[Episode 116]
“….”
At my call, Dad, unlike usual, looked at me with his forehead narrowed and distanced.
I suddenly realized that I wasn’t Eirin. Dad couldn’t know me.
In the white, modern world of the hospital room, the uniformed father was very foreign.
‘Isn’t this a dream?’
I thought it was a dream.
‘Or is this even a dream?’
What happened? I stood blankly with my wrists held by my grandmother.
“Now, who are you!”
Grandma was startled and opened her mouth. Dad glanced at Grandma.
As if appraising an inanimate object, he glanced at my family standing around, then turned his gaze back to me.
The staring gaze seemed to be searching for something.
‘I must have looked like a crazy person.’
It’s the first time I met him, and he shouted that he was my father. Even thinking about it, I was a little embarrassed and dumbfounded.
I had no idea what I was like. Feeling pathetic, he reached out and rubbed his cheek a few times before lowering his head.
‘It looks like he got caught up in it because of me, but I can’t just leave him alone.’
It was clear that this happened again because I thought I missed my dad.
Just like when Lucillion suddenly appeared out of thin air before.
“Grandma, didn’t that person suddenly appear…?”
Chaido said. Then, the second younger brother, Chai-hyeon, who was beside him, nodded.
“Suddenly from the ceiling… are you filming a movie or something?”
“If you find the wrong room for filming or whatever, get out of here!”
Dad’s eyebrows twitched at Grandma’s remarks. Dad opened his mouth as I lowered my head.
“Eirin.”
My shoulders trembled at the familiar voice. I kept my mouth shut and slowly raised my head.
To be honest, I didn’t have any resemblance to Eirin.
Fifteen years older than Eirin, and not as cute as Eirin. It wasn’t lovely, it wasn’t a dragon, and it didn’t have much power either.
I was a human without anything special.
So even if Dad is displeased, there’s nothing you can do about it.
Even if he didn’t know me, he didn’t have a heart to resent me.
It’s
just a little bit .
“Daughter.”
“…”
As soon as I finished thinking, Dad called me as if he had been waiting.
His face contorted at the call. did you call me Should I answer? I doubted if I could really call him Daddy in this form.
“Right?”
“You must have a crazy head somewhere.”
The father, who was standing still behind him, looked at him and frowned.
I couldn’t help but laugh when I saw my father stepping out and blocking my way.
“Dad…”
I pushed my father away, pulled my grandmother’s hand away, and approached my father.
“Cha Miso, come here!”
My father raised his voice at my sudden action.
Everyone in the family stood still as if they didn’t understand the situation.
“Does this have anything to do with the previous life story you talked about?”
“…yes.”
“Is it a previous life, what the hell…”
It was when my father grabbed my shoulder and tried to pull me by force.
Dad reached out and squeezed his wrist tightly. The father’s face contorted in pain.
Wood deuk –
A moan flowed through my father’s teeth with the sound of bones breaking.
“Son!!”
Grandma ran over and looked at my father’s hand, then I pressed the nurse call with a more painful look on my face.
Dad slowly let go of his hand.
“This crazy! I know how to sue! now where where!! How dare you know who my son is!”
Grandma stuttered, apparently angry. I thought maybe he was afraid of my father.
“If you hold on just a little harder, you’ll die soon.”
Dad answered calmly with an expression that was quite unexpected.
“This otaku-looking crazy bastard!”
Chaido clenched her fists and pounced on her father.
Dad gave a short sigh and lightly slammed Chaido to the floor with one arm.
“Ah! Mr. X!”
“Ido!”
Mother ran to Chaido and hurriedly got down on her knees to examine his condition.
Grandmother was busy rolling her feet. Laughter leaked out as I watched them screaming, asking why the guards weren’t coming.
Dad, who lightly threw Chaido to the floor as if laughing, lightly shook his hands.
“Oh my dog!”
Grandma distorted her face and didn’t know what to do.
“Four years! Geji bought by four years! Where are you going to bring that crazy lamb’s pup to kill my father and brothers!”
“…”
“You look like an ungrateful girl that even my parents don’t recognize!”
“Hey old man.”
Dad strode in front of Grandma, slightly lowered his upper body, and curled up his lips.
“I’m not the type to keep matters in my hands just because I’m an old man.”
