Episode 152 Ha
Seong-yoon, who had finished washing the bandages, spoke to Jeong In-ho, who was silently watching the fish struggling in the trap.
“It looks really pretty. “Isn’t that right?”
“….”
“It’s almost a waste to eat.”
At those words, Jeong In-ho quietly looked at the fish again.
Each of the sparkling scales struggled to survive, and white light split and scattered in their brilliant movements. The colors that fell from the particularly white sky only reflected these fish, breathing like jewels, piece by piece.
I knew what kind of scent this gave off on fire.
“…Yes.”
In-ho Jeong knows what these things look like when they die.
“It’s a waste.”
“what?”
“To eat…?”
As he said that, he blinked. It wasn’t very polite to answer questions in interrogative form, but maybe even that was my limit.
This was no different from the attitude of someone who appreciates fire.
“Are you saying this with certainty?”
“I don’t know that either.”
Parr.
Things that escaped from the water’s edge fell with difficulty.
“I’m just saying…”
After saying that, Jeong In-ho pushed the fish trap into the lake again.
The fish trap hanging on a string was floating in the lake and swaying helplessly with the movement of the fish splashing around in it. It took three more minutes before the fish, which were on the verge of suffocating to death, calmed down.
The silence between Ha Seong-yoon and Jeong In-ho lasted just that long.
“…You look not in good condition, Jeong In-ho.”
“Maybe.”
Jeong In-ho could not deny the doctor’s words.
“I don’t quite understand how they are alive.”
His gaze was still focused on the sparkling fish in the trap.
I felt like I was watching a corpse swimming in a coffin with holes in it. Perhaps they are nothing but bones, floating helplessly on the water. Or it could be that a pebble filled with air came to life and took that form.
It’s all a terrible delusion.
“Isn’t it a good thing that the manager… brought up the story first?”
“As expected, Mr. Jeong In-ho instigated this.”
“You promised that you would try to survive somehow. Even though I know it’s a ridiculous promise, I’m just feeling relieved. “I wonder if I’m being half-deceived.”
“…Then what about the other half?”
“There is nothing.”
I repeated.
“There is nothing.”
It was a story about what was left of me.
Maybe I’m holding it tightly in both hands, but maybe I’ve already lost it all. Jeong In-ho ponders hard about what is left of me and its meaning, but soon gives up. It was such a stupid and stupid thing to think about, but I couldn’t give up at all.
Somehow, in the end, Jeong In-ho was repeating time again, and he just felt like Manager Lee Jae-heon was going to die again. Nevertheless, I realized that I could never die before I achieved something, so running away was not an option.
Even if you try to run away, it’s an endless crossroads, so where can you get there?
“I don’t know if I’m doing a good job.”
“….”
“The manager said it meant something, but… you know that person is quite sweet. The only problem is that it is so cruel. To be honest, I don’t completely believe what he says.”
When I first came back in time, I was probably half crazy. Otherwise, there would be no way that Jeong In-ho would have worked so desperately to change history.
The current Jeong In-ho does not have the same strength left as he did back then. While I can’t come to my senses for a moment, it seems like Jaeheon Lee is dead again, and then I’ll repeat my failure. That’s how I die once more. In the end, it means that it will not die at all or be fully alive, but will be caught between time and gradually rot away.
Having been sentenced to such a future, Jeong In-ho had no idea where to turn and move.
“Actually, it was just a reflex. “It’s kind of an instinct.”
“…Could you explain it to me in a way that I can understand?”
“I mean what I talked to the manager about.”
Well, I don’t know what meaning it has.
“The things I struggled so hard to change…”
In the end, if this is going to happen over and over again, what can I have left?
“But this time we heard it first… aren’t you glad? At least it means that we mean that much to the manager.”
“You’re talking about his past, right now.”
“I kept talking about him. “I hoped Ha Seong-yoon would remember that, but I don’t know if it’s possible that not a single person will recognize it.”
“Did you have a nightmare?”
“If you can call it a dream.”
What can I do?
“…but maybe you can’t….”
Can you do the right thing?
Do I still have the qualifications to do that?
“….”
“….”
Probably not.
Jeong In-ho felt that he was a ruined man with endless sins, so he could not have been qualified as he was closer to a murderer than a human being from birth. I actually went so far as to kill a living human being with my own hands, so what more could I ask for?
I just felt a little crazy.
“…It looks like you’re having a hard time.”
“Still, you have no intention of saving me.”
“….”
“…This is a different reaction than I expected.”
The Ha Seong-yoon that Jeong In-ho remembers is always smiling, and on the other hand, he is so broken and scary that it makes him nauseous just to look at him. It didn’t seem like there was anything he couldn’t answer me with. Right now, Ha Seong-yoon just looked at me with embarrassment and embarrassment.
It looked really ordinary.
“If you show me like this, I think I’ll get angry.”
It was absurd.
“In the end, you have changed too.”
“I… haven’t changed.”
“Maybe it will change. “It has already happened, and even more so in the future.”
No matter how peaceful and friendly the relationship was, people eventually change.
They change in order to live according to changing circumstances. The fact that it was a very natural and obvious fact was one of the factors that made Jeong In-ho crazy.
It’s really scary too. This is how we realize that humans are infinitely weak and helpless in the face of disaster.
Nevertheless, In-ho Jeong could not stop.
“Why are your eyes the same?”
“…Why are my eyes….”
“When are you planning to change them? If you don’t mind, I’d like to see that scene together. “The white and blue eyes that resemble those of these fish.”
“….”
“I was wondering why you were crazy.”
Now, all that was left for him was doubt, regret, and time.
