Episode 568 It’s all about me (1)
Franz’s eyes widen at the appearance of Noksanna.
It was the same for other people too.
The goddess appeared.
Although it is not real, it is an incarnation that resembles a human being.
However, it could not be denied that there was room for dialogue with this side alone.
“Oh my. So what do you want from me?”
Noksanna smiled kindly.
There was no sign of a being like a god looking down on or looking down on humans.
Just by looking at it, it’s not like you have any idea what’s going on inside.
Literally, her feelings toward this side were filled with the affection of a mother who cherishes her child.
It’s affection.
Ludger burst out laughing at that fact.
okay. The existence of God is truly arbitrary.
Even the act of trying to make everyone in this world fall into a dream was ultimately an act that originated from Noksanna’s affection.
God’s love is like that.
It was so huge and high-dimensional that it was difficult for humans to even understand.
But that was it, and now was the time to take advantage of this long-awaited opportunity.
“Can you please stop?”
“stop?”
Noksanna tilted her head as if she didn’t understand what Ludger was telling her to stop.
But in the end, she is the goddess of dreams.
He immediately understood what Ludger meant and smiled as if it was fun.
“Do you hate dreams?”
“There is no one who doesn’t like dreams. But it is not right to live only dreams.”
“why? In your dreams, you can find eternal happiness and rest. A perfect utopia without pain, sadness, or despair. “Isn’t that what you children want most?”
Utopia.
Is there anyone in the world who would want to refuse that?
Ludger was also honest in his feelings about wanting to live in a place like that if he could.
but.
“A utopia created by someone is not true happiness.”
Opportunities and happiness are not given.
It’s about achieving it yourself.
“What is the difference between just living off of it and raising pigs?”
“That’s an interesting analogy. “Wouldn’t the life of a happy pig be much better?”
“We are human.”
“I guess so. That’s why I’m struggling so hard. But do all humans really think like that?”
That won’t be it.
While there are people like Ludger who stick to their beliefs and do not compromise.
There are probably people who compromise every moment just for the immediate peace and security in front of them.
Rather, if you look at the proportion alone, the latter would be overwhelmingly large.
From the perspective of the people in this world, Rude was the most extraordinary thing.
“Can we motivate daily workers who don’t have enough money to survive right now by telling them that if they work hard, their dreams can come true?”
“….”
“Can you be sure that a child who grew up in an orphanage without parents will become a great adult if he studies hard?”
“….”
“Or, since you are a teacher, you would understand this. “Can you tell a student you teach who lacks magical talent that he can become a wizard that will go down in history if he just works hard?”
There wasn’t.
Because in reality, there are countless walls.
In the end, only a few people were able to reap the fruits of success.
But in the dream it was different.
Anyone could be whatever they wanted.
Anyone could achieve what they wanted.
Perhaps the world Noksanna was trying to create might be the happiest world.
If you were to ask whether the world is right from a macro perspective, you would say that 100 times it is right.
“Is the happiness you achieved by doing so…worth it?”
Everyone’s happiness cannot be realized at the same time.
Suppose there is a rich person.
He will want himself to be the richest person in the world. In that case, Dreamland will give him the richest position.
But what if someone else says they also want to be the richest person?
What will happen then?
If everyone has equal wealth, can it be said that they are the ‘richest’ person?
The same goes for relationships with people.
If a man dreams of loving a beautiful woman, it will come true.
But what happens if the lover dreams of loving another man?
The best way to realize everyone’s happiness is for everyone to live in their own dream world.
Unable to see each other, they live in separate dreams and their own ideals.
Is it really real?
Is it true that things that happen as you wish in your dreams are true happiness?
You will be happy at first.
What will happen next?
People want greater happiness.
If you earn 100, you want to have 1000, and if you earn 1000, you want to hold 10000. It is human.
Is there happiness in continuing to satisfy one’s desires?
Rather, a world where one can do anything will only endow humans with endless boredom.
The desire and desire to obtain something becomes stronger.
Progress will disappear.
In the end, the new world that Noksanna wanted to create was not much different from the world that Lumensis hoped for.
The cage has just been turned into a fish tank.
It’s just that kind of world.
“Oh my. “You don’t seem to like it.”
“Do you think you can really feel the concept of lack if you are buried in a life where there is nothing lacking? “Because there is something lacking and missing, people desperately desire it and feel a sense of accomplishment by getting it.”
What value is there in something that is easily given without any reward?
It might be nice at first, but eventually people will tire.
“okay. It is nearly impossible for everyone to live happily ever after. Either castrate your desires or give up happiness. But there won’t be any sadness.”
“That’s…”
“Sadness, pain, despair. You don’t have to feel that here. “You can forget all your difficult memories, correct your mistakes, and recover from the wounds engraved in your heart.”
Noksanna walked lightly and approached Ludger.
Her jet black hair fluttered, the tips scattering like smoke.
“Isn’t that true for you too?”
Noksanna’s white hand touched Ludger’s shoulder.
The touch was soft and warm, like a mother comforting her child.
“You’ve been hurt a lot so far. I’ve been through so much sadness. However, I persevered through it and did not give up on facing the great fate ahead. “I don’t even know what’s at the end.”
Noksanna smiled as if she was amazed.
“That’s great.”
Words of sincere praise seeped into Ludger’s heart.
“There has never been a child like you. You worked really hard and did well. “But I’m very worried about how long this will continue.”
“No one knows that.”
“okay. Even I, the goddess of dreams, don’t know. But do you really have to live with that hurt?”
