Chapter 152. That’s why you became my wind2021.07.17.
Aidan was the first to run after Mabel disappeared under the collapsing floor. bang-! However, before he even stepped in, a transparent barrier was created and Aidan was bounced back.
“…shit.”
Aidan’s face twisted. As he stretched his hand down, a sword with condensed black energy was created. Although I hit the barrier at once. visor-! Only a sharp sound resounded, but the barrier did not budge.
‘Until it doesn’t work.’
It was when Aidan raised his sword. A pale-faced Oscar put a hand on Aidan’s shoulder.
“Look over there, Aidan.”
Aidan’s expression hardened when he saw where Oscar pointed. There was no nothing. The floor of the collapsed cave where Mabel had sunk had been smoothed out. As if nothing had happened.
‘The cave swallowed Mabel.’
Oscar took a step, clenching his fists. Obviously, when Aidan tried to pass, he couldn’t enter because of the barrier, but Oscar was different. Let alone barriers, I was able to freely come in and out as if there was nothing. The floor didn’t even collapse. Oscar biting his lip in shame at not being able to protect Mabel looked back at Aidan.
“How is your barrier? Is Mabel nearby?”
Aidan nodded. If you move beyond a certain distance, the power of the barrier will weaken, but it has not changed. Oscar was a little relieved by that fact, but he wasn’t completely relieved.
“Aidan. You are monitoring the outside dynamics as scheduled. I’ll get Mabel.”
I fell down the collapsed cave, and I gasped at the thought that if I was healthy, I might have suffered serious injuries. The fact that Mabel couldn’t heal herself was even more frustrating.
“Did you bring a communication magic tool? Keep trying to contact Mabel. I’ll be in touch right away if anything happens.”
With that said, Oscar ran into the cave.
‘I’ll protect you this time, Mabel.’
A darkness so deep that it was invisible soon completely swallowed Oscar.
***
Ponce Castle at that time. After waking up, Yangyang, who had come to meet Ho-Ho as a habit, roamed around us. Ho-ho followed the sheep with his eyes while lying on his stomach. Yang Yi’s discipline continued uninterrupted.
[I brought Mabel because she’s kind, so I thought you’d be lonely. In fact, she likes me more.]
[Who said something…]
[So, don’t be conceited. I’m the only one in Mabel!]
[I’ve never been conceited…]
[And you’re trying to entice and eat the kids from the Northern Forest who come to watch these days, right? You shouldn’t live like that. Huh?]
[I didn’t…]
[Anyway, you’re good. Because I’m watching with my eyes wide open!]
[…]
Hoho felt like crying a little. It was a time when the act of reading Yang Yang’s nagging and calling it check was about to prolong without end.
[That’s why you’re below me after all-.]
Suddenly, Yang raised her head. It was after the disgruntled mouth was tightly shut.
‘This energy…!’
Before Hoho could say anything, Yangyang started running towards somewhere.
***
The floating feeling felt somehow comfortable. A warm and cozy feeling of floating. It was a feeling I had never felt before. It was similar to the feeling after I died after falling off a rooftop in my previous life.
‘what. Could it be that he died again?’
It was just about time to think about it. Gradually, my eyes brightened. And somehow, the unfamiliar yet familiar scenery greeted me. Because of the humidity, there was mold all over one corner of the wall, and because there was no air conditioner, the old fan was spinning. I remember. The fan fixing button was broken, so it only turned.
“Is it all you need to do when you have a baby?”
“Do you know that I gave birth because I wanted to give birth? It’s all because of you!”
A voice I had long forgotten now sounded in my ears. As soon as I heard it, I knew whose voice it was. mom and dad My parents, who were much younger than I remembered, raised their voices with sharp blades at each other. Even if the raw emotions that didn’t filter out one scratch and hurt each other, they didn’t care. It was like people competing to see who could attack and hurt each other better.
“Who is the kid going out to see?”
“Why should I watch it? If that little crab whimpers and cries, I think it will go crazy!”
