Chapter 49 of the side story. To my dear baby
2023.01.31.
As soon as Aidan opened his eyes, what greeted him was the ceiling painting of the still unfamiliar villa.
When he was in Devlin, he had to carry out Veron’s orders every single day, so there were many days when his mind was cloudy.
Because of that, this sense of clear reason still didn’t adapt well.
‘No, he probably doesn’t want to get used to it.’
If I go back there someday, I’ll have to live again with Izzy gone. So I didn’t want to get used to the current situation.
Dadi-dan’s freedom, once tasted clumsily, can become a solo drink.
As a result of staying in Ermano’s imperial castle for a short time, he was able to learn about the life patterns of the empress.
Since the pregnant woman was also a full-term empress, the range of activities was not that wide. Most of the time I stayed in my bedroom and occasionally went out for a walk.
Even that has recently decreased in frequency.
Instead, there was an endless stream of people near the empress.
When the emperor was not at work, he always stayed close to the empress and took care of her, and the prince also came to visit from time to time, sticking to her side and making small noises.
In addition, the Empress’s real father, the Marquis of Gardenia, and the Prince’s nanny, Madame Lupe, also stopped by.
Even when many people came to visit her, the empress always greeted her with a smile and no sign of tiredness.
But sometimes, when the empress was alone, he hesitated even as he tried to enter the bedroom to meet her.
Aidan saw a side of her that no one noticed.
One day, he gently caressed his swollen belly and smiled lightly. One day, he would sit for a long time with a dark face.
Another day, I cried bitterly, holding my breath for fear that my crying might leak out.
For some reason, when that happened, Aidan couldn’t pretend to be human.
As the empress, the highest position to stand alongside the emperor, Shiana is respected and loved by the people.
Aidan couldn’t understand why she was crying when she had everything.
However, since he is a complete stranger, he had to remain only as an observer.
Knowing that it would be the same that day, I arrived at the balcony and checked the situation in the bedroom. The Empress was alone.
But what was different was that her eyes met Aidan’s as if he had waited.
As if waiting for him to come.
As Aidan opened the balcony door and stepped inside, Ciana greeted him in a soft voice.
“Welcome.”
“…”
“I can’t get up and greet you because my body is heavy. I hope you understand.”
Aidan gave a short nod, and Ciana, who was leaning on the bed, let out a small sigh and laid her upper body more comfortably.
As the birth month approached, even lying down became more difficult.
“I think we can talk longer today. My husband has been busy with work. My son is also staying at the Donovan Mansion…”
There was no trace of sadness on her face. It was a kind and affectionate expression, just like when you treat others.
However, it felt strange to Aidan, who had seen the naked face she wanted to hide from others.
“What would you like to talk about today?”
“…well.”
There were many things I wanted to ask, but for some reason I was reluctant.
Silence fell between the two of them.
It was a somewhat uncomfortable silence, so Aidan’s gaze gradually descended to the ship that Cyana was stroking as a habit.
It was said that the child in the stomach weakens the prohibition. What the hell is it that has such ability?
Aidan, who was alone in his thoughts, soon asked a question he would not normally have asked.
“When will the child be born?”
“It’s not long. The councilor told me that the due date is around the middle of next month.”
“Right.”
“I’m surprised you’re curious about something like that.”
Shiana looked at Aidan, wondering if they had become close enough, but his face remained blunt.
However, the relationship has changed a lot since I first met Aidan. Siana slowly stroked her stomach and opened her mouth.
“When this child is born, I will love you someday. … It would be nice if the other person was as good-looking as you.”
A smile as fresh as a flower petal lingered in Aidan’s ears before dispersing.
Shiana still stared at the man looking down at her with an insensitive face.
‘Because you will be my child’s precious person…’ Because you
will always be by Mabel’s side and support the child so that he can do what he wants to do.
Cyana realized Aidan needed Mabel by her side.
‘Take care of my children.’
Shiana swallowed the words that were filling up to the tip of her throat and smiled brightly.
***
Knock knock knock.
An irregular knocking sound reverberated throughout the wide hall.
The source of the sound was Veron’s finger. His fingertips, full of dissatisfaction, tapped the handle of the chair incessantly.
Suddenly, the nervous noise stopped.
‘Aidan…’
After killing the empress of Ermano in the most terrible way, he gave a simple order to collect the supply, but the news was cut off.
Due to the distance, the control of the ban was weaker than when it was in close proximity, but the ban was still strong.
As Aidan’s owner, he felt strongly that he was connected to him.
“Kill it. kill Kill the Empress of Ermano…”
The order was like a wish. If distance is a problem, it is enough to instill a stronger desire.
With strong tenacity, Veron gave an order to Aidan, who was supposed to be connected with the forbidden.
kill Kill the Empress of Ermano… get rid of it. You can tear it to shreds and kill it right in front of the emperor’s eyes.
It wasn’t that he didn’t consider the possibility that Aidan might have been captured. However, the Ermano Empire remained silent without any disturbance.
