Chapter. 22. Last Parade (16)
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BGM recommendation: Goodbye to a world (Poter robinson)
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Tiring- Tiring- Tiring- Tiring-
[Player ‘professor’___ Computation module [T1] to [Lz947] __ Approved control authority]
[Player ‘profeesor’___ From background unit [permafrost] to [rainforest]__ Approved control authority]
[…. Approved] [
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[…. Approved ]
[….approval]
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The victory bell that started with the last gunshot is still ringing continuously.
It’s over.
The thought that we had finally reached the end filled my heart.
“That’s Ottoman.”
“That’s Notum. Rakshasha.”
“Lucilla. Borca. Aldrich. Hydrasil.”
“Astrad Katrea. Naelda… Ah Voltaeus.” Every time
I
count the stars in the dark blue night sky. Every time the sparkling glass for them was filled, the sense of accomplishment that filled my heart began to flow out, reminding me of the empty space.
One drink per star.
As a result, the top of the half-tilted spire was filled with empty drinking glasses.
“Although it’s a bit cramped, I left at least a place for you to sit.”
Sweet.
The empty space left behind in the bustling drinking place was for people who had no place even in the rays of the sky.
Gulp, gulp,
gulp!
“The alcohol that would make our president on the outside roll his eyes if he saw it is free, and the cigarettes that are so relic-grade that you can say you smoke them with money, not just cigarettes, are also free. I wish I could just sit there for the rest of my life. Right? In fact, it is close to omnipotence. What else should I make? apartment? airplane? “A brewery exclusively for the royal family of Teldrat, famous for its wheat?”
The question I asked while giggling alone was scattered around the empty space, but
[Professor Park would probably rather not say that again because it doesn’t work.]
[It’s a video even if I don’t watch it. Wow, what a tiger it is, perfected after being tempered through the strongest trials. The soul of a nobleman hardened like a diamond!]
Instead, somewhere in his heart, there was a voice that received his words.
“….boy. “Are you saying that we are now treated separately?”
Inheriting memories was a very difficult task.
As if the first snow had fallen on the ground, his memories were stacked on top of mine.
It was like a dandelion seed waiting for the wind to blow.
Gulp, gulp,
gulp-
[Alcohol…. Dragon Breath? It’s a drink that doesn’t exist in reality. Hmm…]
[Knock! Yuck! Wow! What do you remember? Oh, I just looked into it for no reason!]
The moment it overlapped with my senses or my thoughts, Hyde’s memories burst out even though I didn’t want them to.
Hyde takes a look at the moment I first drank alcohol after entering 3 World.
Even after being seriously burned once, Hyde cannot overcome his curiosity and continues to indulge in the same memories.
[….I should sit down with him and have a proper drink sometime.]
Hyde has become a more alcoholic drinker than me and is drinking alone.
Memories bursting forth following my thoughts were answering my self-talk in place of the empty space in front of me.
[After it’s all over… you’ll be moping around like an idiot, saying ‘I don’t want to go out, I can live well~’. I really wanted to get out of this hellish game.]
“…No, dude. It’s because it’s really okay here. “I need to get some rest too.”
[At least you’re going to have a drink because you don’t feel like you owe me anything, right? Why is this guy’s inner debtor so vicious? If you just receive it sometimes, you can just ignore it, but they say you will return it as much as you received in the first place.]
“I lived like that all the time.”
[Did you teach prenatal education according to the Code of Hammurabi?]
“Puhup!”
When I think of one, dozens of memories of Hyde burst out, making me feel as if I was facing that guy.
“…Yes, everything you said is correct. The system is dead and all data souls are laid to rest. I don’t want to stay in this boring game with nothing to do even for one more second. I want to leave right now….”
Gulp,
gurgling!
“The moment I leave, I really think it’s ‘the end,’ so what can I do if my feet don’t fall off?”
From the moment my memories came back and I came to my senses and saw your memories left in my head.
Even when preparing for the extra stage, when he laughed at the system he was finally caught in,
he provoked him, and even when he finally put a bullet between the eyes of the system that was so desperate for life, it was constantly happening.
How can I get it back?
How can I bring back Hyde, who has already disintegrated without a trace and has become part of my memories?
“I don’t know. “I really don’t know what to do this time…”
“But it’s ‘impossible’ that was decided after only nine hours of deliberation.”
As the guy said, what I received was so heavy that I couldn’t fall off my feet.
“We may not know it now, but if we sip alcohol like this and think about it for about 200 years, we might come up with another method.”
Just like you, I am a person who cannot bear not to give back as much as I have received.
The moment I leave here, all the possibilities I couldn’t find will disappear.
Hyde: Isn’t it too cruel and one-sided to just ask me to leave like this?
[….Give back as much as you received. That’s our way.]
Hyde in the memory answered with another memory.
As I lay on the old sofa in my now-messed-up inner self, looking at the clumsily hung memories, his eyes somehow felt like they were looking at me.
[….If you don’t tell me this, you’ll blame yourself for the rest of your life for sacrificing yourself because of me. It’s a bit fatalistic, but… what would happen if I were to say I was born that way?]
In my memory, Hyde finished his defense like that.
“You foolish child. What on earth were you planning to hide after handing over all of your memories?…”
By nature, people tend to think of dozens of different thoughts in order to think of one thought, and Hyde was no different.
“why. Why did I help you so much?』
His true feelings, which he tried hard to hide and covered up with other thoughts.
