Chapter 18. Did you ignore me? 2020.04.04.
“Change!” (Outside!)
In order to collect information efficiently, you have to listen to the people outside the room rather than shut yourself in the room. Larimar wasn’t usually a chatterbox either, but she wasn’t a good person to get information from because the nanny was constantly cracking down on her. I started actively insisting on going out. The nanny, who was willing to go out at first, was embarrassed and comforted me when I begged her dozens of times a day.
“But, Your Highness… You went to lunch, didn’t you?”
“Float!” (again!)
“No.”
I was taken aback when the nanny hit the nail firmly.
‘Of course I thought they would listen.’
It was an unexpected difficulty. I desperately looked up at the nanny, but to no avail. It didn’t seem like he would listen to my request.
‘What should I do with this?’
As she held on to the hem of her clothes while crying, her determined expression collapsed a little.
‘…This is it!’
It’s mean and cowardly, but it can’t be helped. I gathered my feelings without any emotions and started to cry.
“Swap…” (outside…)
the nanny began to panic. I reached out my other hand and squeezed her finger. I only squeezed one finger, but my hand was full.
“oh.”
The nanny, her eyes wide open, cupped her cheek with one hand and let out a deep sigh.
“I can’t… Then, are you going out for a while?”
“Ooh!” (Yeah!)
Finally, having achieved what I wanted, I went out in the arms of my nanny. Xavier and my unseen escort, Lisandro, followed.
“Come on!” (Over there!)
“This way?”
“yes!”
Since the nanny only goes to places where there are few people, I deliberately pointed towards the crowded place. That’s how I succeeded in taking a seat on a bench at the entrance of the garden where many people pass by. It was a bench at the back of the bush, so I couldn’t tell if a person was sitting here unless I looked closely.
“Aren’t you noisy?”
“yes.”
“It’s still cold, so you shouldn’t come out so often…”
I focused on the chatter of passers-by, leaving the nanny who was preoccupied with my worries. There wasn’t much information available today.
‘Is it nonsense again?’
The information I wanted was the reason why the emperor insisted on putting me in the position of emperor when I was only a year old and second in the line of succession to the throne.
‘I think it has something to do with the oracle.’
Perhaps because of the oracle, the priests of the Holy Nation showed interest in me to an extent that was strange. I even tried to kidnap her once.
‘I think it’s because they didn’t want to send me to the Holy Land.’
But this is just my speculation, I wanted to know the truth.
“Madam. It’s been a while since it came out, so stop…”
“Sir.”
I hurriedly stopped Xavier, who was about to tell me to go in. If I go in now, I don’t know when I’ll be able to come out again. The tear operation is only once or twice, but if it continues, the effect will decrease. The nanny who was adjusting my coat widened her eyes.
“oh! Your hands are so cold…!”
“seer. Too bad.” (I don’t like it. Just a little more.)
“You’ll catch a cold again. Come back tomorrow when it’s warmer. yes?”
I couldn’t help but nod my head at the nanny’s earnest words. okay. There is also tomorrow, so there is no need to insist on today. It was then. Two servants passed the street while chatting.
“Devlin’s devil… again at the border…”
I heard it intermittently because it was passing through, but I could understand the contents.
‘As expected, he escaped….’
After that, I was curious because I couldn’t hear the news because I was ill, but there was no place to hear. In fact, my conscience was pricked at the fact that I had condoned the escape of an enemy of the state.
‘But he was a child and covered in blood.’
I’ve only seen it twice in person. Even though it was only a few minutes, the boy’s red eyes were clearly etched into his brain.
‘There will be no meeting again.’
I put the boy out of my head and went into the arms of the nanny. We were just getting up from the benches. A group of maids passed by in front of the bush.
“Did you hear that?”
“What?”
This time, of course, it must be a trivial story, so I tried to pass it on. but.
“His Majesty has collapsed!”
‘what?’
I heard words that I couldn’t just hear.
***
“Are you really okay?”