At that moment, the wheezing child who had been holding his breath in the corner, as if he understood his mother, burst into tears. I walked slowly and looked down at the child. It was Yoon Winter. The child, who was about two months old and was wriggling quite a bit, cried for the world to leave. Her eyes were swollen from how much she cried, and her thumb was swollen from how much she sucked. Even when the baby cries, the mother and father only fight loudly and do not look into it. The sound of a crying child, the whirring sound of an electric fan, the meaningless sound of a television turned on, and the sound of a couple arguing. It was a mess that wouldn’t be strange even if a neighbor came to visit right away. I was watching such a spectacle indifferently. It was the first time I saw myself in my previous life through the eyes of a third person, so I felt strange.
‘weird. I’m sure my dad was kind when I was little.’
When I was a baby, I definitely had memories of being loved. Because the first memory of my previous life was of my dad kissing me and telling me he loved me. However, the scene in front of his eyes was completely neglected. None of my parents paid any attention to me.
‘I thought it was a mirror cave, but is it because it reflects my memories?’
But there’s something strange about my memory. As if it were true, everything was the same, but my dad’s attitude towards me was different.
‘It’s a fantasy. An illusion to break me down.’
I don’t know why he wants to destroy me, but his intention is clear. He seemed to want to see me frustrated. However, the memory of forgetting the preciousness of the present because of being caught up in the memories of the past was too clear to do that. I didn’t want to make that mistake again.
“Damn it. How could I ever meet a girl like you?”
“So do i. If I can go back to before I met my brother, I think I can do anything.”
“Have you finished talking?”
In the meantime, the voice was getting higher and higher. My dad even beat my mom. One side was screaming and the other was crying.
‘How long do I have to see this fantasy?’
It was so vivid that it felt like the real thing when I saw it, so I didn’t feel that good. The couple didn’t look at the baby until the end even in the midst of fighting among themselves. Not even once. I crouched down in front of Yoon Winter, who had a red face.
“Yun Winter. It’s no use crying like that… but cry as much as you want to cry. You are still a baby.”
baby is okay
“And be patient. Then you too will have a family that loves each other.”
I whispered to the weeping Yoon Winter the story that took too long for even me to realize. You won’t hear it anyway, but with the hope that you can still reach it.
“Aww.”
The baby, who stopped crying for a moment, laughed briskly. looking where i am It couldn’t have been, but it seemed like our eyes met.
. . .
[…I didn’t know it, but it’s stronger than I thought.]
I vaguely heard a heavy voice that seemed to resonate.
[I still don’t know what Ades-sama’s intentions were.]
The blurry voice was now clear. Ades. It was a name I knew. The name of the god of this world was Ades. The feeling of floating that I had felt before came over again. I opened my eyes slowly
[nice to see you. Those who are of the blood of Ermano or not.]
The owner of the voice bowed his head to me. I was taken aback by the unexpected appearance.
‘A lump of light?’
Lumps of light that were hard to express concretely floated in the air. It was an all-white space with nothing around.
“Moya.” (What?)
I looked down at my hands in amazement at the slurred pronunciation that came out of my mouth. Unsurprisingly, plump, short arms and small hands caught my eye.
“No, it’s a radish tail again…” (No, what’s wrong with this again…)
I liked that I had grown up having a hard time and got rid of the damn short tongue, but I couldn’t understand why it kept coming back to the body of a baby. I was tearing at my hair, which had been shortened for my age, in agony, but then I raised my head and glared at the mass of light in front of me.
“Hey Odie? Who shared?” (Where is this? Who am I?)
[This is a kind of unconscious world. You-.]
“Aradus. I know who I am, so it’s great.” (I understand. I know who I am, so that’s fine.)
As expected, seeing that I was a baby, it didn’t seem like the real world.
‘No.’
After failing to figure out the situation by myself, I had no choice but to ask the mass of light again.
“Did you knock me down by knocking down the bottom of the cave?) [The
expression is a bit rough, but it’s true.]