Indeed, if Aidan had been captured, he would have taken any action on Devlin’s part.
It was the time when I waited for news from Aidan day after day. Veron’s men reported the new information to him.
“your majesty. We have obtained information about Aidan.”
“Report.”
“Not long ago, Prince Ermano and his close friend, Prince Javier, went missing. After the discovery, the prince testified that he had seen the ‘red-eyed man’.”
“The red-eyed man…?”
“There are very few people with red eyes, so I guess that man might not be Aidan.”
Veron’s eyes flashed brightly.
‘Are you saying you succeeded in infiltrating the Ermano Castle?’
okay. It was Devlin’s secret weapon. Of course, it was enough to infiltrate the imperial castle of Ermano.
But then, why is it so quiet? By now, I’m sure the news of the empress’ passing would have been heard.
There wasn’t a single questionable corner.
‘I’m sure I’ll find out…’
***
After a flurry of rumors about ghosts appearing, people didn’t come near the villa where Aidan was staying.
Thanks to that, Aidan was able to move around the imperial castle relatively comfortably.
That day, too, he was confined to the bedroom Siana had given him.
Aidan received an anonymous note that flew through the crack in the door.
[Mission report required. The central square outside the imperial castle.]
It wasn’t written who sent it, but it wasn’t difficult to predict the sender.
Veron Arthur Devlica. It was him.
‘It’s slower than I thought.’
I thought he would move a little earlier, but Veron moved slower than Aidan expected.
If you were in the vicinity of the imperial castle, Ansiana, Veron’s influence wouldn’t reach you, so you didn’t have to follow that order.
But it was impossible to stay here forever.
Even Siana said she didn’t know how to break the ban, so she couldn’t avoid Veron’s order.
Anyway, it was something that had to be bumped into once.
That’s how Aidan went outside for the first time since he set foot in Ermano’s imperial castle.
It was before Aidan even arrived at the plaza. When he entered a deserted alley, he stopped right there.
It was not voluntary.
My body didn’t move. I wasn’t even allowed to blink.
All body control was taken away.
A ghastly voice came directly from above.
“It’s a strange thing. I obviously ordered the empress’s head to be brought to me… but why is she still alive?”
“…”
“Aidan, why are you eating and sleeping in the Ermano Imperial Castle…? Like Ermano’s faithful dog.”
I could tell without turning my head to see who it was.
It was Baron.
“Just in case, the ban has really weakened.”
Veron, muttering dissatisfiedly, eventually stood in front of Aidan.
Aidan was finally able to face his opponent.
Veron himself, who knew how to send subordinates, was stepping on the land of Ermano.
“Are you surprised? But nothing strange. 내 개새끼 찾으러 온 거니까.”
Kkeuk. Veron burst into laughter and took a step closer to Aidan.
Aidan still couldn’t move.
“It’s broken. I thought it was not long, but… I have no choice but to go back to the beginning.”
At that moment, Aidan remembered what Cyana had said. That the imperial family of Devlica had inherited their ownership from generation to generation and had ceaselessly used them.
And that’s exactly how.
Pooh-.
“…!”
It was to plunge a sword into the heart.
Aidan’s body slowly disintegrated and fell to the floor.
Veron pushed Aidan’s shoulder with the tip of his toe, causing him to lie facing the sky.
“It’s annoying to have to start over as a child, but I can’t help it… Rather, I’ll have to study why the ban was loosened step by step.”
As a wizard, he became curious and wanted to return to Devlin as soon as possible.
Veron smiled and looked back.
There was a handmaid of the Imperial Castle of Ermano and Veron’s confidant who had been standing there for some time.
The maid who was bribed by Veron looked at Aidan whose heart was pierced mercilessly and covered her mouth with a white face.
“The main porridge…”
“There.”
“yes…!”
The lady-in-waiting answered Veron’s name loudly, raising her frightened eyes. Veron asked with his eyes narrowed.
“What did I say?”
“Even Poison Her Majesty’s car…”
Veron’s servant, who was waiting next to Took, threw a bag of poison in front of the lady-in-waiting.
The poison was developed by Baron by processing a poisonous plant that grows only in Devlin, and it was extremely poisonous that Ermano did not know about.
At first, it was ineffective, but as the drug ingredients accumulated in the body, the body gradually weakened, and then the body function completely stopped.
No matter how competent a member of parliament was, he did not know that he died from poison.
Veron moved towards the maid. He asked another question in a languid voice.
“If it fails…?”
“I will not fail!”
“okay. If you don’t want to die…”
Although the first attempt failed, the second will succeed.
Kkeuk. Veron burst into laughter as he remembered Esteban’s face in pain.
***
It was one morning not long after Aidan had disappeared without saying hello.
‘…ah.’
Sianna realized the time had come.
My body was exceptionally heavy and my head was spinning, so I couldn’t even raise my upper body.
She vomited and covered her mouth. Esteban, who had just entered the bedroom, looked out the window and greeted her kindly in the morning.
