It’s Freddie.
It’s Freddie.
Dependence?
am i dependent?
It was obvious what the subject of dependence Master was talking about was. Because the object of my dependence was bound to be my mother.
I already knew If I couldn’t see my mother, it would be more strange not to know myself, who would become anxious without knowing it.
It wasn’t like this from the beginning. When I was training with Master for a long time, as Master said, my heart to depend on my mother had become very faint.
In fact, it’s been a long time since I’ve even figured out what deepens my dependence on my mother.
My dependence on my mother intensified every time I received an injury that would have killed me if I had been a normal person. In other words, each time I returned from the dead, my dependence on my mother intensified.
But just because I noticed it, I couldn’t buy myself blindly. The things I’ve been through so far have been so many situations where it was obvious that others would die if I acted while sacrificing my body. I didn’t even think negatively about my growing dependence on my mother.
“My disciple. My one and only disciple.”
Before I knew it, Master Pridiya put the sword back into the scabbard and came right in front of me. A white finger gently brushed my neck. After wiping the blood from my neck, Master smiled quietly.
“Looking at your face, it seems you already have a good idea of what you are obsessed with, and why you are obsessed with it.”
I silently nodded.
“yes.”
Two bright blue eyes stared at my face.
“Honestly, this master was in a very good mood until he crossed swords with you. I was lucky enough to find what I was looking for. But the moment I crossed swords with you, that rustling feeling went away. Do you know why? ”
“Is it because I’m far from being a ‘master’?”
Master took a step back and tapped her own thick lips.
“The level of ‘master’ is not a concept that can be easily moved away or approached. It may seem far away, but when you realize it, you can be within reach if you take just one step. Master Lee The reason why I feel bad is actually a little childish. To the point where I’m a little embarrassed to tell you.”
The cold blue eyes filled my face.
“I’ve never raised a child, but I don’t know if this is the heart of a mother. The feeling that Master Lee feels now is that my son, who has raised so hard, has been put on the path to success in the shortest distance and faster than anyone else. It feels like a fire fox-like woman who may have jumped out and snatched my son away.”
“You’re very specific. Not like Master.”
“That’s why I’m so embarrassed right now.”
Master let out a deep sigh.
“Isn’t that right? Disciple? As you will understand later when you become a ‘master’, clashing weapons means colliding each other’s ‘hearts.’ Of course, it’s entirely up to you if you understand.”
A warm feeling was transmitted to my hand, which did not hold the sword. Master Pridya, who held my hand tightly with both hands, spoke to me.
“After all, as long as you are already very deeply dependent on whatever object you depend on, forcibly separating you from it will only make you hate me.”
Master slowly took my hand and put it on her cheek. Master’s cheeks were very soft. Two blue eyes bent in a beautiful curve.
“I don’t want to be hated by you, so I won’t follow my heart. Just keep this.”
Something hard and round got caught in the index finger of my left hand. What Master put on my finger was a pure white ring. Master put a black ring that looked just like the one she had put on me on the index finger of her left hand.
“This…?”
“It’s an ancient artifact I brought back from the headquarters. A person wearing a black ring can roughly tell where someone wearing a white ring is.”
Master touched the black ring and continued talking.
“If I had known you were in this state, I would not have accepted the queen’s request, but since I have already received the request, I must keep my promise, so I plan to finish the queen’s request quickly and visit you. To do so, I must know where you are. Shouldn’t there be a way?”
So, to put it simply, it’s an artifact for tracking location. As I put on the white ring, Master immediately said,
“Always wear it. Wherever you are, this master can find you in a month. I believe that our smart student will figure out what the ring means faster than anyone else.”
“yes.”
You didn’t bother to say it yourself, but this ring-shaped artifact must be the condition for letting me go.
After hearing my answer, Master Prydiya sat down on the dirt floor and patted her shoulder.
“Please give me a shoulder massage after a long time. Before I leave for a while, I have something to tell you. If you have any questions, feel free to ask.”
“All right.”
As I began to press Master’s shoulders, Master closed her eyes tightly and entrusted herself to my massage.
“Yuna.”
My real name was called quietly. I answered in a calm voice.
“yes.”
“A proper relationship doesn’t start from the feeling of ‘dependency’. Too much ‘dependency’ blinds the eye to see the essence. If you try to be conscious even a little bit, that alone can make a lot of difference. You’re a very smart person, so you’ll be able to do it well. This master guarantees you.”
Every word that Master carefully brought out was full of deep worries. I just silently nodded my head at those concerns.