“It’s okay, so why do you keep asking? Do you want me to die?”
“That can’t be!”
Gustav was unfair. Concerned about His Majesty’s health, I never thought the question would come back asking me if I was having uneasy thoughts.
“I heard that you skipped meals again from the chamberlain.”
“I have no appetite.”
“But Your Majesty. You must preserve the jade body. No matter how hard things are, you have to eat right and get enough sleep!”
Gustaf clung to him and nagged at him. Esteban, who at first listened in one ear and let it out in the other, began to get annoyed. Esteban’s expressionless face twisted.
“…it’s so noisy.”
“Hup.”
Gustav hurriedly shut his mouth. Perhaps because of the lack of sleep, Esteban’s impression was worse than usual.
‘If I’m worse off, I’ll die or be searched for.’
I felt sorry for him when he thought that he was acting so viciously because his daughter had said he didn’t like it. Esteban’s eyes narrowed as he felt Gustav’s sympathetic gaze.
“What are those eyes?”
“yes? That’s…”
“I haven’t had much work lately.”
“Yeah?!”
A sense of crisis that this might lead to death by being buried in a mountain of documents! Gustav unknowingly flicked the snout of truth.
“If you want to see Her Highness like that, you can go see it!”
cheap-. The atmosphere froze. At the same time, the blood drained from Gustav’s face. Gustav was born and had the first experience of regret while spitting out words.
‘If I stay still, the middle will go.’
But after I had already spoken. Gustaf studied Esteban’s expression. His expression was colder than usual, but he didn’t look like he was going to take his own life right away. Gustav hesitated for a moment, then spoke softly.
“Your Majesty… I heard that Her Highness goes for a walk every day these days.”
“A walk….”
Esteban’s expression softened slightly as he imagined Mabel. That gave Gustav courage.
“yes. He said he enjoys looking outside. He begged me to go out every day. I heard from the ladies-in-waiting that when you say hello, they wave their tiny, fern-like hands… Ha ha…”
Gustav, imagining Mabel waving, suddenly came to his senses at the sharp gaze that seemed to pierce his face. Esteban was glaring at him. I thought my heart was dropping.
“Why are you like that?”
“Who are you to talk about my daughter?”
“yes…?”
“Don’t pretend to be friendly.”
“When did I pretend to be friendly!”
Before Gustav could make an excuse, Esteban jumped up and left the office in a flash. He did not want to follow, but he hurriedly followed, fearing that the emperor, who had entered the second tyrannical period of his life, would cause an accident. Esteban headed to the bench at the entrance to the garden of Mabel Palace. Naturally, Mabel was there. Yes. Esteban had been receiving reports of Mabel’s every move.
‘…It’s been a while.’
He looked at Mabel from a distance. The baby was sitting side by side on the bench with Oscar, munching on something. Every move of her mouth moved her plump, ruddy cheeks. Even though her legs were fully stretched out, they were short and she still had no ankles, so she was insanely dainty. I haven’t seen you for only a few days, but it was different from the last time I saw you.
‘My hair has grown about 1.4mm more.’
It also seemed a bit taller. Esteban felt resentful at not being able to see Mabel for several days. Mabel, whom I hadn’t seen in a long time, seemed to care whether he was there or not, so I was madly saddened. Esteban, who was staring at Mabel anxiously enough to almost lick his eyes, hurriedly hid himself.
“yes?”
Mabel looked around, then turned back to Oscar. Gustav asked insinuating at the sad sight that he couldn’t open his eyes.
“You’re not going.”
“…don’t you hate me?”
When I first heard it, it was quite a shock. Hearing it twice was shocking. In fact, the more I thought about it, the more shocking it was. Never thought that Mabel would reject him. If I knew the reason, I would have solved it through conversation, but I couldn’t solve it through conversation because I couldn’t understand the language. It was just frustrating.
“your majesty. It’s time to meet the head of the coronation ceremony.”
“okay.”