There was sadness in Noksanna’s voice.
It must have been quite heartbreaking to see Ludger stubborn as he was hurt by the woman who embraced humans with a loving heart.
That’s probably why you want to embrace them warmly and treat their injured bodies.
Of course, the fact that Ludger is qualified to be the [Holy Grail] will have a significant impact.
However, as much as it was done out of good will, it was the truth without any additions or cuts.
“I can erase your past. Every failure hurts and hurts. “I can cure everything.”
Ludger knew that those words were sincere.
That’s why I was grateful, and even though it was only a moment, my heart was shaken.
Maybe this was the best option.
There may be times in the future when you look back on this moment and think you want to go back to that time.
Even so.
“It’s not possible.”
Noksanna’s hand that touched Ludger’s shoulder trembled.
“Why?”
“Because that’s all me.”
Ludger looked down at his hands.
Beyond the gloves [Rip Van Winkle] was wearing, the hand was one with calluses and residual scars.
Ludger simply did not see things for what they were.
There was a lot of blood on these hands.
And this hand was one that had missed many things.
There was an empty hand that had foolishly let go of something precious without being able to hold it.
“Past failures, pain, and wounds. “It all made me who I am today.”
Twisting.
Ludger clenched his fist and stared at Noksanna with determined eyes.
“So, while I appreciate the offer, I will decline it.”
“I see.”
Noksanna lowered her eyes sullenly.
Noksanna let go of Ludger’s shoulder, turned her back and slowly walked away.
“Oh my. Do you plan to fight until the end? “This is against me.”
“yes.”
“It’s a being much stronger than you? “Even though I can annihilate you with just one finger?”
“But it won’t stop.”
“I see.”
Since her back was turned, Noksanna’s expression could not be seen.
But Ludger had a vague idea that she was smiling.
I don’t know why. It just felt that way.
‘But Noksanna, who tried to escape from the seal, won’t stop with just these words.’
Ludger thought about unlocking the sealing technique he had prepared for the last time.
At that time, the goddess’s body began to move.
“What…”
Franz gasped after being released from the pressure.
Noksanna’s spirit, which seemed as if she would be suffocated at any moment, was lost and she was completely pushed away.
I didn’t know that it was Noksanna’s own strength.
The dream sand that had been extending beyond Lederbelk and into the nearby city stopped.
Eventually, as if turning back time, the dream sand was sucked back towards Lederbelk.
“Has it stopped?”
“Rather than that, the sand is turning again!”
The same was true for those who fought against creatures.
The teachers and dream walkers who were guarding the battleship, whose durability had reached its limit, looked puzzled as the creatures suddenly retreated.
“This can’t be right. why! “Why!”
Nirva, covered in blood and lying sprawled on the deck, cried out in a voice full of despair.
“Goddess! “Why are you giving up when the great world is just around the corner?”
Noksanna, who had awakened from a long sleep, thought that she would finally receive back the power of the world from Lumensis.
Everything in this world will be covered in dream sand and people will have happy dreams forever.
I had no doubt that I believed that.
However, with that last step left, Noksanna chose to quit on her own.
Contrary to when she tried to escape from the obelisk, she crouched down and placed her chin on her hands.
The dream goddess woke up from a dream.
I fell into a dream again, not knowing when I would wake up.
“This can’t be happening like this!”
Nirva soared into the sky, squeezing all his remaining strength.
Nirva glared at the Dreamwalkers with glaring eyes, then flapped her wings and flew away.
“That chicken-headed bastard is running away!”
The Dreamwalkers could only watch as Nirva ran away.
They wanted to catch and kill them right away, but they were almost exhausted from the long fight.
But more important than Nirva running away was that Noksanna had now gone back to sleep.
“Are you done?”
“I won! “We won!”
Everyone was so happy that they had won and hugged each other.
Selina, who had assimilated with the spirit, also breathed a sigh of relief.
Although it was my first spirit assimilation, it was difficult to maintain this power any longer.
Selina’s hair returned to its original pink color.
Or rather, wouldn’t it be more correct to say that my hair was originally black when it was black?
Selina smiled innocently at that thought and spoke to the black fur-like spirit that was approaching her.
“thank you. “Sister Esmeralda.”
Let me know anytime if you need help.
There was no direct answer, but those feelings were clearly conveyed to Selina.
‘Mr Ludger. ‘You did it.’
Selina gazed beyond the still-standing barrier.
“The goddess withdrew her will?”
Franz muttered in disbelief.
Noksanna could cover the world with dream sand right now.
There is literally only one step left until everything ends.
But Noksanna chose to step down instead.
We didn’t even fight, we just exchanged a few words.
“why?”
Just as Franz was surprised, so was Ludger.
It was vaguely felt in his actions and words that he treated humans with kindness, but even so, it was difficult to understand why he would easily give up this level of work.
“Why?”
Ludger asked the still remaining incarnation of Noksanna.
The incarnation looked back at the question and smiled kindly.
“You’re asking a strange thing. “In the end, you who dream are no different from my children.”
“Wasn’t what you wanted to do was take the world back from Lumensis?”
“We originally created this world so that everyone could live together. Of course, the owners of that world belong to the children who lead their intense lives here. It is neither Lumensis’s nor mine.”
“For just that reason…”
“Wasn’t it you who fought for that reason more than anyone else?”
“….”
Noksanna smiled and said to Ludger, who was speechless.
“How could a mother beat such lovely children?”