“Siana. Today is a relatively warm day, how about opening the window and getting some fresh air?”
“… ugh.”
Hearing the faint moaning, Esteban turned around and found Siana clutching her stomach and trembling in pain.
“Siana…?”
“Black….”
“Syana Siana!”
Upon hearing the news of the empress’ deteriorating health, all the imperial palace doctors in the imperial castle hurriedly ran.
The most experienced imperial physician showed disapproval after examining Siana.
“Certainly, until yesterday’s checkup, both the baby and Her Majesty were all fine. But how can you do this overnight…”
“Tell me without adding or subtracting.”
“It is dangerous. Both the baby and Her Majesty the Empress.”
The other members of the imperial palace also agreed with that opinion.
Although Sianna has often said that she is tired recently, it is a common symptom for pregnant women, so she was only paying attention to taking care of her body.
thud. My heart seemed to drop.
Esteban stared at the imperial robe with a white face.
“It’s dangerous.”
“I have no choice but to take medicine. But there’s a problem…”
“What is it?”
“It’s a bad drug for babies in the womb.”
He was saying that in order to restore Siana’s condition, he would have to give up the child. But even that wasn’t perfect.
“Also, I cannot guarantee that Her Majesty’s condition will improve even if the medicine is used.”
Esteban was speechless. He pondered for a long time as he squeezed Siana’s hand tightly.
Ai and Siana.
And Sianna and the child…
Esteban’s lips parted with difficulty.
“…make the medicine.”
At that time, Ciana, who was gasping for a rough breath with a bloodless face, opened her eyes.
“No…”
Esteban shook his head as if vomiting blood at her desperate voice.
“You are more important than the child. Just think about getting better.”
“Evan always… always says things he regrets…”
“I don’t regret it. Because I have no regrets. I love children, but they are not as precious as you. therefore-.”
“Don’t talk like that.”
It was something I could say because I did not know how lovely this child to be born would be.
You don’t know now how much happiness this child will bring you.
Siana had work to do.
This child had to be protected somehow.
“Please… you are our child. Evan. I’m begging you like this… please.”
Even if it wasn’t so, the bloodless face was stained with tears.
Siana begged earnestly as if she would run out of breath at any moment.
please. please. Please don’t harm this child.
Esteban couldn’t push his will any further with such Shiana.
But the decision to give up the child couldn’t have been easy either.
How happy she was when she found out that Sianna and herself had a child.
Mabel. Esteban was also waiting for the day the child would be born.
‘Why the hell? Why…’
Esteban sat down in his chair in despair.
It was as if the whole world had gone completely black.
***
Several times Esteban tried to persuade Sianna, but she was stubborn.
Sianna’s health deteriorated by the day, but she somehow made it through.
It was a time of blood drying for both the person involved and for Esteban, who watched it intact.
So, Siana gave birth to a baby earlier than expected.
Their lovely child with light pink hair was born.
The child was born safely, but Sianna’s condition was not good. On the contrary, her health deteriorated even more because she forced herself to give birth to a child.
The palace doctor sentenced the empress to no hope unless a miracle occurred.
Esteban… He really wanted to let go of everything.
He sat on the edge of Sianna’s bed and stroked her pale face.
“…You shouldn’t have told me to give up on you for the child, Sianna.”
Siana’s lips opened helplessly.
“But… in the end, Your Majesty… didn’t… refuse my request…”
Each word was spoken with difficulty in a very small voice.
Esteban listened intently to her voice like a faithful follower of a god.
“…because it was your request.”
“Lie… from the beginning neither the child… nor I would have given up…” “
….”
“Such… For you to take me away… is too harsh… All I can offer is… an apology.”
Siana’s breathing slowed down.
Esteban realized that the time he had least wanted had come.
He held it in, but tears fell from his eyes.
“I’m sorry… I’m Evan…”
Hands holding each other.
However, it was only Esteban who gave her strength. He held Sianna’s sagging hand and sobbed bitterly.
“No, Siana. Please…”
Esteban’s sobbing voice gradually faded away. Soon the surroundings became completely still.
It was a moment of rest.
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My dear husband, Evan.
I’m sorry for hurting you. In the end, I became your wound.
But I hope it doesn’t hurt too long.
I’ll take all of your sorrow, so you’ll stand there as always.
Even this wind may be too cruel… but I won’t apologize this time.
Dear First Oscar.
I’m sorry for not loving you more.
I really wanted to tell you that you don’t have to do well, but in the end I couldn’t.
You are a child who is loved enough. So I hope you learn to love yourself.
maybe someday you’ll understand
I’m really looking forward to the future where you’ll live holding your favorite sword.
My beloved youngest Mabel.
Meeting you is the luckiest thing in my mother’s life. She is really happy because she is Mabel’s mother.
Even though I can’t watch you grow by the side, please know that mom is always wishing for your happiness.
Let’s meet again in the near future.
hi.
dear darling