As if he had eaten everything he ate, Esteban left with his eyes on the daughter with a serious face in Oscar’s arms for the last time.
‘I can last half a day.’
After half a day, I was worried about how to hold on again.
***
“Huh?”
As I raised my head, Oscar looked down at me.
“what’s the matter?”
“Nothing is here!” (Who is there!)
“What…?”
“…Ehh.”
No matter how much I am not an ordinary baby, my pronunciation is still not right, so there was a lot of communication.
‘what. I don’t even want you to understand everything.’
I looked at the place where I felt the presence, but there was nothing. It must have been my misunderstanding. Again, I listened attentively to the conversations of passers-by. The only information she had obtained today was that Count Leonid and Baroness Trudy were having an affair.
‘As expected, the last play is the most fun.’
It was a pity that the nanny appeared at the height of the fun and chased away the chattering ladies-in-waiting. I wanted to hear more rumors about the emperor’s collapse, but since the subject was the subject, no one dared to say it.
‘…is it okay?’
It will be fine. Oscar doesn’t say anything. Oscar, who was looking at me, tilted his head as he touched my clothes.
“What’s wrong, Mabel?”
“Ugh.”
I shook my head.
‘I need information, but I feel resentful and resentful that I can only do this much with a baby’s body. It’s frustrating why it’s growing up so late. I want to say that.’
The reality is a pitiful life that can only say short words or sentences. At that time, Oscar, who was puzzled without knowing why, suddenly opened his eyes wide.
“uh!”
“yes?”
As I turned around to follow Oscar, there was a familiar creature there.
“Sheep?”
It seemed a little bigger than the last time I saw it.
‘Although it’s still a baby cat.’
Looking back, it was so pretty with the golden hair shining. While I was still observing Shin-soo, he jumped up onto the bench.
“Wow!”
I was surprised and gave Oscar a hug.
‘What a surprise.’
Whether it’s like that or not, Shinsoo leisurely came right next to me and sat quietly. The golden eyes that looked up sparkled like jewels.
“Sheep!”
I shouted, looking back at Oscar, and he also nodded his head bewildered.
“I heard that you don’t come out of the forest normally, but what is it?”
“Wow!” (Cute!) “Who
is talking to whom?”
I held back the urge to pet it and admired the cat with bright eyes.
‘I wanted to raise a cat, but I couldn’t afford it.’
It was hard for me to take care of myself, so I couldn’t even dream of having a pet. Raising hamsters was a luxury for me. Unlike me, who endured well, Shin-soo did not.
“Huh!”
He jumped up and sat on my lap, rubbing his head against my arm.
“Hey sheep…!”
I hear this in my ears, right? I was so embarrassed. Why is the god of the Northern Forest, who is famous for being cold and arrogant, acting like a dog? I looked up at Oscar, not knowing what to do, and he smiled and nodded.
“Touch it. Instead, you have to stroke it gently because the kitty can get sick. Saying that the child is pretty.”
“Ah Ibuda~.” (You’re pretty~.)
He roughly put his small hand on Shinsoo’s head while roughly matching it to Oscar’s rhythm. It was then.
[This is so frustrating!!]
“?!”
I was startled by the unfamiliar voice, and withdrew my hand.
‘What is it?’
“Why Mabel? cold?”
Oscar tightened his clothes with a worried expression. I opened my mouth blankly.
‘Did you just hear me? Or… hallucinations?’
[No hallucinations.]
Startled. Judging by what I heard again, it was not an hallucination. I looked around extremely nervously. There’s a nanny on the bench next to it, and Lisandro’s out of sight. There was no one else.
[Why is there no one! Here you are. Are you ignoring me!!]
‘Yes. It wasn’t that nobody was there…’
I lowered my gaze very slowly. The golden cat, the divine beast of Ermano, was looking up at me. The voice came again.
[okay. It’s me!]
‘…Would I faint.’
***
A few days later. Waking up from the wind in the morning, I diligently started preparing. After finishing morning training, Oscar was startled.