“I’ll keep that in mind, but is it okay if I ask you one?”
“Ask me.”
“According to Master’s words, to be a ‘master’ is to have my mind completely independent of others. How can Master be both a master and a priest? Being independent of one’s mind from others and ‘faith’ can coexist. is it?”
The blue hair was soft.
“Coexistence is possible. But masters are usually not swayed by the feeling of ‘faith.’ As if I still regard you as a beautiful disciple even though I clearly saw you radiate the divinity of the evil god from your whole body when dealing with the holy lump monster.”
“yes?”
did you see that? In the middle of dealing with another master?
Master said in a humming voice.
“And, as you know very well, being a priest serving a certain god is not because you have a particularly deep ‘religion’. There, press there a little more. It’s very cool.”
I pressed my shoulders as Master told me to. Master said quietly, entrusting himself to my touch.
“That’s why you must become a ‘master’. I will make you that way. The moment you become a ‘master’, how much of the emotions in your heart are truly ‘yours’, and how much is the god you worship? You will realize that it is a ‘planted’ heart.”
I slowly opened my mouth and responded to Master’s words.
“You knew I was a worshiper of evil spirits.”
“I guessed roughly.”
“You knew that the object of my dependence was ‘God’.”
“This kind and understanding Master is no fool.”
“Do you really mind if I ask you one last question?”
Master’s blue eyes softened once more.
“Sure. And it’s okay to ask more than one.”
I picked a few words for a moment. I picked and picked and finally completed one question.
“Why is Master being so nice to me? It would be better to hire one more disciple who is obedient and smart than me, who is just a hassle.”
Master grinned.
“You mumbled so hard that you thought you were going to ask a difficult question, but you’re asking a very easy question. I’ll answer you honestly, so don’t laugh when you hear it. If you smile, Master Lee must be so embarrassed that he’ll be blushing for a while.”
“I will never laugh.”
A white hand gently patted my hand, which was rubbing my shoulder. Master patted me and said,
“I was raised with the sword of Seonghwagyo, and I never had a single person around me in my life. In my unknowing childhood, I couldn’t have anyone around because I was blindly trained, and while I was training and living with a sword, my hands were covered in blood. I couldn’t leave anyone around because I was soaking wet.”
The two blue eyes were looking at my face, but it was a day in the distant past that Master’s eyes were looking at me.
“After becoming a ‘master’, I achieved freedom with these two hands myself, but I only wanted to no longer have blood on my hands at the behest of others. I didn’t want ‘freedom’. So I became a relic keeper “I chose to be quietly forgotten. Well, how did I find out? I sometimes listened to people who came to me asking for help, but I never had anyone by my side. I never had anyone by my side, so I didn’t even know I was alone.” did.”
Master’s eyes, looking at the past, captured my face. packed a lot
“One day I lived like that. I met ‘you’. At that time, at the laundry. The happiness I felt during the three years I spent with you was greater than the sum of all the happiness in my past life. Very, very far away. And the loss I felt as I sat alone at home after you disappeared was really bitter.”
A soft hand caressed my cheek. Master spoke in a soft tone as if singing.
“Now I can’t go back to the me of the days when I lived alone without knowing anything. Master Lee needs you and is precious to you. Being with you makes me very happy.”
Two blue eyes glistened in the moonlight.
“Is this enough explanation?”
I smiled.
“It makes me ashamed to hear it.”
“Don’t laugh. You want to run away right away. And always take care of yourself while I’m away for a while. I’ve come to see you at most, but I think I’ll get a little angry if you’re hurt.”
“I’ll try.”
“Surely.”
After saying that, Master Prydia left to handle the Queen’s request. That night, I patted my mother’s hand, who was silent in front of Master, and said,
“I still believe in my mother.”
‘killing.’
It was a short sentence as always, but because of the complex mixture of all kinds of emotions, I couldn’t understand exactly what my mother meant for the first time.
The only thing I could understand was the feeling of sorry buried deep in the gloom.
I just quietly patted my mother’s hand. until dawn.
‘killing!’
The next day the mother returned as usual. I carefully asked my mother what the hell she was talking about last night.
‘killing…?’
But my mother couldn’t remember anything from last night. Oddly enough.
***
The next day, Dakia and I set out on a journey to the coordinates written on the key to the ancient ruins given to us by the devil.
As a result of checking on the map, the place where the ancient ruins were sleeping was in the mountains, a five-day walk from the capital.
Finally, it was time to obtain new power based on the divinity obtained after unsealing the holy object. As a bonus, get an ancient artifact.
