Episode 89
Episode 38. The last pride of the princess “I hope you don’t use that drug on me.”
At that, Natalie turned around and glared at Yuma.
“You don’t believe me?”
“I can’t believe it’s like this. How did you foresee this situation? It would have been nice if you had told me in advance.”
“Of course I expected the princess to have good taste, but I’m not a fortune teller, am I? I thought it must have collapsed to some extent since it even brought in the demons.”
“How does the princess know that you are a rose owner?”
“I wasn’t sure about that, so I didn’t say anything. I used to tell Milina Spazer to spill my information, but the relationship between Milina and the princess isn’t very good these days.”
“It must have been the Hu Spaser family. The one that helped with the rose society.”
“I’m not going to stick a knife in your back, honey. Everyone calls me Villain Natalie, but I’m not a bitch enough to betray the man who risked his life to save me.”
There were no servants in the hallway of the mansion. Yuma wondered if Varys had left a listening ear, but apparently he didn’t.
‘By now Natalie must be bragging to Heize and Winstelting that she is a rose wine.’
It was a kind of warning that Zishka dared to bring up the name ‘rose wine’ in front of Baris. A warning that there are still blades hidden without your knowledge.
No matter how drunk he was on drugs, his mind went back and forth. The princess did not share everything with Heize’s gang.
Meanwhile, in the drawing room, Zishka was stunned and hung her head.
‘After drinking the liquid given by rose wine, my mind became clear. what? Are you really saying I’m crazy?’
I saw Yuma’s handkerchief next to the palm resting on the floor. The handkerchief that was wet with her own tears and mucus.
My head was pounding with shame.
Acting like a manic-depressive patient, asking if he could cover up Yo Haim’s work, he sat down like a child and cried…
“Ah… Oh my God. Really…
I must die.”
There wasn’t even a laugh out of it. It was embarrassing enough to want to die to act indecently in a clouded state, but it was possible.
But did I agree to summon a demon to Joachim? Looking back on my memory, it was a decision I made after meeting with Wonstelting and Hayes just a few months ago.
‘There’s no way I could have sanely agreed to that. Since when?
Since when did I lose my mind?’
Zishka took a deep breath and recalled the past.
Then I realized a strange and unpleasant fact.
Memories of the last three years did not come to mind clearly, as if looking into muddy water.
On the other hand, memories from more than three years ago came to my mind as clearly as if they were yesterday.
As a princess, the days she attended state affairs meetings, presented various agendas, and studied for the sake of the empire by reducing sleep every night.
Even then, her mother, Asuka Rose, the empress of the Empire, always treated her coldly. He is strangely generous towards his younger sister, Hella.
At times, I hated my mother and younger siblings to the point of wanting to kill them.
However, Zishka was well aware that human emotions, especially anger, are often exaggerated rather than sincere.
There was not even a speck of dust to commit treason for that reason alone.
Zishka did not even feel inferior to her sister, who was loved by the empress.
-I am much superior to my younger brother.
I am the one who will rule the empire anyway!
That pride and confidence was the driving force behind Zishka.
Since when did he become so broken that he committed such crazy things?
What happened to that mental strength that always kept even anger and sorrow cold?
‘Varis… Abamama!’
Finally, Zishka was able to bring up an old memory of Barrys Cannon and Winsting Rozef.
Varys did not support himself as the first heir to the throne, but supported his younger sister, Hela. Of course, he was a person who was politically hostile to himself.
Zishka remembered the day when Varis came to visit her three years ago and swore allegiance out of the blue.
– I want to entrust you with all my abilities and even one finger of freedom.
– Lord Havaris. What’s this all of a sudden? Don’t you support my brother?
– I only supported the deterioration of Hella externally. My true allegiance lies with Lord Zishka, who will usher in a new era for the Empire.
– Stop talking nonsense!
-If you don’t believe me, you can hit me in the neck with this sword right now.
At that time, Varys pulled out the sword hanging from her waist and politely held it out to Zishka.
-Okay, I’ll slit your neck right away. I don’t need people who are as different as you.
The moment he raised his sword high, Zishka heard a familiar voice.
– Stop Zishka.
The gentle voice of his father, Archduke Winslting. Winslting had been watching this meeting from the beginning, which took place in the secret garden of the imperial palace.
-I know his heart well. Pretending to support Hela was all done by me.
-Abama, what do you mean?
-You need a person like Lord Varys. He gathered considerable information while he was in Hella’s camp by my command. That child’s weakness.
-Abama, what is this…
-My lovely eldest daughter, I will definitely make you the next ruler.
– But, Obama, I can’t trust Sir Varys.
