Chapter 468. Love (B) and agony
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Still, I do not sympathize.
To begin with, I don’t like people who gossip like that.
“Oh, you look really busy. yes?”
I looked back at Asha, who had been silent for a while.
Already, she seems to be unable to keep up with the current situation and shows no reaction.
No, why are you shocked?
I really…
I sighed and put my arm on Asha’s arm and pulled it lightly.
“You seem a little out of your mind? Could it be windy?”
“Eh yes…
Asha faintly moved her head.
Fortunately, I seem to be able to hear what I’m saying.
It’s probably because I’m not conscious of the current situation.
This time, we came out to the balcony where Asha and the young lady talked earlier.
This place is also very popular.
If it’s here, you can’t hear what’s going on, let alone look at it.
As soon as I came out, Asha was restless for a while, but then looked straight into my eyes as if she had made up her mind and asked.
“Huh? Are you Arel? Did you do that on purpose?”
“Oh, on purpose.”
I always act on purpose.
“But then everyone…
” Think of it like a lover?”
Even if he doesn’t, he behaves in a plausible way in the face of attention from a country that has not yet taken on a concubine.
It might be enough to get that recognition.
I knew it.
“however. Are you misunderstanding something?”
Understanding the meaning of those words, Asha’s ears turned slightly red.
“…I don’t know if that’s the case…
but… if you do that even in a place like this. I’m sure everyone…
“I’m looking forward to seeing what rumors will circulate.”
How many days will it take to go around the whole kingdom this time?
Wouldn’t this be an opportunity to see how fast the noble ladies talk?
“Never mind what I did earlier. It’s because I think I should have a little bit of responsibility.”
“yes?”
“ah? Or was Asha thinking of something else? Then I’m sorry too.”
“It’s not like that… but…
Asha couldn’t speak very well and pursed her lips.
Perhaps he himself is at a loss as to what to do.
That’s because I’ve never been so blatant before.
I can’t think of a way to respond.
Hmm Then, to cool down for a while, shall we finish talking about what we talked about last time?
“I talked about it last time, but I remember that Asha said I wouldn’t stop you if you wanted to do something else or find another way, right?”
“.. Why are you saying that now?”
“Yeah, it looks complicated today. No. Has it been like that lately? Is there something troubling you?”
“Would it be strange if there were?”
“Rather, it is natural. It makes everyone worry]. Sometimes I don’t know what to do or what to accept.”
It’s not that I don’t know what to do.
I don’t want to give an answer that far.
But I don’t think that’s wrong.
“Then you can continue to think about it. You just have to grunt and answer when you have time. Whether that’s the answer you hoped for or the conclusion you didn’t want.”
“…Sometimes I think of you, when you say things like that from before, Arel-sama seems strangely… dignified.”
“I was originally polite.”
what’s with that goofy look?
I was originally like this
I know you’re just fooling around without being immature.
“It’s easier if you draw a line.”
Her shoulders twitched.
Is it because it’s a song?
“With nothing. If you secretly stick to your mood from afar and not be seen by others… well, that might be okay too.”
“…You say something weird.”
What kind of weird words are from now on.
“Asha you. Of all the people I know now, he’s always stubborn.”
“Is that bad?”
“well? Is the world so simple that it is so easy to cover up ‘right and wrong’?”
I smiled lightly and asked while staring straight at Asha.
No matter how much she was, there was no way she wouldn’t feel a sense of incongruity at a time like this.
Asha’s face is stained with embarrassment.
“Arell?”
“Today, I will listen to any story.”
“As expected, you’re even more eccentric today.”
“I’ve been hearing some admonitions lately. The sense of responsibility just skyrockets.”
Responsible mode.
….something like that.
And now it’s not like I’ve been capricious again.
It’s something I had in mind from the beginning.
Sometimes I have to look around too.
I was a bit complacent.
I was careless that if I just do what I want and take it easy, it will happen on its own.
It was pretty clumsy for me.
Maybe my perception has dulled that much.
I leaned against the balcony railing and just waited.
“If you have a story you want to tell, do it.
Or you don’t have to. But I wonder if it would be better here than in my castle?”
“Maybe.”
Asha couldn’t deny it, but she just smiled bitterly.
“…If it’s there…. I’m sorry too, so I can’t say anything.”
“Look at that. Because you care about strange things.”
“Arel-nim was indifferent.”
She exhaled lightly.
“But Mr. Arell is right.
It is necessary.”
Also, surprisingly lightly admitted.
She finally tried to say what she wanted to say.
“If I had a crush on Arell, would you accept it?”
When I first met the master, I had the impression that he was just a ‘strange kid’.
It didn’t mean anything bad.