Dad turned to me.
“Daughter, is this your family that binds you?”
“…”
My eyes widened at Dad’s words.
it’s a family
Could these people ever be family to me?
“I’m sorry for your daughter, but you can see the level.”
I opened my eyes wide at my father’s words and smiled slightly. My mother, who was looking at the difference between my smiles, opened her eyes wide.
I shook my head slowly.
“No, I am not a family of these people.”
Come to think of it, we never had a family.
“I was just…”
In these people…
“I was nothing.”
Just such a person
with no meaning or existence .
An existence that doesn’t matter whether you exist or not.
“Dad, I…”
It was the moment when he licked his lips.
Feeling as if something was bursting from the inside, I coughed and lowered my head, spitting up clots of blood.
“uh…?”
“Eirin.”
My body staggered and fell forward. Dad quickly reached out and held me tightly in his arms.
“Who are you to call my daughter your own and give it a strange name!”
Father jumped up from his seat. Even though I was sweating cold, whether my wrist was cracked or broken.
“Your daughter?”
Dad laughed at Dad.
“This child is my daughter.”
“What a strange sound…”
“The subject of forcibly holding on to a relationship that should have been cut off in the first place…”
Father frowned at his words. The hardened expression was the one I had always feared.
“What reason do I need to call my daughter my daughter?”
“Have you ever run away from a mental hospital? Smile is my daughter, not yours!”
At my father’s words, I just burst into laughter.
Even though I vomited blood, I didn’t feel particularly afraid, perhaps because my father was by my side.
“Since when did I…”
I raised my head, clenching my bloody palm tightly. It felt like crying.
“Since when have I been a father’s daughter? If it offends you, hit it, yell at it, and ignore it.”
“Cha smile.”
“When they eat good things, good clothes, and good food, I always give them the leftovers from what they used or cheap clothes.”
Things that had been suppressed in resentment came out of his mouth one by one.
It was always patient.
It was something I always swallowed.
I was young and not in the condition to be independent, so I tried desperately to please in order to somehow stick together.
Isn’t that the case, parents and home are everything in the world for a child?
However, it was unfair to think that everything surrounding my world was rotten to an irrational level.
He said that someone who has received love knows it. I also realized that now.
“It’s not a waste of money to spend on them who have everything they want every month, and you didn’t waste the money you spent on me. What did Mom say to me when I asked for some pocket money to buy a pair of running out shoes? He said he didn’t know how much money was wasted.”
I hated to see her say that she would relieve her guilt by saying that she would become a parent now.
“You said you didn’t like me because I was your daughter?”
Were you born because you wanted to be born?
no it wasn’t My will does not exist in birth. The only thing that existed was the greed and will of the mother and father.
“Then why did you give birth as a woman? It’s because of my mother and father who gave birth to me like this.”
I threw out the words that I had buried in my heart for a long time, huffing and puffing in my father’s arms.
“Grandma is also a woman, so why do you hate women so much? If you hate women that much, you can jump out of the window yourself.”
I held my breath and clenched my fists. Then Grandma immediately frowned and pointed at me.
“That thing that’s been messed up…!”
“If that’s the case, you shouldn’t have been born either, and I shouldn’t have been born either!”
“Daughter, calm down.”
Dad patted me with his big hand.
“There is no need for you to mix words with such trifles.”
Dad’s hand moved lightly and grabbed Grandma’s collar. He lightly lifted her up and strode toward the window.
“I can’t let go of this…!”
“grandma! This bastard is real!”
Dad looked at me and lightly bent the iron bars, then pulled the hand that was holding Grandma’s collar out the window.
“Sometimes people don’t know that others are sick unless they themselves are sick.”
“Let go… this is murder! Murder…”
“How many times do you think I’ve killed a human like you?”
Dad let go of his hand.
“Quaaaaaagh!”
Grandma just crashed.
“Dad…”
“Oh, I won’t die. It was not intended to kill. At best, my bones will be shattered and I will not be able to walk for the rest of my life.”
My father, smiling with a stern expression, approached me with a normal face.
“You crazy bastard…!”
Chaido screamed and his father ran out in white.
“Then let’s go back home, daughter.”
Dad hugged me and said while gently wiping the blood off my hand.