-You didn’t know, but Varys is my best friend. Sooner or later, I will give you new faith.
Varys was still on her knees, awaiting Zishka’s disposition.
-…Wake up, Lord Varys.
We’ll watch.
-Haha Please treat me like the most comfortable servant of Hahaha.
-Zishka Now I can finally tell you a secret. Sir Varys had suffered a lot in the meantime.
Winstelting put his hand on Zishka’s shoulder with a deeply moved face.
-Abama…
-Let the two of them swear an oath of lord and servant with alcohol. Jishu ka Do you remember this drink?
It was the moonshine brewed in the year Zishka became an adult.
The coming-of-age ceremony was quite simple for the first princess of the empire.
This is because the empress ordered to simplify it, saying that the budget was wasted needlessly.
After the coming-of-age ceremony, Winslting secretly summoned Zishka to a brewery on the outskirts of the capital. The first family of the empire, the brewmaster and Winslting, were waiting for Zishka.
That day, the master brewer began brewing moonshine mixed with a shot of Zishka’s sweat.
Winslting had said that we should drink moonshine mixed with Zishka’s sweat together if we ever had something truly to celebrate.
-To me, today is the very day.
I’m sorry I took this drink without your permission.
-Abama, don’t say that.
I will sign an oath between Lord Baris and my lord and servant.
The three of them drank moonshine all night and discussed how to make Zishka empress in the future.
It was a vivid memory that I could still touch if I stretched out my hand.
A single tear flowed from Zishka’s eyes.
“Since I drank that alcohol… since I drank that moonshine… haha.”
Winslting and Varis had put a ‘rose’ in the moonshine of the day.
Since then, Winslting and Varis have been administering ‘roses’ until now while monitoring Zishka’s condition.
The devil’s medicine he bought for the rose society with enough money to build a castle.
Tears flowed endlessly.
There was no day in my memory where I shed as many tears as today.
It felt like my heart would break. Zishka slammed and raked my chest with his fists.
Having remembered all this, he wanted to cut off his head entirely.
I wanted to cut off the mouth that told Obama that I loved her and cut off the ears that believed in those sweet words.
Nothing can be undone.
His relationship with Obama, the only one who believed that he loved him without a price.
Before being used and betrayed by him, the image of herself shining as the first princess of the empire.
The servants who firmly supported him during the fierce strife in the imperial castle.
dear people.
Those countless lives that died without knowing why in Yoheim.
All of them could never go back to the way they were before.
“My past days, struggling to become the light of the empire, end in vain like this… Hehehe.”
Blood was dripping from my chest, which had been scratched by my fingernails. There was no pain or soreness.
Zishka covered her loose breasts and combed her tangled hair.
“You may come back.”
Yuma and Natalie, who had been waiting in the hallway, entered the drawing room.
As soon as Yuma saw Zishka’s eyes, he noticed that something had changed.
“Yuma.”
“Yes lower.”
“Yuma.”
“Yes lower.”
“Yuma. As for you…
Zishka calmed the urge to rise in his chest and continued.
“To you… I want to say thank you. You stopped me.”
Yuma stood still, unable to find words to answer.
Even as a eunuch, it was something I had never even imagined. The arrogant and self-respecting First Princess sincerely apologized.
“I have no intention of covering up or running away from my sins. I will pay for my sins and accept death.”
Zishka had eyes that only humans who had truly accepted death could have.
“But there is one thing I want to ask of you, Yuma, strange boy.”
“What is?”
“Make an opportunity to apologize to the people I killed.”
“Hey, that’s…
“I’ll ask you like this.”
Zishka knelt toward Yuma.
Excluding the Empress, the first princess of the empire, the noblest human beings in the world would kneel before the common people.
Yuma opened her eyes wide and looked down at Zishka.
“Please give them a chance to apologize before I die.”
“Degradation…. Don’t do this. Get up.”
“Please help me to protect my last pride as a princess and the reason I existed!”
mania!
Zishka hit her head on the floor and prayed to Yuma.
Yuma knelt together and held Zishka’s shoulders.
“Lowering! Quit it!”
“Will you… help me? I’ll do anything if you do that. Anything.”
Seeing that, even Natalie, who sold the ‘rose’, felt confused for some reason.
Natalie prided herself on being cold-blooded, but for some reason, her heart seemed to weaken as she spent time with Yuma.
Yuma tore off his coat and wiped the blood from Zishka’s forehead and chest.
“Tell me, low. What happened?”
“Everything came to mind. A terrible memory that I don’t want to remember even for a second and I don’t want to talk about anywhere.
But you deserve to hear me, I have a duty to tell you…
Zishka began to tell Yuma everything she remembered.
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