# 211
Helmut
Episode 211
Time passed quickly. There were no major changes during that time. Helmut waited calmly. I hope the day I leave comes.
The wait was strangely exciting and strangely repulsive. Like heading out to sea where a storm awaits.
There was no way to predict whether he would find treasure in the sea or whether he would be submerged in the sea forever.
Perhaps he might have to run away from there without even being able to reveal his identity.
There was no guarantee that his mother would recognize him. Even with the name Helmut.
To his mother, he would be a dead child. It seemed like war clouds were hovering before my eyes.
Helmut had to spend a sleepless night. It was a rare thing for him.
Leaving Baden required organizing. Somehow it seemed like that.
“Take this.”
The day before leaving, Area called Helmut to her room and gave him a bracelet. It has enhanced functions from the previously given bracelet.
Helmut took turns looking at the two bracelets on my wrists.
Strangely enough, it didn’t feel cumbersome.
I don’t know if Area took that into consideration or if it was because it was the bracelet she gave me.
“I’ll contact you at night. “If I call you, answer.”
Area said clearly. Helmut quietly looked at the bracelet. he asked doubtfully.
“Can’t I call you?”
Isn’t that unfair? It feels like I can only talk to Alea when she wants to talk to me.
Of course, Area was the one who made the bracelet.
“You can call me. “Only when it’s dangerous.”
Area pointed to a part of the bracelet. If you give it a vis, it will work.
It was a bracelet originally made with the intention of calling when something dangerous happened.
But Helmut knew. That he would never call Area with this bracelet.
Because he couldn’t put her in danger by calling Area when he was in danger he couldn’t handle.
“Next time we meet, we can prepare your training ground.”
She laughed lightly. It looks like he’ll probably be concentrating on the dungeon for a while.
Although she is currently going through final exam period, she is not having any trouble studying the dungeon.
No variable will be able to take away the top position from Area.
Area left a short request.
“Win.”
As if it had to be that way. Or like you believe you will.
Amethyst-like eyes shine. Those were her words.
Helmut nodded. He stretched out his hand. Area came deep into my arms.
Area’s gaze got closer. It was a look that seemed to draw me in.
I’m probably going to miss her while we’re away. It was a certainty.
*
Helmut visited Ethan Kudrow in the morning before leaving. That’s because he contacted me saying he wanted me to find him.
“Is Helmut here?”
Ethan Kudrow greeted Helmut and tapped him on the shoulder.
His eyes were colored with a strange emotion.
Less than a year had passed since Helmut found him.
However, Helmut stood out so brilliantly that he was selected to participate in the general swordsmanship competition as a representative of Greta Academy.
Ethan Kudrow has been watching Helmut for a short and long time.
This boy was unusual from the first time I saw him.
He has spent countless moments admiring Helmut.
It was only for a moment that what I had taken for granted, thinking that I was Darian’s chosen disciple, became so natural that I could no longer explain it.
To Ethan Kudrow, Helmut was not simply a disciple of his benefactor.
He is an intelligent and extraordinarily talented boy and is thought of as a disciple or son whom he especially cherishes.
A cool and neat personality that does not show bluff or arrogance.
There was something about Helmut that anyone could not help but be fascinated by, as he calmly proved himself with his sword and skills.
‘The light emanating from a person cannot be blocked.’
No one has been able to ignore Helmut since he entered the academy and distinguished himself.
He was a boy who attracted attention like a magnet.
What makes it possible is because he is a gem.
Even if there is a feeling of being closed off and a cold and heavy secret lurking around Helmut.
Ethan Kudrow knew it too. The fact that Helmut is hiding something from himself.
Also, although it is said to have calmed down a lot, Helmut’s keen vigilance is implicitly revealed.
Although he had become accustomed to the academy, Helmut still had a somewhat raw feeling.
It is as vivid as an animal and can turn dangerous at any time. It didn’t seem like it was human at all.
A boy like that would not have an ordinary story.
‘More than anything, his talent makes no sense.’
Talent comes from the blood. This was even more so in the case of Bis. Helmut’s talent was outstanding, something that would be difficult to come from a commoner.
If that happens, it would be nothing short of a miracle.
It’s not for nothing that Greta Academy is full of nobles.
‘An orphan…’
Ethan Kudrow became curious about Helmut’s identity once again.
I swallowed the question because I knew that trying to find out would only make him more wary, but I also wanted to share the burden he was carrying.
If you look at what they’re trying to hide, it doesn’t seem like there’s a smooth story. Even Ethan Kudrow didn’t know if he could handle it himself.