It didn’t mean that he looked down on him, but he just felt that he was a human being in the world who was somehow distant from himself.
Even now, thinking about it, I don’t know why.
Was it simply because he was a genius?
And it wasn’t a bad idea.
For one thing, even at the very end, they were royalty.
I just thought that I wouldn’t even have a chance to properly talk to her, who came from a fallen aristocrat.
Because it was such a first impression.
Asha was determined to be faithful to her duties as an escort knight.
However, Arel was quite different from the impression she had of royalty.
Originally, there was no need to talk more than necessary to a simple escort knight, and there was no need to care.
It is enough for a knight to be faithful to his duty.
The lord just needs to let it pass for granted.
However, Arel took an interest in himself and all his aides.
Teach me how to reach a higher realm.
Also, sometimes he follows him when he goes out to play, saying that work is annoying.
In many ways, he was close to everyone.
It was as if he had no interest in the customs of the nobles of the past.
It just treats everyone without fault.
And that sometimes made her feel bad.
Of course, it was more like self-doubt.
“I don’t know if I had more feelings for Arel than necessary.”
A little before anything.
From Arell, ‘I think especially.’ When I heard the words of feeling.
Asha was relieved rather than worried about the repercussions surrounding her master.
That’s what causes her troubles.
“Do you think that is wrong?”
“Well, hehe. That would be a disqualification, at least for one article.”
“Don’t you think so?”
As the years pass, from a child who simply needs to be cared for to a boy and then a young man.
Her conflict grew even more because she had seen the change.
At one time, I was pushed by that emotion, and it was literally a series of worries and troubles.
I don’t regret it, but on the other hand, I also had doubts.
‘Is it really okay to be like this?’ do.
“So when Pena-sama came, I thought it was fortunate in my heart.
At least I can draw a line beyond that.”
Now that he has a wife, he can draw the line again as a knight and live his daily life.
I thought that was enough and finished it.
I’d rather have no hope… I might not have dreamed of it.
At least that was the case not too long ago.
“Could it be okay for a moment? Thinking so… I hesitated.”
“???? Hmm.”
“Everyone seems to be honest without hesitation, but I couldn’t.”
“Right.”
“I don’t have to worry about anything? Is something like me really okay? Will I harm his reputation by any chance?”
He believed to himself that just being behind him was enough.
But on the other hand, I hate myself thinking that it wasn’t like that.
it’s got greed
However, she was not the kind of person who would reach out for greed.
Knowing that, Arel scratched her head for a moment and sighed as if she understood.
“Is that what you were thinking about?”
“…Did you notice, Arell-sama?”
“Roughly.”
It wasn’t like I was thinking about the proposal from the beginning.
Rather, it made me think again.
Surprisingly, even after hearing the proposal…
I would have been happy if it had been me years ago, strangely, I didn’t think anything of it.
Oddly enough, she hadn’t pictured herself living anywhere other than there.
This is not good.
That’s when I was sure.
Asha made a decision at that moment.
“So you just pretended to be okay?”
Arell asked as if he noticed.
* * *
There are many people in the world.
Let’s break it down into two big things.
A human who simply stretches out his hand when he is greedy.
And when you get greedy, a person who rather steps back.
It’s just amazing.
I am a full-fledged former.
And most of the people around me are also electronic.
But in her case, it’s the latter.
for being greedy.
Rather, he is a person who withdraws, fearing that he will destroy his surroundings with it.
“I see… that is your conclusion.”
However, it cannot be said that the conclusion is wrong. Because there is no right or wrong in it.
“Isn’t Arel-nim like that before? I promise you will respect my will.”
“Um…that’s it.”
Certainly, because of my greed, I have no intention of tying someone down to the point of breaking their will.
Decisions are always respected to some extent.
But…..
I still have my personal stubbornness.
“I wish there was a more honest conclusion. Asha, are you really going to be okay with that?”
She was discovered by me and has always been by my side and taught me.
It wasn’t just about being a knight or anything like that.
A more honest attitude.
That too is included.
“In any case, what I meant was you… or anyone else. It means that if you want to do something you want to do and be honest about it when you have a will, you won’t stop it.”
Did you forget our family motto?
Well, that’s what Pena looked like, so I put it away a week after I bet it.
“…is that okay?”
“Asha, you only act honestly with yourself.
Because it is right as long as it does not hurt or harm anyone.”
none other than I affirm
If you want to deny it, you will have to at least beat me.
As I spread my chest wide and insisted on that, Asha burst into laughter as if it were somewhat absurd.
“If you’re like Arell-sama, you’re saying something like that.”
“Yes, there is no one else to say this but me.”
That’s what you can say at your age.
