The great mage who transcends by returning, episode 364,
you stupid bastard.
I finished what I had to say and grumbled a little as I thought of the demon who had disappeared right in front of my eyes.
do you have to choose
Isn’t it even forcibly putting a test on a person who has already decided the direction of his heart?
It’s really drowsy.
I play like that in case someone is not the origin of demons.
“I don’t think it will end just by ignoring everything and walking.”
In the end, it must mean that all of this will disappear at the point where I ‘completely’ shake off this scenery.
I’ve already sorted it out.
He rationally suppressed unnecessary emotions and acknowledged that further worries are meaningless.
However, the scenery before the return remains in front of my eyes.
that it is
‘Reason is organized, but emotions are not completely organized.’
I knew what
Even if you understood it in the first place, your head did it, and it doesn’t mean that your heart did.
“hmm.”
I took one step forward.
These are the faces I miss.
They were talking about their plans for the future.
They were responses or stories that could not have come out if this ‘world’ was simply an artificial reality.
Possibility.
It literally means that this world can become ‘real’ depending on how I do it.
“So Siegfried, what are you going to do now? First of all, what should we do with that rotten religious kingdom?”
“…Even if it’s rotten, it’s because all the high-ranking people have died. I guess I’ll just go with it.”
“To go as is. You have to turn everything upside down. Whether it’s not you or not, I will do it.”
“That’s right. yes.”
“….”
It is the scenery as expected.
Siegfried being beaten, Ariandel acting mercilessly and radically asking questions about the future, and Jihad trying to rebuild the kingdom by gathering his people… ….
‘Yes, it was.’
I’ve been wanting a landscape like this.
and moved for it.
In any case, in order to pass this ‘trial’, he must mix with his old colleagues.
Whether or not I got over this old memory doesn’t matter.
What this ordeal requires is to completely shake off these memories.
Everything, even the smallest regrets.
“Oh come on, Mikhail!”
As I approached, the Beast King laughed heartily and shouted at me.
“Where did you go and are you coming back now? We were planning on having a party to celebrate among ourselves.”
“I’ve been wandering around.”
“Um that…Mikhail? What happened in that final battle last time was entirely my fault… …”
“Then it’s your fault or whose fault is it? Let’s keep our heads down quietly.”
“…yes.”
At my words, Siegfried quietly hit his head.
Even before the return, it was a problem because he was so inflexible, but he listened to me like this.
It was a problem because I didn’t listen when it was important.
Really.
Jihad cautiously asked, thinking that he was recalling such nostalgic memories anyway.
“Come to think of it, what is Mikhail planning to do next? I plan to gather the remaining clans and rebuild the kingdom… ….”
“well.”
Hearing the words of such jihad, I thought to myself for a while.
What I was going to do after everything was over.
‘Wait, did that happen?’
At the point before the regression, I had nothing left. All I have left is my colleagues here.
I had no idea.
After vaguely defeating the Demon God, I just thought that it would be nice to just lie down without thinking about it every day.
The word peace alone meant enough to me.
‘It was.’
When I recalled that time, I smiled bitterly.
The conversation continued between colleagues.
How did you overcome the crisis and how did you win?
He shed tears in sorrow at the story of losing someone, and expressed joy with a proud smile at the story of saving someone.
…entire.
It’s all precious and it’s a story that I can’t help but hope for.
Sweet stories that even make you feel like the wounds in your heart are healing just by listening to them.
But it doesn’t really heal.
Just endure and be blunt.
Memory is always like that.
I thought for a moment at the same time.
What will happen to them in the future?
My comrades who have safely achieved their desired goal and finally have a happy ending… ….
“haha….”
At that moment, a laugh broke out.
It’s because it reminded me of the blind spot of my thoughts so simply that it’s absurd.
‘I miss this way more?’
What is the difference between ‘now’ and ‘now’?
After all, isn’t this also the result of something intervening and changing?
Not the colleague I remember.
No matter what I do, I can’t bring back the colleague of ‘that moment’ that I so longed for.
I had to admit it.
The fact that even that stubbornness to not let go is selfishness.
‘iced coffee.’
I immediately realized it with my ‘head’, but this was the first time I had recognized it with my heart.
I just accepted that fact for granted.
“Mikhail.”
Then Ariandel approached me, looking at me with a worried expression.
“Did you think of something sad? A little expression… …“
It’s sad…. Certainly not.”
Instead of continuing the conversation, I got up and prepared to move on.
“…Mikhail?”
She reached out to grab me with a questioning look on her face. I didn’t avoid it or do it.
Even in a world that was only a possibility and not a real reality, I didn’t want to avoid her touch.
The clear silver eyes, free from blemishes, shook a little.
“….”
I looked at everyone without answering.