“Why are you screaming?”
[I was just trying to see if you had the qualifications of Ermano.]
I frowned. That lump of light said it was confirmation, but I thought differently. It was a one-sided test.
“you. (What is your true identity?)
Of course, my attitude had no choice but to be aggressive. Out of nowhere, he separated me from the group and showed me a fantasy I didn’t want to react to. If I had been weak in the past, I might have despaired at the memories of the past unfolding in front of my eyes. When I thought about it, I became annoyed. The mass of light flickered for a moment, and then an answer was heard.
[The last creation tree.]
“…Chansemo?” (…the creation tree?)
[That is my name.]
***
‘It’s terrible.’
It was Oscar’s assessment of the Cave of Mirrors. When I first heard Mabel’s words, I didn’t know much about it, but after coming in and experiencing it myself, I knew it. When I was very young, I heard that there was a secret place in the villa owned by the imperial family where you could look into the past that you didn’t want to see. Now that I think about it, I can guess that the place must have been this cave. As if going back in time, a vivid voice from the past whispered nonstop in Oscar’s ear.
“You are going to be the emperor in the future, so don’t show any gaps. always be perfect Laxity is unforgivable.”
A strict mother’s voice.
“If you want to be a monarch, you can’t get sick at will, Oscar. Even if it hurts, you have to endure it.”
My uncle’s voice scolding me at my bedside when I caught a cold.
“Cheer up, Oscar. I have high expectations of you.”
The voice of the emperor cheering him on.
“…I will try. I will become an emperor who lives up to my mother’s expectations.”
The voice of the young self who wanted to be loved by them. Those voices were repeated over and over again. It was a sense of duty that I had already put down, but I felt as if I had returned to that time. Before Mabel was born, Oscar always felt chased. I felt like everyone was watching me and my every move was being watched. But I couldn’t say anything. Because there is only one heir. Because he had to become emperor. In fact, Oscar preferred the sword to being emperor. I only waited for that time to sweat and train. However, even his swordsmanship teacher, Lisandro, reprimanded Oscar.
“Oscar. The results of this trial are somewhat disappointing.”
“…I’m sorry, Uncle.”
“Sword training is good, but rather than that, try to get close to a book. Don’t forget your duty.”
“yes.”
Those days when I cut down on my favorite training time and read books at night…
‘I have to find Mabel and get out of there…’
But the maze-like cave was so deep and dark that I couldn’t find my way. I was walking relying on the light of the magic lantern I had brought with me, but the more I walked, the more I felt like I was falling into a pit.
“Oscar, you-”
“Oscar Alle Hermano. Think of the weight attached to your name and think again-.”
“Oscar is pathetic-.”
Like flies, their voices continued to burrow into Oscar’s ears.
“Stop it.”
Oscar covered his ears with both hands, but to no avail. Unable to bear it, he slithered down on the damp wall, his face contorted. I was getting more and more short of breath. I thought it was just a voice, but it wasn’t. Memories of the past were holding Oscar’s ankles and pulling him back to that time. I didn’t want to go back to the old days when I felt like I was choking myself because I was frustrated and pathetic. It was then.
“Otsuka.”
A small muffled voice squeezed in. It was a voice that was distinctly different from the voices of those who had a sense of duty and hopes of disappointment. Surprised, Oscar looked around.
“Mabel…”
Mabel’s voice as a baby was enough to awaken Oscar’s spirit.
“Otsuka. Let’s put the value down.”
“Otsuka. Are you going to get together?”
“Otsuka. Babun Mani Mogoya vs.”
“Otsuka. Apudi Ma…”
Oscar got up again and started walking. It was only Mabel’s voice among many that made him walk. He used Mabel’s voice as a signpost to move forward. If she sat down like this, she couldn’t save Mabel. This time, I wanted to protect Mabel at all costs.
‘You know, Mabel. You were the only one who didn’t want anything from me.’
So you became my wish