“What are you doing in the morning, Mabel?”
“Yumnyami.”
“ah. Are you going to give me meow?”
“yes.”
I nodded and Oscar grinned.
“The child is good. Our Mabel Meow takes care of the food and has a very pretty heart.”
“Heh heh…”
I smiled helplessly and with clumsy hands grabbed the food I had asked for in advance.
‘I don’t take care of it because I want to take care of it.’
okay. It was a threat! The first time I heard the divine voice, he said to me.
[I am the messenger of God born to assist you! In order to talk to you, I had to ‘contact’, so I had to excuse myself!]
‘What, really. I guess I’m crazy at last…’
[I can read strong thoughts, so can you restrain yourself? I can hear it.]
‘The cat is talking…’
[Are you ignoring me? Huh?]
…That’s how it happened. Ever since the first day I spoke, the sheep abandoned its main habitat, the northern forest, and came to lie next to me. a talking cat It was a bit scary at first, but I got used to it quickly. It was amazing, and there were also some things to gain. Whoops. I spread out the snacks I had brought in front of Yangyang. It was a pet treat that cats love.
“Dah. Bah.” (Here, rice.)
[Did you bring this to eat right now…?]
“Murgo.” (Eat.)
But Yang touched the dry snack with her front paw and turned her head away. Then, as if dissatisfied, he patted the floor with his tail.
“Are you mogo?” (Why don’t you eat?)
[I’m not a cat! Even though I look like this, what am I actually?!]
‘Does that mean I’m actually a different being?’
When I tilted my head, Yang Yi nodded fervently.
[If you understand, bring me food that humans eat!]
However, it was a little difficult to do the sheep’s request.
‘Grunt.’
I groaned and shook my head. Passionate gazes pouring towards me. My nanny and Larimar Xavier were watching my every move with a hearty smile. Yes. I was not free.
‘I wouldn’t let the cat eat human food.’
That’s why I couldn’t steal it secretly and give it to you. I was sweating as I watched the sheep start meowing for food, but the nanny picked me up and hugged me.
“majesty. Kittens aren’t very hungry.”
[What are you talking about because the belly skin is stuck to your back?]
Yang said dissatisfiedly, but to others it was just a meowing sound. Larimar’s eyes twinkled in admiration.
“You really have a lot of aegyo, Shinsoo!”
[What nonsense are you talking about?!]
Yang, who suddenly bursts into anger, has become a gentleman with a lot of aegyo. As I remembered myself, who had caused all sorts of misunderstandings with my babbling, I felt a sense of sympathy.
“Today, let’s go inside, Your Highness.”
“city-.”
“I can’t even hate it. I need to measure the dress.”
‘Why is the dress measured?’
There were already piles of clothes. Even though most of the clothes I can’t wear because the size doesn’t fit because I grow differently every day, my dressing room is full of clothes.
‘It’s a waste anyway.’
As soon as the nurse took a step, an anxious voice came from behind.
[Where! Don’t go!]
“…Eh?”
[How long have you been there? This isn’t right!]
The sheep that was only annoyed suddenly started grabbing me eagerly. But other people’s ears will only hear meowing.
“Come on, let’s go.”
[Don’t leave me…!]
In the end, I had no choice but to leave the crying sheep behind. The road to Mabel Palace. Suddenly, I saw a familiar person in the distance. was the emperor I heard that he collapsed, but on the outside he seemed fine.
‘Is everything better?’
The emperor was followed by strangers. Judging by their attire, they seemed to be servants. As if he had found me, the emperor’s steps stopped slightly. Of course, I thought you would come and say hello.
‘…Did you ignore me?’
just skipped it It was an unexpected reaction, so I was bewildered. At the same time, I felt self-deprecating.
‘Well, it’s strange that you liked me until now.’
Because no parent would like a strange child who doesn’t smile or hug like me.
‘So this is natural.’
I tried to ignore the aching chest.