Suddenly, everyone’s eyes were focused on me.
Realized.
And I felt intuition that this ‘enlightenment’ was the qualification to move forward.
But before that, I had something to tell everyone.
I slowly opened my mouth.
“It was hard to admit.”
The simple truth is that water once poured cannot be put back.
Even though it was a very simple fact, I couldn’t easily admit it.
And sometimes that thought would make my sense of reality blurred.
It was a thought that was hard to get out of.
And at the same time, it was also an insult to the colleagues who had been with me until now after returning.
Yes, I knew it with the ‘head’.
And until now, I thought I had organized those thoughts in my own way.
But no.
I thought so, but on the other hand, I didn’t admit that I couldn’t go back to that day.
“But I decided to admit it. It’s not about letting go. It means that I acknowledged that I should keep everything in my memory.”
“….”
and acknowledged at the same time.
“I am greedy.”
I was selfish.
If I had to protect my world, I was selfish enough to pass by even this ‘possibility’ in front of my eyes.
Everyone didn’t answer.
You can express your doubts by saying that they are suddenly making strange noises, but not a single person did.
just listen to me silently
There is more to be said.
What I really wanted to say
What I wanted to say one day if I met my old colleagues.
therefore.
“thanked.”
He soon lowered his head.
I looked up, but everyone was still looking at me.
i see them like that
“haha…”
He covered his face with his palms while making a sound that didn’t know whether he was laughing or crying.
they won’t know
Why am I saying this and making such a face?
But it didn’t matter.
I wanted to say.
I said thank you.
Everyone on the expedition who volunteered as if in desperation that day lost everything and was devastated, leaving only hatred behind.
“Ha ha ha ha….”
that it gave the meaning of my life
I stayed like that for a while, thinking about those things with my head down.
and how long was it
“Raise your head, Mikhail.”
A voice of mercy was heard.
“I am…Moo –
hyul looked at me calmly as if he understood the truth.
“Aren’t we a family?”
“…!”
Said so.
“I will make sure to receive your thanks. But let me tell you. keep in mind With family… …”
Muhyul continued.
“You can be a little selfish.”
“I am…“
So brush it off.”
Muhyul will not know.
What am I thinking about and why am I saying this?
But it doesn’t matter.
For our old colleagues, we were each other’s precious family. That’s why it can be a little selfish.
“but…!”
“we are!”
Then, before my words continued, Jihad spoke.
“We will wait for our ‘Michael Walpurgis’.”
“…!”
At my words, Jihad shrugged his shoulders with a smirk.
“So go now. Don’t look back.”
It’s time to move on.
Originally, those who should have caught me said that and cheered me on.
“ah…”
No more voices came out.
I just instinctively looked forward slowly, one step at a time, and moved forward.
Little by little while staggering.
I do not know.
why do they say that You probably don’t know exactly who I am or what I mean by that.
But even so, saying that and sending me away is a little happy.
“ha ha ha….”
It was a bit sad at the same time.
Seruk.
It was slowly disappearing.
Everything but me disappears in front of me without leaving a trace as if it were natural.
like a mirage.
are you okay.
I mumbled that to myself and continued walking.
everything is in my memory
That’s it.
No longing, no sadness, nothing… ….
It is entirely in my memory.
A memory that will never return.
I was able to laugh because the moments we spent together were as brilliant as the last one that ended in tragedy.
so i
I can move on.
* * *
“Huh.”
Hekau stood blankly in a blank space.
It’s not that I’m not doing anything.
She was constantly thinking about this situation in her head.
“Die.”
Before rewinding, he left those words.
Ever since she heard it, she had been constantly thinking about its meaning.
“Asar, you…”
She recalled the old memory for a moment. Above all, he, who was a reliable wall, is no longer there.
It ceased to exist of its own will.
Conversely, the demon, Harmageddon, rejected such a ‘will’.
He thoroughly affirmed the existence of God and somehow came to exist and reach the present.
And he… ….
“I am.”
What to do.
Soon, Mikhail will fight the final battle on behalf of Asar as the demon’s adversary.
A lot of things will happen.
Things may come up that Mikhail doesn’t want but need to do.
And the result is undoubtedly… ….
‘It won’t end well.’
A creature that rebels against God has such a fate.
Wasn’t the first warrior’s child who shone most brilliantly like that too?
So did Solomon.
Regardless of whether the act was good or bad, the process was painful and the end was tragic.
how long should it last
Someone has to deal with it in order to break this ever-repeating cycle that originates from a divine being with emotions.
“iced coffee.”
Hekau quietly closed his eyes.
I remembered the end of a great man.
and….
– Go.
He remembered the faithful warrior who believed in him until the end.
The trembling stopped.
And she made a decision.