“It’s funny. “Isn’t that right?”
“…I am a doctor, Mr. Jeong In-ho. “I don’t understand why I should change one of the body parts that doctors consider the most precious in the world.”
“Look, we’re always talking about different things. We live in a different world. Still, it seems a bit absurd that no one disappears and always has to stick together…”
“Can I ask you one thing?”
“It’s funny, you can tolerate that person’s death, but you can’t do that when it comes to the patient’s death.”
“Who are you?”
“….”
That’s funny.
“…Could the doctor decide for you?”
“…I don’t think it’s up to me to decide.”
“Am I a human or a monster? whether there is or not. So what’s left….”
“….”
“I don’t know.”
It’s funny.
“…I don’t want to do anything….”
* * *
“Ah.”
Jaeheon Lee opened his mouth at the sudden appearance of popularity.
“…You came quickly.”
Contrary to his expectations that it would take quite a long time, the collecting team that had gone to check the traps and do various other chores returned quickly. Even if I tried to come back before it got dark, I felt like I was going too fast.
‘I think I roughly understand the reason.’
By listing the circumstances of the events that occurred before the return, Lee Jae-heon calculated how much time they had left. As soon as he got the answer, the place his gaze settled on was, of course, the protagonist’s straight face.
Jeong In-ho smiled sincerely as he gazed at him gently.
“I’m worried about the manager.”
“…what did I do… no, that’s enough. I’m sorry.”
Lee Jae-heon, who instinctively tried to refute, tried to suppress his rebellious temperament. The only reason he was able to maintain his image like that was because other chicks were watching him. There was no need to add more shock to a time bomb that was already on the verge of exploding.
The ‘Lee Jae-heon’ he created may have a slightly distorted common sense, but his nature itself was not bad. Even though he knew that Jeong In-ho was on the edge of a cliff, he was not a person to be proud.
“Speaking of which, would you like to receive treatment again? “I just finished washing the bandages.”
“…I don’t know if that bandage has dried.”
“I see. However, I think it is important to receive treatment regularly.”
“….”
“I think it’s important.”
“I understand, so try doing something with your eyes….”
Lee Jae-heon looked at Ha Seong-yoon, avoiding his pitch-black eyes, and Ha Seong-yoon also made eye contact with Lee Jae-heon.
Ha Seong-yoon asked with his eyes first.
‘Why did this guy turn around?’
Jaeheon Lee answered.
‘You should ask it yourself.’
I knew why it was spinning, but it wasn’t something I could tell. Ha Seong-yoon must have understood that too, as he gave up and smiled softly.
“The bandage isn’t dry, but I can take care of your wound.”
“….”
“Can I help you?”
These disgusting bastards.
‘Look at them stepping out because it’s not their territory.’
As expected, Dr. Ha Seong-yoon at this point boasted a very conservative yet passive range of actions. For a chick, he had very wise judgment and action skills, but if you think about it with a lot of house manager, it was honestly unlucky because he seemed so obedient. Such a bat-like bastard.
He looked at Jeong In-ho’s thoughts and spoke with a sigh.
“…If it’s not rude, I’d like to ask.”
“…is the teacher crazy too?”
“Say it nicely, doctor.”
“No, but so obediently…?”
But apart from that, Lee Jae-heon’s impressions were also quite strange.
‘I guess it’s less crazy now.’
I thought maybe Jeong In-ho was thinking similarly. I have no intention of revealing the truth, but aren’t we both regressing within the same timeline? We were in a situation where we had no choice but to feel the same way.
In that sense, Dr. Ha Seong-yoon’s change could be said to be quite unique. Even before he got his strange eyes, he showed signs of being strange, but after he got them and came back, he completely turned around.
There must be a clear reason, so we should try to find out that too.
What are you doing?
“The patient is sick. What are you going to do?”
I knew roughly at what point I was being sensitive.
“…That’s right.”
“….”
“Once you sit down, I will look at the affected area.”
His weakness was the profession of ‘doctor’ itself.
‘Otherwise, there’s no way he would kill Song In-myeong directly.’
Whether he was crazy or sleeping, Ha Seong-yoon was a person who kept a certain distance from all events. The only time a guy who hid his true purpose was when someone got hurt. Even if he didn’t feel like he was his patient, he would even quietly withdraw his foot.
Moreover, in the case of Lee Jae-heon, Ha Seong-yoon was paying even more attention because the keywords ‘patient who is likely to die soon’ overlapped with his past as ‘survivor of the other side of the world’. Since Song In-myeong did not seem like a great man who would kill him just because he cut him with a knife, we could see how much he valued his pride as a doctor.
“Shall we look at your shoulders first, sir? “I think I need to check how well you’ve recovered.”
“follow your heart.”
Of course, we need to find out a little more about why it looks like that.
‘So what’s important right now is not Ha Seong-yoon.’
Also, Jung In-ho, who had a mental breakdown, or Yoon Gar-ram, who had creepy tastes, could not be seen as an immediate problem. Anyway, in the case of the main character, it was a situation that had to be drawn out for a long time, and for Yoon Garam, it wasn’t too urgent because all he had to do was decide on the direction.
Even ‘Lee Jae-heon’ had made a kind of promise with Jeong In-ho.
‘But… it’s not for nothing that Jung In-ho came so quickly.’
So, the problem that needs to be solved right now is…
“So, you came and went and didn’t see anyone else?”
“…well.”
Jeong In-ho, who passed the trap to Kwon Yeon-hee, continued speaking with a smooth smile.
“Maybe I saw it.”
Presumably, the three people Song In-myeong killed.
I had to save them.
(Continued in the next part)