‘It’s something you’re born with.’
‘I was born of self-love separated from you, so I have no choice but to do so.’
Beneath the excuses that Hyde had left for me, his true feelings reared their heads.
『….That’s because that’s our way.』
“….You foolish fool who couldn’t change even after being 200 years old….”
As if whispering over Hyde’s head in his memory, his true feelings came to mind.
[I am also a data soul, so I am entitled to take a memory with me like other fragments… right?]
Hyde, who was disappearing, took out a small and unsightly memory from among the brightly shining memories and cherished it.
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“Hyde! “My name is Hyde!”
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It was a long time ago. Memories of when a small, evil personality born from a mute agent searched through the memories of its host, me, and created a name for itself.
『Hyde. It was the name I liked the most. Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Hide meaning to hide. Or… I hid it from you』
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“Hyde! It’s my name! How about a shell! Are you fine!”
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『…Actually, it was Hide in the meaning of hide.』
“Such a foolish idiot….”
I couldn’t hide it even a single bit because it had seeped into my memory. The purest truth filled my empty heart.
“leather. I, who called you, the host, ‘shell’, now call myself ‘skin’. “It’s such an obvious ambition, I was too young back then.”
Hyde smiled sheepishly as he looked at himself in a memory from a long time ago.
『Dissociative personality disorder. Or schizophrenia. They say the human mind separates out parts of itself to protect itself from its self-destructive ego. Just like a lizard cutting off its tail, you cut off the problematic part.』
『My essence is the self-love that Professor Park cut out for himself. In other words, I was in a state of self-loathing that, if left alone, would have driven me to death several times.』 『
When I was first born, I really wanted to get rid of you. I was hostile and wanted control of the body, and I wanted one day when you would disappear and this Hyde would become the master of the body.』
So, Hyde. I was Hide with the ambition to push away the shell of myself and become Hide myself.
『…And even though I was young at the time, I never dreamed of it. Of course, you knew all about the evil intentions inside him. Because that’s what sharing memories is all about.』
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“Hyde! “My name is Hyde!”
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Hyde was repeating that moment over and over again.
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“Hyde. “Well, it’s not that bad.”
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The moment I looked into it and affirmed it without much thought.
『You really didn’t think anything of it. Just as an ordinary person sees a cat shivering from the cold and thinks he wants to comfort it, when he encounters the cancer-like personality that has grown inside you, he sympathizes with it and says, ‘Oh, that must be frustrating.’ I hope that guy has my own body someday.’ 』
『I affirmed my existence… I thought that I would do well.』
As Professor Park, who has lived his entire life as a hobbyist, the thoughts he held as if he was breathing…. Just like an animal that comes out of an egg imprints on its parents, It was engraved like a seal on the personality that was born.
『That moment defined me.』
The hatred that had been with me since birth began to melt away from that day.
The title ‘shell’ changed from ‘Professor Park’ to ‘Hyung’, ‘Hey, you’ and so on.
Sometimes he was called father.
Because to Hyde, I was that kind of being.
Hyde’s fading expression was full of happiness and pride.
『At that moment, the thing that cleared away all the self-hatred that had built up and hardened… Funny enough, it was yourself that you created through the life you endured like that.』
『In that way, you gave the present life to the being called Hyde. Every moment I exist and think as myself, I created it with that single affirmation.』
『So Give and Take I give as much as I receive. In our way.』
“Fucking damn….”
『You gave me my whole life. All I can do is pay you back with my life.’
Hyde disappears from my memory. To me, he is trivial, but to him, I have the most brilliant memories.
『So there is no debt between us, father.』
『My life, the 200 years I have endured. Because I made it all out of the moment I received from you.』
“Ugh ugh ugh…!”
『So stop struggling with non-existent debt and get the hell out of there right away. In my world.』
His memories come to an end.
『Well, of course, if I pass on this idea as is, I will be whined about alone. You should just think, ‘I was born out of self-love, so I had no choice but to help like that.’
” “….phuheuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!”
Unable to decide whether to laugh or cry, I finally burst out holding both emotions.
Hit your knees and burst into laughter. He threw the liquor bottle and cursed into the empty air.
Meanwhile, raindrops fell one by one. The empty cups were filling and overflowing.
“iced coffee. “I should have taught you how to lie before we broke up.”
What is self-love and what is okay to think like this?
Just as you did with the memories you cherished so much, you revealed your true feelings this time as well.
“Hyde.”
Hyde.
He was my friend, my brother, my family and my rival.
My oldest understanding.
“….I’m going.”
In the end, I raised a glass full of rainwater high in place of the many words that were hanging around my neck.
Tirin- Tirin- Tirin-
“Thank you. “At every moment of your life.”
[Administrator authority transfer completed to A/W/S/A-1/S-1]
[Final sequence___Benefits for completers [No.1] to [No.7]___ Excluding the 3 types delivered to preliminary completers The rest of the ban was lifted]
and he gave an order toward the final notification sound.
“….log out.”
-Tiring!
[Temporary developer ‘professor’ connection is terminated.]
It’s still heavy, but we’ve moved forward.
Spot-!
The only administrator of the electronic world is gone.
Coo coo coo coo!
The extra stage, which has served its purpose, is oxidized into pieces of data.
Whirl – Whirl – Whirl –
The glass that had been lifted high fell and crashed.
To the ownerless cup who has been waiting for this moment for a very long time.
Cheaeng-!
-for.
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