[Episode 174]
For the past two years, Lucillion has been visiting my house every single day.
If you needed anything, you got it at once, and you were always by your side when you were in trouble.
“Lucilion, I… I don’t have the confidence to love someone for the rest of my life.”
I wanted to make a family with someone and live a normal life. There was a time when that was the goal.
But is that possible?
I am a dragon and Lucillion is an ordinary human.
Is it possible that I have the same heart for one person for such a long time?
Conversely, can Lucillion keep the same mind as me for that long?
‘Why, in novels, dragons are said to be capricious creatures…’
Besides… I’m not sure how I’ll change as time passes.
“It’s okay, because I will love you.”
“I… can’t even trust your heart.”
No matter how firm my heart is, the time I will live will be a very long time when people’s hearts can be broken.
“If you feel that I have changed my mind, then you can kill me.”
Makes scary noises casually. As I looked at him in bewilderment, Lucillion laughed sarcastically.
“Because that won’t happen.”
“How can you be so sure?”
“You…”
Lucillion’s lips moved slowly.
“From the moment you brought me out of my destiny, my heart was fixed.”
Lucillion said firmly.
“The bread you gave me when you met me is the most delicious food I have.”
I stared blankly and lowered my head.
“I like you, I don’t want to leave you alone. So, until the day your life ends… I will be by your side.”
Do you know how long it will take to say such a thing?
Even I’m afraid because I can’t measure it.
“It will be a very, very long time?”
“huh.”
“In the meantime, I might hate you, or you might hate me, or you might end up regretting it.”
“Nothing like that.”
I bit my lip at Lucillion’s resoluteness.
“You can live a normal life. One day, you might find someone you fall in love with… You may live and die only as much as your destiny.”
“…”
“Because Lucillion is a very great person…”
Lucillion laughed lightly.
Lucillion lowered his eyelids slightly and opened his mouth with a short breath.
“It’s okay to make an oath, and it’s okay to use bondage. If Eirin can’t trust me, I’ll give you my heart.”
“…you.”
“So, I want Eirin to trust me first.”
Then, the ring of light that had been shining on the back of my hand disappeared. Lucillion slowly rose from his seat.
“Eirin, I have work for a week starting tomorrow, so I’m going to a faraway place.”
“…faraway?”
“So, please tell me the answer then. in a week.”
“…”
Lucillion took a step back. I knew it was his consideration, but my heart skipped a beat.
This is the first time Lucillion has withdrawn from me.
‘Come to think of it…’
The last two years have been particularly close to each other. It was to the point where it was doubtful whether the High Priestess was doing her job properly.
“What if I refuse?”
“…umm.”
Lucillion tilted her head slightly with a slightly embarrassed expression at my words.
Then, he opened his mouth and smiled lightly.
“I don’t know because I never thought about it until then. I heard that there is a new religion in the east where you go in with all your hair shaved, but I wonder if I should go there.”
“what?”
“Listening to rumors, it is said that it is a mysterious religion that cuts ties with the world and locks itself in the mountains.”
I pursed my lips, then suddenly imagined Lucillion’s bald head, and shook my head trembling.
“If you go in there, they will force you to enter the cave and train them, so they say they won’t let you go out into the world for a while…” “…”
“
So maybe we can stop bothering Eirin for a while.”
Lucillion lowered her eyes slightly and murmured plaintively with a melancholy gaze.
I was speechless at the sight of overflowing sorrowful beauty. Seeing me like that, Lucillion laughed.
“If I really hate Eirin, I will. Until everyone around Eirin dies and Eirin becomes lonely.”
“…what?”
“And later, it will appear again in front of Eirin, who is lonely. To aim for Eirin’s weakness.”
When I opened my eyes wide at the unexpected words, Lucillion was looking straight at me.
“Until one day Eirin accepts me.”
Lucillion wasn’t smiling as always. The hardened expression on his face was somewhat unfamiliar.
“I don’t know what Eirin thinks of me…”
Lucillion clenched her fists lightly and pursed her lips.
“To the extent that I think of this, I am a worse person than Eirin thinks.”
“…”
“To the extent that I waited for Eirin’s wound to open and then aimed for that gap.”
“Lucilion…”
“I came to serve a god because I had to be a good kid in the temple to not starve to death, and always smiling and pretending to be good are all because it’s convenient.”
Lucillion’s deep blue eyes looked particularly blue today. Somehow, for the first time in my life, I felt like I was facing Lucillion properly.
“I tried to be friendly in front of Eirin, but I wasn’t very trustworthy because I was friendly.”
“No…”
“I can kill people casually. Anything that could pose a threat to Eirin.”
“…”
Lucillion suddenly stopped talking, looked at me, and kept his mouth shut.
“I’m sorry, but I… just wanted to say that just because you’re always smiling doesn’t mean your heart is light.”
Lucillion smiled as always. It looked like a slightly clumsy smile today.
“I’ll come back in a week. Eirin.”
Lucillion slowly turned around.
“I!”
Right before Lucillion opened the terrace door and left, I tightened my stomach and opened my mouth with all my might.
Lucillion paused and turned around.
“This time… I’ll go find you.”
“…Eirin?”
“Because Lucillion always visits. As long as you give me an answer, I’ll go find you.”
Lucillion’s eyes widened slightly, then slowly narrowed. A faint smile was drawn on his lips.
“Yes, I will be waiting for you.”
“Okay, I’ll think about it properly and answer.”
“yes.”
“that…!”
Watching Lucillion’s expression brighten and smile brightly, my heart felt strange. I’ve known he’s handsome since before, but it’s strange.
“Even if you don’t know where you’re going, go carefully.”
“I’m coming.”
Lucillion quickly left the terrace.
It was only after he was out of sight that I sighed and leaned against the railing, sliding down to my knees.
“Something is really gross.”
I didn’t know Lucillion, who was always so soft, would say such a thing.
‘What is love…’
Is it possible to make a relationship and become a family for life?
‘forever…?’
Could that be possible?
“Eirin?”
I sat down leaning against the railing for a while, but when I raised my head at the voice I heard, my dad came into the terrace and approached me.
“what’s the matter? What happened? I think I have a fever, so let’s go home…”
“Dad.”
“Yes baby. Also, what kind of thing is that…”
“I was proposed to.”
Clink!
The wine glass in Dad’s hand shattered and the wine soaked the floor like red blood.
“Dad kill me and come back.”
“Oh no, that’s not it…!”
Dad quickly turned around.
I hurriedly clung to my father’s arm.
“Daddy…!”
It was no secret that it took a long time to stop the runaway father.
* * *
“Haa…”
After the banquet, when I returned to my room and lay down on the bed, a white light welled up in the air.
Suddenly, I remembered the ring of light that looked like a ring that circled the back of my hand, and my shoulders trembled.
When I jumped up from my seat, an innocent face popped out of the light.
“Hi baby.”
“Ah… Lord Arma.”
“What. That disappointed face! I came to give you a present, but that’s too much!”
“A present…?”
I blinked and Arma laughed heartily.
“Didn’t I say that I caught and killed the starkeeper in the past?”
“Yes… it was.”
“And before, I said I would give you a present.”
“Ah….”
Was it an extension of Lucillion’s previous interference with Cha Smile’s world at a cost?
“Today you will dream.”
“If it’s a dream…”
“It’s probably the happiest dream you’ve ever had. Congratulations on your safe settlement, baby.”
A white halo of light slowly embraced my body. It was a very warm glow.
“So this is my birthday present.”
At the same time, unbearable drowsiness poured in. It was an instant that the vision was blacked out.
