Lu Lu?”
“Okay. I will only look at Eirin for the rest of my life. I will protect Eirin and stay by her side.”
“…huh.”
Lucillion’s bright smile was full of sincerity that I’ve never seen before, and it was a smile that was so relaxed that it was so funny that I couldn’t help but laugh.
“Even if I am not the only one to you, you are the only one to me. A small sympathy for a piece of bread that would not have been a big deal to you was my salvation.”
“huh.”
“I love you Erin.”
With the whispering voice, Lucillion’s face approached at an angle. I slowly closed my eyes.
Then his lips met mine.
We made a relationship on this day. It was a new relationship named ‘lover’ that would last for a very long time.
[End of the main story]
― It continues with the epilogue.