That’s probably why Helmut doesn’t say anything either.
Helmut looked into Ethan Kudrow’s eyes. Affection can be disguised, but it cannot be hidden.
Because of that, Helmut was able to know Area’s heart. The same goes for Ethan Kudrow, although of a different kind.
Helmut knew that Ethan Kudrow cared about him as more than just a guardian boy.
‘He repaid his debt to Darian simply by accepting me into the Academy and supporting me.’
But Ethan Kudrow did more than that. I gave my heart.
That doesn’t mean Helmut can’t feel anything.
Even wild animals recognize the humans who fed them.
Even if Ethan Kudrow turns against him, he won’t be able to easily end his life.
His sword is heartless. But even if I kill you, it won’t be comfortable.
So I could never tell the truth. It’s clear.
It was right not to create a situation that could kill him.
Ethan Kudrow is someone who has something to protect, something he has, and is already established. It was better not to know.
People with sprouts of darkness should be like that.
The only human who can handle Helmut is Area, who holds the vessel of an archmage.
Only if you have the courage and will to face the temple can you avoid being caught up in the great darkness that is Helmut.
‘But there’s something I can say.’
Even if you don’t say everything, Ethan Kudrow will understand. Helmut seemed to know that too.
“In Rinosa, I think I will learn about my origins.”
“Do you have any family left in Linosa?”
“well. “I’m going to find out.”
Helmut ended deliberately ambiguously.
There was silence for a moment. After gathering his thoughts, Ethan Kudrow calmly spoke.
“Return safely.”
Ethan Kudrow said something different from Area.
Area told him to win. As if there was no doubt that he would be safe.
Area knew Helmut’s strength. Even Ethan Kudrow vaguely knows this.
But his words sounded like a parent’s voice.
“If I can’t come back, I hope you leave me a message.”
Ethan Kudrow knew, too. That Helmut could leave at any time and never return.
Helmut was too big a bird to stay in this small nest called Greta Academy.
Helmut looked at him for a moment and answered briefly.
“…Yes, of course.”
As he turned around and came out, Helmut was caught up in a question he had been putting off.
Departure is imminent. Once again, a dark cloud-like premonition overtakes him.
What will happen when I find my mother?
If her mother recognized and accepted her, would she stay by her side?
If his mother doesn’t accept him…
his heart beats out of sync.
What if my mother turns against me?
Helmut pondered over the assumption that had been so difficult to come up with. My appetite was somehow bitter. Although there have been crises so far, things have been smooth.
And now we are reaching the end. It’s only been less than a year since I left the Forest of Pahe!
‘Should I say it’s fast?’
Helmut solved the tasks he had to do as naturally and quickly as water flows.
That doesn’t mean it’s bad. But for some reason, there was something that made me feel anxious.
The reason Helmut risked everything and left the Forest of Farhe was because of his mother’s voice.
It was partly because he did not want to live and die in the forest of Pahe, but his mother’s voice became a strong calling that guided him.
It’s still clear. Her voice calling out as if engraving her name.
Even if things had changed a little over the years, Helmut would still be able to recognize her voice. In a instinct.
But didn’t her mother’s heart still forget Helmut?
‘Mother…’
Anyway, more than ten years had passed. Even though we are children, we never have time together.
Marguerite Irein could have already erased the name Helmut from her memory and heart.
Even if you have some remaining affection, you cannot assume that it will be great enough to risk shaking up your current status. Especially if you are a noble.
Although the mother may feel happy for a moment, she is horrified by the fact that Helmut has a seed of darkness and wants to throw him away.
So wouldn’t it be right not to reveal your identity in the first place?
Although they have similar names and appearances and are the same age, Helmut is a commoner.
We can probably pass it off as a coincidence. It might not have been a safe choice. It was wise not to be greedy.
But I got greedy. Helmut had experience of success.
Perhaps he was the person I had most desperately wanted. Not shocked or afraid of him, just calmly. As if Helmut is just Helmut.
‘Area accepted me.’
Area is a wizard. Archmage Antiol also accepted his existence without much thought, so the presence of a boy with a sprout of darkness may be acceptable to wizards.
It would have seemed like something with a problem that needed to be overcome.
Because the wizards that the temple hates are temperamentally so.
I know very well that my mother is not a wizard and would think differently.
Still, Helmut has been successful in every adventure he has had so far, making it difficult to just accept and give up.
‘Once we meet.’
It’s not too late to think about it afterwards. Helmut put his thoughts on hold.
Departing for Linosa soon.
