[Episode 135]
“…What happened all of a sudden at night. you.”
“… and father. Aren’t the attitudes towards daughters and sons too different?”
“Is there any reason why it should be the same?”
Dad said, looking at Callan and Cillian, who came to the room carrying pillows one by one with me in their arms.
“I didn’t come to find my father, I came to find my brother.”
“That’s right, I want to sleep with Eirin.”
“…Eirin was supposed to sleep with me today.”
Dad frowned and looked down at me.
The bed was very wide, so four people could sleep without any problems. I smirked and clung to my father’s arms a little longer.
“I want to sleep with you all.”
“…I guess I’m not enough.”
no that’s not it
why are you pissed off with this
“I’m going to sleep for a long time again, but I should stay with you even now.”
“That’s right, Eirin is lonely because she always sleeps for a long time.”
“that’s right. Absolutely not all of them came because my father seems gloomy these days.”
No, that ignorant Callan.
Who said that out of their mouth? I knew from before that I couldn’t be afraid to lie, but…
‘This is serious, really.’
Silian was also looking at Callan with an expression of what a stupid thing to do.
good job good job!
Belatedly, Callan glanced at Silian and frowned.
It seemed that he still didn’t know what was wrong with him.
‘How am I going to have a social life like that?’
I shook my head and glanced up at my father. The corners of Dad’s mouth curled very slightly.
My eyes went round.
‘Anyway, even Dad can’t be honest.’
Dark shadows under her eyes appeared as if she hadn’t slept well the past few days.
“The seat next to my daughter is mine.”
Dad hugged me without saying anything and laid me down on the bed.
Callan and Cillian looked at each other and quickly rushed to the seat next to me.
“Ahh!”
“When are you going to catch up with me on your slow feet?”
“I’m going to use evil magic!”
The winner was Silian, who was training as usual. Dad on the right, Silian on the left.
Callan, hugging the pillow, stomped her feet in anger, then raised her eyes fiercely and kicked Silian in the back.
“It hurts.”
“Then didn’t you think I hit you for tickling you?”
Callan gave a very curt answer and licked her lips and lay down next to her father.
“I can’t do it, so I’m going to lie down.”
Adding an excuse to the end, Callan took the seat next to Dad. I hugged my dad and smiled.
‘Anyway, I can’t be honest.’
Dad was also making a very absurd face, but it wasn’t that he didn’t hate it.
‘It’s fortunate that Dad isn’t the only one.’
I thought that I was fortunate to have Callan and Cillian.
I knew better than anyone how depressing the pain of being left alone is.
Because it’s lonely and lonely
I burrowed into my father’s arms a little more and held his hand tightly.
“I think the four of us are good after all.”
“…huh?”
I widened my eyes at Silian’s sudden words. A hand that came up tightly gripped my hand.
“My family thinks it would be nice for the four of us to get together.”
I slightly turned and looked at Silian. He was smiling at me.
“I don’t know what kind of burden he carries on his own, but…”
“Brother…”
“It’s a bit sad that he doesn’t share it with us, but…”
Silian squeezed my hand tightly into his hand. gave and smiled.
It bothered me that it was a laugh that somehow contained something very tightly.
“I’ll wait anyway. So have a good trip and tell me someday.”
“…huh.”
I thought maybe everyone knew I wasn’t really going to sleep.
But even so, I decided to hide it, so no one is asking properly.
That’s why I respect my choice with all my body.
“Thank you…”
I mumbled in response, and Silian lightly tousled my hair.
“Ah Sillian, only you have a good role again.”
Callan said curtly, sticking her face over her father’s back.
“Because I’m waiting too!”
“…huh.”
“If you don’t come back safely, I will definitely use magic to chase you.”
“Uh, I get it….”
“Sometimes it’s a bit small… Be willing. Even if you go, I am your brother.”
Kalan muttered, hiding behind her father’s back, her expression flushed red.
I giggled, and Callan gave out a groan and lay down on his back.
“Oh, I don’t know! Good night!”
“Yes, brother too.”
“OK! Good…”
Kalan’s voice became muffled.
“what?”
“I don’t know how long you sleep, but have a nice dream!”
“…!”
“you…! Even if you take all the good dreams I have, I want you to have good dreams.”
It was a pure word, but it was also a word that melted a person’s heart properly.
Even if you take all the good dreams you have, you want me to have good dreams…
“Yes. I will.”
“…okay. Stop crying.”
“Don’t cry… now you don’t have to cry. I have a family too.”
There was no reason to cry.
There are so many people who promise to wait, so why would I cry?
“I’m not going to cry… Black.”
It couldn’t be helped that the mumbled voice was mixed with crying.
I bit my lip hard to keep from crying, but that was all. My eyes blurred for no reason, and my emotions soared.
“Ooh, don’t cry… I told you huh…!!”
“Even my older brother like that… Sigh… Huh… I don’t know…!”
“Heeep….”
“Cillian, why are you crying?… Hehehe…!”
In the end, the three children burst into tears and rushed into their father’s arms, leaning on the headboard of the bed.
“…I’ve got crybabies.”
The father opened his arms, hugged the three children, including me, and patted them and muttered softly.
Dad didn’t stop patting us until we all stopped crying.
It was like seeing my father’s smiling expression before falling asleep exhausted from crying.
It was a sincere smile that you don’t usually see easily.
It was a smile that seemed like it could only be seen in a dream.
“I’ve never had three carp as children.”
We were enraged at the words of Dad, who laughed at us after falling asleep exhausted from crying and waking up in the morning.
…Maybe that smile was really just my dream.
‘Still, it’s okay because Dad’s expression looks good.’
I couldn’t see the tiredness on my father’s face, probably because he slept well last night.
“Come down and eat, crucian carp.”
“…Who is the crucian carp! This is just…”
“It’s a crucian carp. Crybaby crucians.”
Callan stomped her feet, muttering dissatisfiedly as she crept to the table.
For some reason, the breakfast served in Dad’s room was much better than usual.
* * *
“Good night, master.”
“…Lucy.”
It was the night before the end of the week.
The breezy night ended by saying hello to Phil, hugging Charnett, saying goodbye while bursting into tears, and asking Terem for Charnett.
I was about to lie down on the bed, but I felt a presence on the balcony, and as I approached, Lucillion was sitting leaning against the railing under the moonlight.
“Did you have a good week?”
“Yeah, I couldn’t find you, but I’m sorry about that…”
I didn’t bother to visit Lucillion on the last day, thinking that I would be able to see him.
“It’s okay, Master, you have a lot of people to take care of.”
“But…”
“Besides, it’s okay because I can share the last days of my former master.”
Lucillion, who jumped lightly, approached and smiled.
Lucillion bathed in the moonlight really had a mysterious feeling like a god descending from the sky.
‘It’s been like that since the first time we met.’
Lucillion was a very strange boy somewhere.
I don’t know what I’m thinking, and I feel like I’m not particularly mixed in the world.
“I heard you help me.”
“Yes, I will use my divine power to guide my master so that he can grow up and return safely.”
“The guide….”
“I will help the master not to get lost, and I will help the master not to break his heart.”
“…huh.”
The beautiful blue eyes that did not seem to be human were slightly bent.
“So, promise me.”
“what?”
“I will come back no matter what.”
“…will come back.”
Lucillion lightly kissed the back of my hand.
“Yes, I will wait.”
That day, Lucillion sat next to me silently holding my hand for quite some time.
And the next day I stepped into hell again.
